You're 22! Woohoo! :D
Anyway, the past few weeks have been a blur. I don't really remember too much /:
Wednesday, June 29, I went hiking with Albert, Steven F, Christine L, her younger brother Andy, Marian L, and Joanna L. I walked from my house to the start of the hill that leads up to IBM. Albert was supposed to meet me at the bottom and hike up with me. But he drove up the hill and came back for me later XD Drove me to the parking lot up the hill. We all went on a trail, which lasted about an hour. Got to know Steven a bit. Hadn't seen him since Lisa H's birthday lunch in our second semester of college. Anyway, Marian and Joanna kept falling behind on the hike because they are not "outdoorsy" people. Had to take several breaks for them to catch up. We stayed at the top of the hill for a while, admiring the view of the city, laughing about random stuff--like the giant ants that live on the hill and falling off the cliff because the fence isn't sturdy--and walking down memory lane to childhood.
After we walked down to the cars, Steven, Albert, and finally Christine competed to see who could access the Internet on their phones the fastest if at all in the hills. Christine won XD Albert and Steven had to check their jury duty statuses. Then we all went to Sweet Tomatoes down the road. Had a hearty meal XP I piled a bunch of salad stuff on my plate, while everyone else took small portions of salad <_< Had clam chowder because everyone else recommended it. Had different tasty bread. Got some jello (it's been a while since I've eaten American jello). Then frozen yogurt (but I think it was actually ice cream) on a cone. I was sooo full, but I had to get my money's worth. And it was worth it XD
This past Thursday evening, July 14, I went to the movies with Harrison who gave me a ride, Amy G, Lisa H, Albert, and Christine. Transformers 3... was ok. Overall, just eh. Parts of it were amazing though. Really good CG, especially in the battle scenes. Story was eh, but again certain parts of the storyline were really good. Acting and human characters were meh. I liked Epps' part, and that was really it. Most of the other characters annoyed me too much -_-
Got out of the movie after 23h00. Talked for a little while with everyone before parting ways. Had to go home soon because Mother would have freaked out if I didn't get home before midnight.
Friday... Mother had a car accident in the morning. Some guy in a Honda rear-ended the Murano in the right-turn lane... after they had both stopped for a while. Mother got his insurance policy cancellation notice but nothing else really. She told him that they should move their cars out of the street to not block traffic, but the guy drove off -_- Mother freaked out and called me when I was on my way out of the house. Told me to stay home so that I could call the police for her when she got home. Except I can't make a police report if she leaves the scene without getting any witnesses -_- But she came home, Harrison walked to my house, and I called our insurance company. Harrison waited a long time before I finally finished the call and we could leave. Mother drove us to the light rail.
I was irritated because Mother kept yelling at me like everything that happened this morning was my fault. If she had just calmly asked me to call the insurance company, I would have. But she didn't, so I was eager to get out of the house. And I think this is a waste of time. There's very little visible damage to the bumper. But the three or four scratches really set Mother off because "it's a new car." It's two years old, and cars eventually get minor damages after a while of driving. But no, she was furious that I even suggested that we let the matter go.
If I were in Mother's place, I would be furious that the guy drove off without giving all of his information, which luckily turned out to be on the letter he gave Mother. But no, Mother's furious that the guy lightly tapped the bumper. She started acting a bit racist, saying that Mexicans can't drive by the law and they always do shit to others without caring or whatever. I was pissed that she said any of that, and Harrison could kinda pick up what she was saying too ):
Anyway, this crap... grrr.. I have to go with Mother on Tuesday at 11h30 to some auto body shop to get an inspection to assess the damage, which really doesn't look like much. Harrison said it looked like it needed a $5 paint job, with which I agree. But of course, it's actually probably gonna cost at least $200 or something -___-
After all that hassle and arriving at campus, Harrison and I walked around and talked and stuff. We went job hunting as well. Checked out places around the campus, like Pizza My Heart, Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream, and Gordon Biersch. Also took the light rail back toward Oakridge. Walked there from the light rail (and Harrison gave me a piggy back ride a part of the way). Went to Target so Harrison could buy a kiddie pool and a foam noodle for his water balloon fight next Friday. Also asked around to see if some stores were hiring. Then light rail to our stop near home. Walked for half an hour to Harrison's house. Tried to play with his kittens, but they were too cautious of me especially the black one (again? >: So sad). Sat and talked with Harrison for a bit. Then went home.
