So last night, Mother and I got to Elmwood around 2130. Told the officer at the front desk that we were there to pick up the brother. He told us that Tony would be released between 0000 and 0100. So Mother and I sat in the waited. Nearly three hours. I was sore from sitting so long. Mother watched TV. Local channel 36. Scrubs, Frasier, some live comedy show. I brought a book. Finished half of it by the time Tony got out at 0015.
On the way home (I drove), Mother spent the time criticizing and complaining either about my driving or my brother's past and future actions, some of which obviously haven't happened yet.
When we were home, I went straight to bed. Tony stayed up to use his laptop. To think about how different it feels to be on the outside again. Two months is a lengthy time, though not so long that he would cry about being home again.
Anyway, this morning, Mother woke me up at 1100 because Tony and I have dentist appointments at 1500. But of course, I was too tired to get up. Getting to bed at 0100 is no fun anymore, especially after I kept myself awake by reading a book XP (of course, you know reading makes me sleepy)
Lots of dreams, which I do not remember :/ So much for trying to remember them.
Anyway, Mother sat down on the floor and talked to me. Most of the conversation is a blur now. I only remember one part though.
I keep my tanto near the head of my air mattress. Mother saw it and laughed. She joked about how if someone broke into the house, I would be able to slash them and save the family. "You should have been born a boy -laughs-" I just smile. Same family joke as always. Then she asks in Vietnamese, "Are you 'gay'?" I didn't answer. I could feel her staring at me, but I was too tired to open my eyes.
"No 'gay,' okay?" No answer. "No 'gay,' okay?" Still no answer from me. I pretended to go back to sleep so she would leave.
She said "gay" in English instead of "pédé" (French), like how she usually does. Anyway, I don't know what to think :/ When she said it, I know she was laughing, smiling, but she was serious too.
The year and nine months that passed starting from the day after I came out to her, she never mentioned anything. She wouldn't acknowledge anything. Then this morning, she says that. I'm not sure how I should feel or if I should say anything at all. I want to say something, but open conversation does not come naturally to me when it's with my mom. I feel like everything I might say to her would make things between us bad again. She could get angry, I would get angry. She already gets mad at stupid things. This topic would cause a major explosion that I don't want to deal with :/
And I don't think I could handle the awkwardness.
Grr. I wish she hadn't said that this morning. I don't know how to take it. Is this her way of ignoring my coming out and everything that makes me gay? (haha) Or is it her strange way of acknowledging yet still denying it? (A last-ditch attempt at denial, I suppose)
Gah, I wish I had someone to talk to.
Anyway, just read about a lady in England who was attacked with bleach. How fucked up is that? Just because she wanted them to be quiet during the movie. Little fuckers. Overreaction much? It makes me worried about people in the world today. Been hearing about the cars being set on fire in San Francisco. Egh. People are idiots. Frustrating.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
"The Ugly Truth" and Chili's
Hmm, today I woke up at 0800. Drove to OG around 1100 to buy a philosophy textbook from a dude who goes to SJSU and used to go to OG. Talked a bit about classes and selling books. Then I went home. Watched the first episode of ABDC season 3. I'm catching up! Then I watched National Treasure: The Book of Secrets. Fun stuff.
Later, my mom drove me down to lil Nancy's place. Watched The Ugly Truth with her and her cousin, Anna, from Germany (I learned a bit about Germany). Ate at Chili's for the first time.
So the movie was cool. I didn't really know what it was about. But it turned out to be a pretty funny movie. And as always, Katherine Heigl and Gerard Butler are awesome :) Love love love their movies (that I've watched so far). Wish Upon A Star. Knocked Up. 27 Dresses. 300. PS I Love You.
Want to update more, but I have to go pick up my brother. He's finally getting out, even though most of the summer has passed :( Oh well. Let's hope all goes well, yeah?
Later, my mom drove me down to lil Nancy's place. Watched The Ugly Truth with her and her cousin, Anna, from Germany (I learned a bit about Germany). Ate at Chili's for the first time.
So the movie was cool. I didn't really know what it was about. But it turned out to be a pretty funny movie. And as always, Katherine Heigl and Gerard Butler are awesome :) Love love love their movies (that I've watched so far). Wish Upon A Star. Knocked Up. 27 Dresses. 300. PS I Love You.
Want to update more, but I have to go pick up my brother. He's finally getting out, even though most of the summer has passed :( Oh well. Let's hope all goes well, yeah?
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
No understanding. No respect. Nothing.
So this morning, Mother asked me to look for a pair of earrings on the GemsTV website. I did. Couldn't find it. Haven't been able to find it for the past three days.
The first thing she says: What is your problem? I think D was right about you. If you get a lot of money in the future, you're not gonna give any to me. Why do you treat me like that? I'm your mother. You treat your friends better than you treat me. You're probably going to leave me to die alone in a poor place, aren't you?
She misconstrued what D said. He told her she shouldn't put so much faith into any one person. Trust, but don't put your whole life in someone else's life. People can change as time goes by. I might become self-absorbed and selfish. D wasn't talking about me specifically. He was just warning her. But of course, close-minded people don't think in hypothetical situations..
I don't treat my friends better. I treat my friends equally. I give, they give. I help, they help. I listen, they listen. Usually, that's how it works.
