On the last day of a holiday weekend for my workplace. Today, I logged in to do some extra work to not fall farther behind from the 4-day weekend, saw the immense backlog, paused, responded to a couple of emails, and logged off. I cannot.
I've been putting in overtime nearly every work day since last September and hitting 60-hour weeks since the company layoffs in February. The layoffs disproportionately affected my immediate team. We lost half the team, even though we had been on the precipice of falling behind with the number of people we had before the layoffs. Now, the backlog grows regardless of how many extra hours anyone works.I'm fucking tired. The past two weeks, I did minimal overtime because I've been so burnt out. I felt little relief, knowing that our pile of work is not going to shrink to a reasonable level anytime soon. It is draining my motivation.
I feel like my brain is processing as fast as sludge, which only contributes to the backlog to be honest. Most days, I just want to quit.
I feel fortunate and grateful to have my job, but I've been finding myself occasionally wishing I had been laid off instead.