So the interesting thing about applying for jobs now is that most places only have online applications. Three or four of the places Harrison and I checked out told us that we had to print out the applications, fill them out, and turn them in. And two places had the actual physical applications on hand. So sad -_-
Saturday, I filled out some job applications because Shiva said she wouldn't talk to me until I got ten done ): I posted this on Facebook, and other people did not sympathize with me -_- Instead, they were proud of Shiva. Rawr.
Sunday, I was anticipating Shiva's return to San Jose :) She got to my house around 15h00. She got settled into my house, and then we went to Harrison's house to play with the kittens again XP I think Shiva just has a way with animals. The kittens allowed us to pet and rub them to sleep.
Then I drove Shiva and Harrison in Shiva's car to Stephanie S's house. Then Shiva and I switched. Drove downtown. Were a bit late. Parked in front of Los Gallos De Villa. Autumn called me and asked if I was there. I said I was almost there but told her to look for a tall Indian guy (Killol) and a Chinese girl (Marian) with glasses and a ponytail at Iguanas. I told her to talk to them XD Harrison and Shiva, meanwhile, were getting Horchata (mmm tasty). Walked to Iguanas. Hugged Autumn because it's been soooo long since I've seen her. She seems more carefree now, I guess haha.
We went into Iguanas and ordered our food. Sat outside in front of the store. Windy day. Food was good. Conversation was much better :D Stephanie's awkward and physically painful date, Marian's pigeon story, my obsession with "1000 Ways To Die," etc etc.
When Shiva went inside Iguanas for something, I took out the birthday gift that her friends and I made and put together. I didn't know how to surprise her with it, so I placed it on the table in front of her seat. Then Harrison covered it with his jacket XD When Shiva was back, she didn't take the jacket off. So Killol asked Harrison if he would like to take his jacket back XP Thus, Harrison unveiled the booklet on the table, and Shiva was pleasantly surprised :P She looked through the book and saw all the stuff that people made for her :) It was wonderful. Then she went around and gave everyone a hug :) I told her about some of the images being cut off because the guy who printed the pages enlarged the images without telling me that it would cut off the images. But it's ok. Shiva will get the digital copies. Also, I told her that everyone that went to the Vegetarian House dinner contributed to the book :) That was awesome :3
Harrison's friend, Margaret C, came late haha. Then we all went to Bijan Bakery because people were cold and they wanted to be inside. More conversation, plus overpriced sweets XP Killol was ecstatic when he finally found Shiva's ticklish spot hahaha. He also faced Marian's wrath for poking her and invading her personal space too much XP Poor guy got hit so many times Sunday night.
Then we all walked back to Shiva's car. Took group pictures and parted ways.
Monday, Shiva and I didn't have anything to do. So we got up kinda late. I had to pick up Brother and drive him to my house so that he could do his laundry. Shiva had to work on some profiles for all the places she's interviewing with this week. When we drove Brother back to his place, we called Harrison to see if we could come over. But he was not home ): So Shiva and I drove around. She asked me where I wanted to go, but I couldn't think of any place I wanted to go. She kept pressuring me XP So I directed her to a park that her GPS said was close by. But it was in a not-so-good neighborhood, so we left. Next, I directed her to Davis Middle School. I remember it had more trees years ago. Went to my old house on Skyway Drive next to Valley Christian. Then back to my current house. Actually, we drove up Bernal Road to IBM. Then parked in the parking lot of the county park. Then hiked halfway up the trail that I went on a little while back with Albert and our friends.
On the way up, I saw someone I hadn't talk to since I was little. Talked to her a bit, and then kept going up. Shiva and I saw dragonflies (they weren't there last time). Then we walked off the main trail toward the clifflike area so that Shiva could take a picture of the city. When we turned around to go back down, we saw deer :D Three of them! We slowly got closer to them, as Shiva took pictures. Then went back to her car. I slipped a little on the way <_<
But then we went home. Totally forgot to go to the bank and to go get slurpees ): I feel bad about that. I'm sorry I forgot, Shiva! Next year!
Today, Shiva has an interview. It was at 9h00, but while she was on her way there, they called and rescheduled for 14h45 -_- She was already halfway to Berkeley too. Woke up early just to get rescheduled. Rawr. Waiting for Shiva to come back now.
At 11 or so, I have to go with Mother to get the car inspected for damaged. Really not that much damage. I think the inspector may laugh on the inside a little when she sees what the damage is. I know I did.
Anyway, summer is going well enough. May drive up to Davis with Autumn one of these weekends to visit Maggie. Considering going to So Cal with Shiva when she goes back on Sunday. Must find a job though. Must buy textbooks soon too.
Rawr.