I spend money on my friends, knowing that they'll repay me with money, food, advice, or meaningful conversation. And they won't be condescending. Besides, I usually just spot them money for food, a necessity.
Jewelry is not a necessity. Buying jewelry when our family doesn't have much money is not wise. She already has a lot of jewelry. Why the fuck does she need more? Why can't she wait until our money situation is better? I feel like she's trying to rack up more debt again. Of course, I'm not happy about that.
If she hasn't noticed, I have foregone several expensive trips with my friends to save our family money. I even gave up Expo :( But she doesn't hear me complaining. All I'm trying to do is have a fun and relaxing summer with my friends. Only got to see them at most once a week this summer. I could ignore her and go out every day, wasting money. But I don't. I wish she would just stop wasting money on things she doesn't need.
I'm wishing for a lot of things. I want her to stop spending on unnecessary things. I want her to stop getting mad at me because I don't agree that she needs jewelry. I'm the one who should be mad at her. If she wants to waste money, waste it herself. I want her to stop asking me to waste it for her.
If minimalism was a lifestyle, it would be mine. Compared to me, Mother is a spendthrift. That would be fine with me if we had a lot of money, if she wouldn't antagonize me by calling me cheap and unfilial.
Filial piety should be earned, not given without scrutiny. But of course, my opinion doesn't matter. I can't wait till I can fucking leave.
I understand that she likes buying pretty things and whatever. I mean, I don't understand the need for it, but I know she wants what she wants. Just like I want what I want. But I wish she would try to understand where I'm coming from, instead of ignoring what I have to say. Fuck it. I never say what I think. I just do what she wants so I don't get in trouble. I do it all with disdain and a hesitancy. And I guess she finally picked up on it. Now, she's bitching about it.
And you know, I HATE that she assumes I won't take care of her when I'm older. All because I don't agree with her spending compulsions. I mean, what the fuck?? She's taken care of me since I was born. Of course, I'll return the favor. Not because we're family. Because it's just right. I can't believe she doesn't believe in me. This hurts..
I hate that she makes me feel the way I do. I'm never gonna get her respect. I'm never gonna be good enough. She already thinks I'm gonna drop my family from my life as soon as I can. Do I really seem like I'll do that? I don't know. I'm sorry. I can't help but be the way I am. Maybe I shouldn't be around anymore, if she really feels that way, if I'm really like that.
Love without respect. Respect without respect. What's the point?
The first thing she says: What is your problem? I think D was right about you. If you get a lot of money in the future, you're not gonna give any to me. Why do you treat me like that? I'm your mother. You treat your friends better than you treat me. You're probably going to leave me to die alone in a poor place, aren't you?
She misconstrued what D said. He told her she shouldn't put so much faith into any one person. Trust, but don't put your whole life in someone else's life. People can change as time goes by. I might become self-absorbed and selfish. D wasn't talking about me specifically. He was just warning her. But of course, close-minded people don't think in hypothetical situations..
I don't treat my friends better. I treat my friends equally. I give, they give. I help, they help. I listen, they listen. Usually, that's how it works.
I spend money on my friends, knowing that they'll repay me with money, food, advice, or meaningful conversation. And they won't be condescending. Besides, I usually just spot them money for food, a necessity.
Jewelry is not a necessity. Buying jewelry when our family doesn't have much money is not wise. She already has a lot of jewelry. Why the fuck does she need more? Why can't she wait until our money situation is better? I feel like she's trying to rack up more debt again. Of course, I'm not happy about that.
If she hasn't noticed, I have foregone several expensive trips with my friends to save our family money. I even gave up Expo :( But she doesn't hear me complaining. All I'm trying to do is have a fun and relaxing summer with my friends. Only got to see them at most once a week this summer. I could ignore her and go out every day, wasting money. But I don't. I wish she would just stop wasting money on things she doesn't need.
I'm wishing for a lot of things. I want her to stop spending on unnecessary things. I want her to stop getting mad at me because I don't agree that she needs jewelry. I'm the one who should be mad at her. If she wants to waste money, waste it herself. I want her to stop asking me to waste it for her.
If minimalism was a lifestyle, it would be mine. Compared to me, Mother is a spendthrift. That would be fine with me if we had a lot of money, if she wouldn't antagonize me by calling me cheap and unfilial.
Filial piety should be earned, not given without scrutiny. But of course, my opinion doesn't matter. I can't wait till I can fucking leave.
I understand that she likes buying pretty things and whatever. I mean, I don't understand the need for it, but I know she wants what she wants. Just like I want what I want. But I wish she would try to understand where I'm coming from, instead of ignoring what I have to say. Fuck it. I never say what I think. I just do what she wants so I don't get in trouble. I do it all with disdain and a hesitancy. And I guess she finally picked up on it. Now, she's bitching about it.
And you know, I HATE that she assumes I won't take care of her when I'm older. All because I don't agree with her spending compulsions. I mean, what the fuck?? She's taken care of me since I was born. Of course, I'll return the favor. Not because we're family. Because it's just right. I can't believe she doesn't believe in me. This hurts..
I hate that she makes me feel the way I do. I'm never gonna get her respect. I'm never gonna be good enough. She already thinks I'm gonna drop my family from my life as soon as I can. Do I really seem like I'll do that? I don't know. I'm sorry. I can't help but be the way I am. Maybe I shouldn't be around anymore, if she really feels that way, if I'm really like that.
Love without respect. Respect without respect. What's the point?
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Autumn's new house...
It's been two weeks since I had last seen any friends. Today, I finally hung out with Autumn and Maggie.
Chilled at Maggie's for a while, waiting for her stepdad to come home. Then I drove Maggie and Autumn to the mall.
My mission: get a new baseball cap.
Checked out Journey. I didn't really like any of their hats, though Maggie and Autumn liked the fedora look on me. Apparently fits my style haha. Mm, maybe some other time. I didn't buy anything there. Instead, they each bought a pair of shoes. Maggie bought a pair of Harajukus, I think. Autumn bought a pair of Rocket Dogs. After she said she wouldn't haha.
Went to Tilly's. Checked out the baseball caps. Nice stuff. I eventually bought a Fox cap. Actually looks pretty sweet.
I think this was one of the very few times any of my friends have ever seen me purchase any kind of apparel/accessory/etc.
Afterward, we walked around a little bit more. Ended up at the T-Mobile booth because Maggie is gonna get a phone upgrade. Ended up in Victoria's Secret just minutes later. Then Charlotte Russe.
Then finally, we were on our way out of the mall haha. Drove to CD Aquarium to see if there were any turtles for sale. Nope. No more. Not legal haha. Gotta find some other vendor.
Went to Autumn's new house downtown. Pretty frickin' nice place for a downtown space. Got a short tour of her house. Ate some of Autumn's homemade foods :P Tasty stuff. We, plus Roman, played a few of those small group games, like The Right Party, Artist, and The Stick Game. I think that's what they were called. I figured out the first one. The last two, I was completely clueless haha. I'm more likely to figure out the word games than the visual ones XP
Anyway, they finished watching Step Brothers. I had already watched it. For a comedy, its gag reel sucked. Very disappointing.
Looked at some of Autumn and Roman's family album. Fun stuff.
Went downstairs to Autumn's room to look at the SCV chair listing. Not updated. Watched YouTube videos.
Then Maggie's parents came to pick her up, and I drove Autumn back to Maggie's so that she could get her van.
And yeah, that was my fun day ^_^
Next time, we should have a sleepover haha. The last sleepover I went to was Autumn's 16th or 17th birthday party, I don't remember exactly haha.
Hmm, so lately I've been dreaming a lot. I think it might be because I keep waking up. REM sleep apparently happening more often. I can't recall my dreams anymore, but I remember thinking some of them were too violent, too freaky, or just damn strange in an emotional way. I'm gonna try to remember my dreams and update about them. I haven't been able to keep a dream in my memory for more than an hour for a long while now.
Resolutions. Hmm. Haha. My ability to fulfill resolutions gradually diminishes as the year goes on. I only have six left that I may or may not attempt. If I could remember which ones they were, I'd put them here for you to see :P But I don't and they're in my wallet. Next year, I'll keep my list short and more practical/probable haha.
And I wish textbooks weren't so expensive. I only need textbooks for three classes next semester, and the total cost is still in the hundreds. Ordered my Asian American Studies and Physics books from the school bookstore because they happen to be cheapest compared to local bookstores and even Amazon. The book I need for my Philosophy class, I found on Craigslist. Amazon sells used copies for about $45 (plus tax and shipping/handling), while the guy on Craigslist is selling his for $30.50. Good deal, yeah? Hopefully so.
Man, I spent like half an hour this morning posting all my textbooks on Craigslist. I hope I can sell them on there. If I don't sell them by the first of August, I'm just gonna drive them all to Robert's Bookstore and see if I get a good deal there for them. I need to sell my books earlier next time haha. This is pretty late. Not sure I'll get any good prices, but we'll see. Need to get back some money. Tuition going up by about $600-700 for CSU undergrads, financial aid not going up that much. But eh, I feel worse for people who don't receive FA :/
Mm, I think that's all I want to say for now. Just wanted to put something up since it's been more than two weeks since my last entry.
Chilled at Maggie's for a while, waiting for her stepdad to come home. Then I drove Maggie and Autumn to the mall.
My mission: get a new baseball cap.
Checked out Journey. I didn't really like any of their hats, though Maggie and Autumn liked the fedora look on me. Apparently fits my style haha. Mm, maybe some other time. I didn't buy anything there. Instead, they each bought a pair of shoes. Maggie bought a pair of Harajukus, I think. Autumn bought a pair of Rocket Dogs. After she said she wouldn't haha.
Went to Tilly's. Checked out the baseball caps. Nice stuff. I eventually bought a Fox cap. Actually looks pretty sweet.
I think this was one of the very few times any of my friends have ever seen me purchase any kind of apparel/accessory/etc.
Afterward, we walked around a little bit more. Ended up at the T-Mobile booth because Maggie is gonna get a phone upgrade. Ended up in Victoria's Secret just minutes later. Then Charlotte Russe.
Then finally, we were on our way out of the mall haha. Drove to CD Aquarium to see if there were any turtles for sale. Nope. No more. Not legal haha. Gotta find some other vendor.