Showing posts with label movies. Show all posts
Showing posts with label movies. Show all posts
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
X-Men: First Class
Brother and I went to go watch the movie today. Mother dropped us off at Oakridge. Jovany sold us our tickets :D
For a two-hour-long movie, "First Class" was pretty awesome. I loved it. Great action, great storyline, great acting. I found my sympathy to lie with Erik for most if not all of the movie. Michael Fassbender is a superb actor, who made it easy for me to empathize with Erik. James MacAvoy was good as Charles. Played calm and cool very well. The scumbag antagonist varied between meh and grr haha. Kevin Bacon keeps playing bad guys; I wonder why, but at least he's good and convincing.
Overall, I really liked the characters. This movie explains a few things that I always wondered about XD Awesome story throughout the movie, but especially in the first half of the movie, I think. And the action was best toward the end.
Anyway, Brother fell asleep during the movie. So sad. I had to wake him up several times because he was snoring -.- He thought the story was too slow and boring. He wanted more action. I'm so disappointed -.- You shouldn't watch X-Men just for the action. It's the story that really makes the movie.
Afterward, Brother and I walked to the light rail station to go home. On the way, we passed a dead cat ;-; It was lying on its side with its eyes and mouth open. The legs were straight and rigid. I asked Brother, "Is that a dead cat?!" T_T So scary and sad. Flies were buzzing in and out of the mouth. Didn't look like it had been run over. Looked more like it had been scared to death. But yeah, image scarred into my brain T_T
Now, I have to drive Brother home -.- But I'm hoping to go watch more movies and do other things this summer with people :) Can't wait!
Btw (off-topic), I think asking people to give you an answer to certain questions is unfair and stupid, to say the least, in given situations. Like, Brother asked Mother is she loved him. I thought, "Why wouldn't she? She does so much for you when she doesn't have to and when you cause her so much pain. How could she not love you? Why do you need to ask?" Anyway, yeah, just thoughts and thoughts on my mind.
Now, time to drive.
For a two-hour-long movie, "First Class" was pretty awesome. I loved it. Great action, great storyline, great acting. I found my sympathy to lie with Erik for most if not all of the movie. Michael Fassbender is a superb actor, who made it easy for me to empathize with Erik. James MacAvoy was good as Charles. Played calm and cool very well. The scumbag antagonist varied between meh and grr haha. Kevin Bacon keeps playing bad guys; I wonder why, but at least he's good and convincing.
Overall, I really liked the characters. This movie explains a few things that I always wondered about XD Awesome story throughout the movie, but especially in the first half of the movie, I think. And the action was best toward the end.
Anyway, Brother fell asleep during the movie. So sad. I had to wake him up several times because he was snoring -.- He thought the story was too slow and boring. He wanted more action. I'm so disappointed -.- You shouldn't watch X-Men just for the action. It's the story that really makes the movie.
Afterward, Brother and I walked to the light rail station to go home. On the way, we passed a dead cat ;-; It was lying on its side with its eyes and mouth open. The legs were straight and rigid. I asked Brother, "Is that a dead cat?!" T_T So scary and sad. Flies were buzzing in and out of the mouth. Didn't look like it had been run over. Looked more like it had been scared to death. But yeah, image scarred into my brain T_T
Now, I have to drive Brother home -.- But I'm hoping to go watch more movies and do other things this summer with people :) Can't wait!
Btw (off-topic), I think asking people to give you an answer to certain questions is unfair and stupid, to say the least, in given situations. Like, Brother asked Mother is she loved him. I thought, "Why wouldn't she? She does so much for you when she doesn't have to and when you cause her so much pain. How could she not love you? Why do you need to ask?" Anyway, yeah, just thoughts and thoughts on my mind.
Now, time to drive.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Role Conflicts and Defining Moments?
I've been so sad. No minutes on my phone until the 19th, except for nights, weekends, and mobile-to-mobile T-T The last minute was used on like the 4th haha.
Anyway, this past weekend has been full of ups and downs. Mostly ups. Or at least I focused on the ups as best I could.
Friday, the plan had been to go eat a late dinner and karaoke with Kat, Ariane, Andrew, and Shiva. Though, I wasn't able to tell Shiva that dinner had been pushed back from 17h30 to 21h00, until she came back from Santa Cruz and could use her cell phone; so she didn't eat anything after noon, thinking that dinner would be at 17h30. Other than that, there were no hitches as of 16h00. Mother had been ok with my plan. Everything was supposed to work out fine.
Then there was a minor hitch with rides. Shiva couldn't be picked up from campus as I had originally thought. The suggestion was that she should light rail to south San Jose, and Ariane would drive all of us to Santa Clara for dinner and karaoke. But Shiva hadn't gotten enough sleep the night before; though she took a nap, neither Shiva nor I wanted her going on the light rail. So I figured I could borrow Mother's car and drive Shiva back to my house; maybe I could even drive her to dinner. I called Mother to ask, and she said it was ok. I just had to wait for her to come home.