Went to Autumn's new house downtown. Pretty frickin' nice place for a downtown space. Got a short tour of her house. Ate some of Autumn's homemade foods :P Tasty stuff. We, plus Roman, played a few of those small group games, like The Right Party, Artist, and The Stick Game. I think that's what they were called. I figured out the first one. The last two, I was completely clueless haha. I'm more likely to figure out the word games than the visual ones XP
Anyway, they finished watching Step Brothers. I had already watched it. For a comedy, its gag reel sucked. Very disappointing.
Looked at some of Autumn and Roman's family album. Fun stuff.
Went downstairs to Autumn's room to look at the SCV chair listing. Not updated. Watched YouTube videos.
Then Maggie's parents came to pick her up, and I drove Autumn back to Maggie's so that she could get her van.
And yeah, that was my fun day ^_^
Next time, we should have a sleepover haha. The last sleepover I went to was Autumn's 16th or 17th birthday party, I don't remember exactly haha.
Hmm, so lately I've been dreaming a lot. I think it might be because I keep waking up. REM sleep apparently happening more often. I can't recall my dreams anymore, but I remember thinking some of them were too violent, too freaky, or just damn strange in an emotional way. I'm gonna try to remember my dreams and update about them. I haven't been able to keep a dream in my memory for more than an hour for a long while now.
Resolutions. Hmm. Haha. My ability to fulfill resolutions gradually diminishes as the year goes on. I only have six left that I may or may not attempt. If I could remember which ones they were, I'd put them here for you to see :P But I don't and they're in my wallet. Next year, I'll keep my list short and more practical/probable haha.
And I wish textbooks weren't so expensive. I only need textbooks for three classes next semester, and the total cost is still in the hundreds. Ordered my Asian American Studies and Physics books from the school bookstore because they happen to be cheapest compared to local bookstores and even Amazon. The book I need for my Philosophy class, I found on Craigslist. Amazon sells used copies for about $45 (plus tax and shipping/handling), while the guy on Craigslist is selling his for $30.50. Good deal, yeah? Hopefully so.
Man, I spent like half an hour this morning posting all my textbooks on Craigslist. I hope I can sell them on there. If I don't sell them by the first of August, I'm just gonna drive them all to Robert's Bookstore and see if I get a good deal there for them. I need to sell my books earlier next time haha. This is pretty late. Not sure I'll get any good prices, but we'll see. Need to get back some money. Tuition going up by about $600-700 for CSU undergrads, financial aid not going up that much. But eh, I feel worse for people who don't receive FA :/
Mm, I think that's all I want to say for now. Just wanted to put something up since it's been more than two weeks since my last entry.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Yay, Widmer :P
Yesterday, I woke up early to drive Mother to Stockton. Not a fun trip.
Drove back in time to visit the Brother at 1600.
Ate dinner at D's place.
Went home to get ready to go to Angelica's house. I still haven't really met her haha, but Randy invited me because Le told him to. Yeah, fun stuff.
Le gave me a ride :)
People who showed up: Alex O, Randy, Le, Andrew, Cathy, Nancy, Julian, Kiet, Nick S, Ariel, Alvin, Ashley, Randy's suitemate Andy, Ariane, her dance members Jae-Ar and Melfred, Alex's cousin Raul(?), and two guys that I didn't talk to XP
Nick showed me where the last Widmer Hefeweizen was hiding in the fridge ^_^ Haha finally, someone else who drinks wheat beer. Everyone else prefers pale ale or lagers. Or just not beer haha.
Anyway, watched two matches of beer pong before Le took me home at midnight. Nancy, beginner's luck, yeah? Crazy good skills hahaha. Andy is pretty damn awesome at beer pong too. Lots of practice in the dorms haha.
When I went home, my face was flushed, and Mother asked if I drank alcohol. I said there was major game-playing going on. You know how we teenagers get excited when playing games haha.
I haven't had a beer in like a month. Last time was when Tony left a bottle open in the fridge and then got arrested XP
Haha anyway, fun time last night, and it wasn't because I was drunk. I wasn't even drunk. I don't think I was even tipsy. Just really, really warm. Only thing I don't like about drinking (in the summer) is it makes me burn up. Winter drinking, fine, fun. Summer drinking, I need to watch myself.
Oh yeah, Mother was happy and surprised that I was home last night :P See? She can trust me somewhat.
This afternoon (I woke up at 1230 heh), we ate lunch (more like my breakfast) and talked about the past (we do this often). Then we talked about life insurance and such. I have a mental list of the things I want to keep. It includes the dinner table and the chairs. Not for their worth, but for the memories. They're almost as old as I am.
Lots of preparation and anticipation of years to come. And deaths and more. I'm not thinking about it, but Mother is trying to plan ahead :/ Yeah, realistic. I don't want to be realistic right now. But we only started talking about these things because we were talking about Michael Jackson's will -_- Will --> Life insurance --> Debts --> Keepsakes, etc... Don't want the government taking things that mean something to us.
Drove back in time to visit the Brother at 1600.
Ate dinner at D's place.
Went home to get ready to go to Angelica's house. I still haven't really met her haha, but Randy invited me because Le told him to. Yeah, fun stuff.
Le gave me a ride :)
People who showed up: Alex O, Randy, Le, Andrew, Cathy, Nancy, Julian, Kiet, Nick S, Ariel, Alvin, Ashley, Randy's suitemate Andy, Ariane, her dance members Jae-Ar and Melfred, Alex's cousin Raul(?), and two guys that I didn't talk to XP
Nick showed me where the last Widmer Hefeweizen was hiding in the fridge ^_^ Haha finally, someone else who drinks wheat beer. Everyone else prefers pale ale or lagers. Or just not beer haha.
Anyway, watched two matches of beer pong before Le took me home at midnight. Nancy, beginner's luck, yeah? Crazy good skills hahaha. Andy is pretty damn awesome at beer pong too. Lots of practice in the dorms haha.
When I went home, my face was flushed, and Mother asked if I drank alcohol. I said there was major game-playing going on. You know how we teenagers get excited when playing games haha.
I haven't had a beer in like a month. Last time was when Tony left a bottle open in the fridge and then got arrested XP
Haha anyway, fun time last night, and it wasn't because I was drunk. I wasn't even drunk. I don't think I was even tipsy. Just really, really warm. Only thing I don't like about drinking (in the summer) is it makes me burn up. Winter drinking, fine, fun. Summer drinking, I need to watch myself.
Oh yeah, Mother was happy and surprised that I was home last night :P See? She can trust me somewhat.
This afternoon (I woke up at 1230 heh), we ate lunch (more like my breakfast) and talked about the past (we do this often). Then we talked about life insurance and such. I have a mental list of the things I want to keep. It includes the dinner table and the chairs. Not for their worth, but for the memories. They're almost as old as I am.
Lots of preparation and anticipation of years to come. And deaths and more. I'm not thinking about it, but Mother is trying to plan ahead :/ Yeah, realistic. I don't want to be realistic right now. But we only started talking about these things because we were talking about Michael Jackson's will -_- Will --> Life insurance --> Debts --> Keepsakes, etc... Don't want the government taking things that mean something to us.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Got my glasses...
Yes, they are plastic. Plastic frame. Yay. Mother chose them, and I found out why. She likes the rectangular look because of Sarah Palin XP
I felt so emo when I started wearing them haha. But at least they're not completely black. Reddish too. Not really sure what the color is called, but it's reddish. Maybe a really dark magenta? haha
These are going to take some getting used to. My vertical vision is limited, and my peripheral (on the sides) is clearer. It's usually the other way around, but ok.
And yes, I totally felt silly taking these pictures, but I don't know when's the next time I'm going to see you. So my new glasses won't be such a big surprise :P
Now, back to watching Heroes :D
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Social Dance Wait List
No more ^_^
I just got a message from SJSU telling me that I am no longer on the wait list for the Social Dance class, yay! No step training, awesome. I dropped it as soon as I got the message. Giving someone else my spot in Step.
Now, my schedule is set. Hopefully, nothing bad happens, like it turns out my enrollment was a computer error XP
Anyway, people are shooting fireworks from Baldwin Elementary. Also, my next-door neighbor was shooting them from his driveway. Loud.
Ok, I'm so happy about my schedule. Official sched:
Monday/Wednesday
0900-1015 AAS 33A (Asian American US History/Politics)
1030-1145 KIN 46A (Beginning Social Dance)
Tuesday/Thursday
0900-1015 PHYS 1 (Elementary Physics)
1030-1145 PHIL 61 (Moral Philosophy)
Tuesdays only 1330-1620 PHYS 1L (Elementary Physics Lab)
Friday
0950-1130 KIN 65A (Beginning Ice Hockey)
This will hopefully be a fun semester. Despite it being another five-day school week. I need more fun. In school. Yeah. Plus, since I would get out relatively early on Fridays and I would be driving my car, I could probably go chill with people afterward :D Yay. I'm getting excited about the possibilities haha. We'll see what happens.
For now, I'm just gonna try to enjoy the next two months before I go back to school. And also remember to sell my old textbooks at some point, no matter how cheap. Almost any money is good money XP haha. Save, save, save...
I just got a message from SJSU telling me that I am no longer on the wait list for the Social Dance class, yay! No step training, awesome. I dropped it as soon as I got the message. Giving someone else my spot in Step.
Now, my schedule is set. Hopefully, nothing bad happens, like it turns out my enrollment was a computer error XP
Anyway, people are shooting fireworks from Baldwin Elementary. Also, my next-door neighbor was shooting them from his driveway. Loud.
Ok, I'm so happy about my schedule. Official sched:
Monday/Wednesday
0900-1015 AAS 33A (Asian American US History/Politics)
1030-1145 KIN 46A (Beginning Social Dance)
Tuesday/Thursday
0900-1015 PHYS 1 (Elementary Physics)
1030-1145 PHIL 61 (Moral Philosophy)
Tuesdays only 1330-1620 PHYS 1L (Elementary Physics Lab)
Friday
0950-1130 KIN 65A (Beginning Ice Hockey)
This will hopefully be a fun semester. Despite it being another five-day school week. I need more fun. In school. Yeah. Plus, since I would get out relatively early on Fridays and I would be driving my car, I could probably go chill with people afterward :D Yay. I'm getting excited about the possibilities haha. We'll see what happens.
For now, I'm just gonna try to enjoy the next two months before I go back to school. And also remember to sell my old textbooks at some point, no matter how cheap. Almost any money is good money XP haha. Save, save, save...
Movie and a movie...
Eastridge today with Claudia. I was a little late because I had to buy food for Mother.
Got to the mall a bit after 1300. Missed the IMAX showing. Got tickets to Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen at 1400 instead. Walked around the mall a bit. Talked. Watched the movie.
Pretty awesome movie. I would have to agree with sxephil's take on the movie (btw, sxephil is a YouTuber). As a Michael Bay flick, it did not fail. As a movie in general, it was just ok. But lots of laughs. Megan Fox, awesome :P Isabel Lucas, smokin' as well hahaha. The wankster autobots were ok, not that hilarious. I was shocked, SHOCKED, about what happened to OP.
Overall, the movie was fun :P
But, of course, I'm easily entertained.
After the movie let out, Claudia and I stayed in for a while. We decided to leave when the theatre employees needed to clean up the theatre. Walked toward the entrance. Sat down in front of one of those opaque windows for half an hour. Conversed about movies (I want to watch G.I. Joe and 2012) and school (language classes are a hassle in college).
At 1725, we started walking back toward the rooms, looking for Up @ 1740. Found it. The room was being cleaned. Claudia bought a pretzel because I urged her to buy food :P Then we watched the movie.
I've been hearing about how all my friends cried within the first ten minutes of the movie. Ten minutes, I was sad. It was heartbreaking. But I didn't cry. My eyes got a little watery, but I didn't cry. I might have been fighting it, who knows? But I didn't cry :P Sad movie. Good one. I really sympathized with Carl. And Russel grew on me. And heh, it took me a few minutes to realize he was Asian XP Not used to main Asian characters in cartoons or anything like that.
Sorry, I'm rushing through this. I'm really tired. My shoulder hurts. Been sitting for hours haha.
Anyway, Happy Fourth of July. I hear the police are putting out as many sobriety check points as possible.
Oh yeah, that was my first movie hopping experience. So exciting. I feel so cool. Yeah, ok.
Got to the mall a bit after 1300. Missed the IMAX showing. Got tickets to Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen at 1400 instead. Walked around the mall a bit. Talked. Watched the movie.
Pretty awesome movie. I would have to agree with sxephil's take on the movie (btw, sxephil is a YouTuber). As a Michael Bay flick, it did not fail. As a movie in general, it was just ok. But lots of laughs. Megan Fox, awesome :P Isabel Lucas, smokin' as well hahaha. The wankster autobots were ok, not that hilarious. I was shocked, SHOCKED, about what happened to OP.
Overall, the movie was fun :P
But, of course, I'm easily entertained.
After the movie let out, Claudia and I stayed in for a while. We decided to leave when the theatre employees needed to clean up the theatre. Walked toward the entrance. Sat down in front of one of those opaque windows for half an hour. Conversed about movies (I want to watch G.I. Joe and 2012) and school (language classes are a hassle in college).
At 1725, we started walking back toward the rooms, looking for Up @ 1740. Found it. The room was being cleaned. Claudia bought a pretzel because I urged her to buy food :P Then we watched the movie.
I've been hearing about how all my friends cried within the first ten minutes of the movie. Ten minutes, I was sad. It was heartbreaking. But I didn't cry. My eyes got a little watery, but I didn't cry. I might have been fighting it, who knows? But I didn't cry :P Sad movie. Good one. I really sympathized with Carl. And Russel grew on me. And heh, it took me a few minutes to realize he was Asian XP Not used to main Asian characters in cartoons or anything like that.
Sorry, I'm rushing through this. I'm really tired. My shoulder hurts. Been sitting for hours haha.
Anyway, Happy Fourth of July. I hear the police are putting out as many sobriety check points as possible.
Oh yeah, that was my first movie hopping experience. So exciting. I feel so cool. Yeah, ok.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
A boring day to you...
But it was an interesting day to me.
Hmm, so this morning, I got out of bed early (0700) for the first time in weeks. I usually wake up at 0700 but get up after 1000.
The only reason I got up early was because Mother wanted me to move my car across the street so that the sanitation workers could get to the trash and branches easily. I could have moved the car last night, but Mother wouldn't let me -_-
Anyway, after moving the car, I continued reading one of the six Dean Koontz novels I have. The Darkest Evening of the Year. Good stuff.
Then Mother asked me to go turn in a check for Tony's debt to the county :P So I drove, arrived, paid, and went back the way I came. Bad idea, though I didn't have any choice but to go that way, I don't know any other way. I'm not familiar with the Milpitas area.
So I was on Montague. Pretty close to the 101 entrance. However, I ended up stuck for about half an hour, waiting for a train to get out of the way. It moved east for a while and then just stopped. People behind me just made U-turns and found some other way around. I couldn't really do that because the center divide started next to my car -_- Besides, I didn't know my way around.
I shifted the Avalon into Park and waited. Sang along to the radio. Read a little bit. At some point, the car in front of me reversed into the next lane and made a U-turn. I moved up and continued to wait. An older man in a Prius got out of his car and asked me if I knew a way that would avoid the long freight. At this point, I was reading a map, trying to guess where the train wouldn't reach.
Then the train started moving west. I put the map away and waited. Finally, after maybe ten minutes, I could go forward. Yay. Home.
I finished the novel I was reading. Then I didn't know what to do. I spent fifteen minutes pacing around my house, trying to think of something to do. Nothing came to mind -_- I didn't want to go on the computer haha.
Then I remembered I needed to reorganize my dresser a bit. So I sat down on floor of my bedroom and went through the two bottom drawers of my dresser. Lots of papers and toys :P Mostly old homework and notes from high school. Ooh, I found my missing hacky sack and $50 savings bond haha. I'll probably lose them again.
I went through most of my old schoolwork. Nostalgia haha. I seriously have a difficult time throwing things away, even old homework and notes, as unusual as that may be.
I even kept my 49/100 essay from Mohr's class XP Man, I remember that grade totally broke me down (psychologically, not emotionally). I didn't cry about it. I just stared at it in disbelief and felt like a total failure. It was toward the end of the school year too, so that meant I had gotten worse with my writing. Though, I miraculously scored a 5 on the AP exam a month later haha. Anyway, I think I'm keeping that 49 essay because I want to remind myself that I shouldn't aim for perfect (I'd be too easily disappointed haha). I will always remember Mohr's English 3AP as the class that destroyed my 4.0 streak, ruined my chances of becoming valedictorian, and showed me that I don't need to aim so high. Although I didn't really like Mohr's class, I'm secretly glad I took it. I'm not sure if I can explain why or how, but it helped me. Especially the first-B-on-a-report-card part haha.
Anyway, yeah, I went through all the old stuff. And I actually threw half the papers away :( It made me sad, but I don't need them. I don't need any of it, but I can't throw them all away. Baby steps, baby steps.
I don't know what other people do with their homeworks and stuff. But this is what I do. I keep everything until the end of the semester or school year. Then a week after the semester or year ends, I throw away stuff I don't care about (usually not much).
When I checked today, I had two big piles and three small, scattered piles of papers in my drawers. After spending two or four hours sorting (I don't pay attention to time all the time), I now have one relatively small pile and two full folders on top of that in my bottom drawer :) I'm so proud of myself. Though, when I went to throw the large pile of papers into the recycling bin, I felt a little sad. Haha I'm so pathetic.
Well, I'm happy to say that two of my drawers are now organized. I'll organize my top drawer some other time. A few random things in that one. I have some of those cereal prizes in there haha. Anyone want a Mater or Lightning McQueen plush? Or a mini Guitar Hero toy? haha :P Oh, my rainbow armband is in there too :D I thought I misplaced it. Mm, ok, I'm gonna stop with the inventory :P
Fourth of July on Saturday. I wonder if Alex D is in LA right now. Expo and all XP Ah, maybe I should call him and ask him to get me a souvenir heh. Anyway, I wonder what people are gonna do for Independence Day. I think I might just be staying home or chilling at lil Nancy's place. We'll see.
Mm, oh, so I was thinking about the things I need to buy. I think I should put off buying sunglasses, since I need my glasses to see haha. So just need to buy a nice cap. And I want a new belt.
Hmm, I should take out some stuff from my closet and dresser tomorrow to donate to Goodwill. Give away those company caps (Sprint, Omega) that my mom thinks I should wear. I'll give them away to warrant the purchase of a nicer cap :D Without a company name. I do not like to advertise companies of which I do not utilize the services. Besides, company caps are lame XP Unless the company specifically makes apparel and such.
Eek. I don't know why, but every night for the past week or so, there has been a loud but dull BOOM (or thud) somewhere outside my house. It's really difficult to determine how close it is. Sometimes, I think it's right outside the wall of my house. Other times, it sounds like it's two houses down.
Maybe Mother's paranoia has suddenly materialized into frightening noises in the middle of the night. Or people are just really excited about the Fourth of July. Premature excitement, you think?
Mmm, you think I should express myself more in my entries? Or is this good? I mean, obviously, I'm not gonna tell you everything that goes on in my head. One, that's too much info. Two, I don't think that's possible. Three, I'm still useless with words.
Ugh, I want to go out. My sunburn didn't really last long. Yay. I'm getting too tired of doing the same thing every day. Ooh, but I'm getting a little better with my chin-ups :D Not all the way up, but better than before haha. I'll be doing full chin-ups in no time. Or at least until Tony takes back his Iron Gym stuff XP
Eh, I think I'm either gonna go sleep or read. Fun stuff. Fun days should be coming soon. Maybe a movie or a walk in the park, if only people would reply to their texts on time.
Hmm, so this morning, I got out of bed early (0700) for the first time in weeks. I usually wake up at 0700 but get up after 1000.
The only reason I got up early was because Mother wanted me to move my car across the street so that the sanitation workers could get to the trash and branches easily. I could have moved the car last night, but Mother wouldn't let me -_-
Anyway, after moving the car, I continued reading one of the six Dean Koontz novels I have. The Darkest Evening of the Year. Good stuff.
Then Mother asked me to go turn in a check for Tony's debt to the county :P So I drove, arrived, paid, and went back the way I came. Bad idea, though I didn't have any choice but to go that way, I don't know any other way. I'm not familiar with the Milpitas area.
So I was on Montague. Pretty close to the 101 entrance. However, I ended up stuck for about half an hour, waiting for a train to get out of the way. It moved east for a while and then just stopped. People behind me just made U-turns and found some other way around. I couldn't really do that because the center divide started next to my car -_- Besides, I didn't know my way around.
I shifted the Avalon into Park and waited. Sang along to the radio. Read a little bit. At some point, the car in front of me reversed into the next lane and made a U-turn. I moved up and continued to wait. An older man in a Prius got out of his car and asked me if I knew a way that would avoid the long freight. At this point, I was reading a map, trying to guess where the train wouldn't reach.
Then the train started moving west. I put the map away and waited. Finally, after maybe ten minutes, I could go forward. Yay. Home.
I finished the novel I was reading. Then I didn't know what to do. I spent fifteen minutes pacing around my house, trying to think of something to do. Nothing came to mind -_- I didn't want to go on the computer haha.
Then I remembered I needed to reorganize my dresser a bit. So I sat down on floor of my bedroom and went through the two bottom drawers of my dresser. Lots of papers and toys :P Mostly old homework and notes from high school. Ooh, I found my missing hacky sack and $50 savings bond haha. I'll probably lose them again.
I went through most of my old schoolwork. Nostalgia haha. I seriously have a difficult time throwing things away, even old homework and notes, as unusual as that may be.
I even kept my 49/100 essay from Mohr's class XP Man, I remember that grade totally broke me down (psychologically, not emotionally). I didn't cry about it. I just stared at it in disbelief and felt like a total failure. It was toward the end of the school year too, so that meant I had gotten worse with my writing. Though, I miraculously scored a 5 on the AP exam a month later haha. Anyway, I think I'm keeping that 49 essay because I want to remind myself that I shouldn't aim for perfect (I'd be too easily disappointed haha). I will always remember Mohr's English 3AP as the class that destroyed my 4.0 streak, ruined my chances of becoming valedictorian, and showed me that I don't need to aim so high. Although I didn't really like Mohr's class, I'm secretly glad I took it. I'm not sure if I can explain why or how, but it helped me. Especially the first-B-on-a-report-card part haha.
Anyway, yeah, I went through all the old stuff. And I actually threw half the papers away :( It made me sad, but I don't need them. I don't need any of it, but I can't throw them all away. Baby steps, baby steps.
I don't know what other people do with their homeworks and stuff. But this is what I do. I keep everything until the end of the semester or school year. Then a week after the semester or year ends, I throw away stuff I don't care about (usually not much).
When I checked today, I had two big piles and three small, scattered piles of papers in my drawers. After spending two or four hours sorting (I don't pay attention to time all the time), I now have one relatively small pile and two full folders on top of that in my bottom drawer :) I'm so proud of myself. Though, when I went to throw the large pile of papers into the recycling bin, I felt a little sad. Haha I'm so pathetic.
Well, I'm happy to say that two of my drawers are now organized. I'll organize my top drawer some other time. A few random things in that one. I have some of those cereal prizes in there haha. Anyone want a Mater or Lightning McQueen plush? Or a mini Guitar Hero toy? haha :P Oh, my rainbow armband is in there too :D I thought I misplaced it. Mm, ok, I'm gonna stop with the inventory :P
Fourth of July on Saturday. I wonder if Alex D is in LA right now. Expo and all XP Ah, maybe I should call him and ask him to get me a souvenir heh. Anyway, I wonder what people are gonna do for Independence Day. I think I might just be staying home or chilling at lil Nancy's place. We'll see.
Mm, oh, so I was thinking about the things I need to buy. I think I should put off buying sunglasses, since I need my glasses to see haha. So just need to buy a nice cap. And I want a new belt.
Hmm, I should take out some stuff from my closet and dresser tomorrow to donate to Goodwill. Give away those company caps (Sprint, Omega) that my mom thinks I should wear. I'll give them away to warrant the purchase of a nicer cap :D Without a company name. I do not like to advertise companies of which I do not utilize the services. Besides, company caps are lame XP Unless the company specifically makes apparel and such.
Eek. I don't know why, but every night for the past week or so, there has been a loud but dull BOOM (or thud) somewhere outside my house. It's really difficult to determine how close it is. Sometimes, I think it's right outside the wall of my house. Other times, it sounds like it's two houses down.
Maybe Mother's paranoia has suddenly materialized into frightening noises in the middle of the night. Or people are just really excited about the Fourth of July. Premature excitement, you think?
Mmm, you think I should express myself more in my entries? Or is this good? I mean, obviously, I'm not gonna tell you everything that goes on in my head. One, that's too much info. Two, I don't think that's possible. Three, I'm still useless with words.
Ugh, I want to go out. My sunburn didn't really last long. Yay. I'm getting too tired of doing the same thing every day. Ooh, but I'm getting a little better with my chin-ups :D Not all the way up, but better than before haha. I'll be doing full chin-ups in no time. Or at least until Tony takes back his Iron Gym stuff XP
Eh, I think I'm either gonna go sleep or read. Fun stuff. Fun days should be coming soon. Maybe a movie or a walk in the park, if only people would reply to their texts on time.
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