Things were looking good. Then Mother came home. I asked her about the car, and she got annoyed, mad at me for going to dinner and karaoke so late. I don't know why; I've done it before with pretty much the same people, and she was fine with it then. And she also knew that dinner was going to be late. I don't know why she got mad at me. Then she said she would drive me to pick up Shiva, instead of letting me drive. "You shouldn't drive at night. You'll crash!" Why are we back to this? -_- I've driven at night before.
Mother also wanted to go to Costco after picking up Shiva. But I realized, at that point in time, if she drove to campus, then back home, and then to Costco, it would have wasted gas and she might not have gotten to Costco by the time it closed. And just saying, in my house, Mother wanting to go to Costco is just as important as me wanting to go out with my friends.
I told Shiva about how the whole driving thing seemed to be working out. She didn't want to inconvenience my friends or Mother, so she offered to not join my friends and me D: I couldn't have that, especially if she hadn't eaten because she had planned to eat with us. She had things to tell me, but she insisted it was fine if I went with my friends. We kinda talked it out. I figured I only had a few options, none of which I really liked: I get Mother to drive, we'll waste gas, and she probably won't get to Costco; I eat with friends, and Shiva does not join us; or I eat with Shiva, and I won't see my friends. Or I could have stayed home and not see anyone. But that last one, I really didn't like.
A few other personal issues came up, that I had to take into consideration. And Mother was not getting any happier by the minute >_<
So I decided I would go eat with my friends and see Shiva the next day.
But my decision bothered me. I started thinking:
If Shiva's not coming with me, none of her roommates are home, and she doesn't have any food in the apartment, then she'll eat alone ): My friends, on the other hand, will still have each other to eat with, if I don't go. But I realize I've been the one telling Kat that we should hang out >_< But Shiva hasn't eaten anything for more than six hours because of me.
I changed my mind. I was going to see Shiva. I care about my friends, and I want to hang out with them. But Shiva's going to be alone. Even though she said she would be ok, I was worried anyway. I wanted to see her Friday to make sure she was all right and to see if her retreat had been good because she had been worried about it before.
So yeah, I changed my mind. Mother was happy. I wasn't going out of the city. I wasn't going to come home after midnight. I was gonna be somewhere safe, somewhere I've gone often. She had preferred that I sleep over at Shiva's on campus rather than go to another city to eat and sing. It made Mother happier, and it also meant I wouldn't come home and disturb her sleep because she has a difficult time getting to sleep late. And I can't get into the house without waking her up because she uses the door latch at night -_- Anyway, yeah. She rushed me out of the house as soon as I said, "I'll go to campus and stay there, so you won't have to drive back and forth twice."
On the drive to campus, I texted Kat and Ariane, telling them that Shiva and I weren't going anymore. Tried to explain why in 160 characters or less, which wasn't easy. Ariane seemed frustrated or angry in her replies >_< She said that it would be ok to drive Shiva if we pitched in gas money, but at this point I was already at campus and lost the mood to karaoke. Kat offered to switch from singing karaoke to watching a movie in theaters in San Jose. Shiva and I were fine with it if we could get a ride, since we were both on campus at this point, heading to Tandoori Oven to eat. But I received no more replies after 20h40, so I figured they all decided to go without us and/or they were mad/upset at me for ditching them or leaving already <_<
I felt bad. But when I had initially decided to go eat with my friends, I was feeling worse that Shiva would be by herself. And I thought, "If I'm gonna be with my friends and thinking about Shiva eating alone or not at all, I'm gonna be worried all night, and I don't know how much fun I'll have."
And honestly, this was an afterthought that occurred when I was trying to go to sleep Friday night: I want to spend as much time with Shiva as I can these next four or so months. Because after she graduates in May, I have no idea when I will actually get to hold her again. We'll probably end up in a long-distance relationship, and I just wanna see her when I can and make our moments together last as long as possible....
So Kat, Ariane, and Andrew, I don't know if you read this, but I'm sorry for bailing on you at the last minute. Sorry, Kat, since it was my last chance to see you before you went back to Harvard. It was messed up on my part 'cause I said I'd go and then I didn't. I hope you don't think I didn't hang out with you just because she's my girlfriend. That wasn't it. I really did try to think this through and find what all the pros and cons were for all the decisions. In the end, I figured that it would be better if everyone was with someone, even if it wasn't with everyone they had wanted. Yeah, I probably could have done things better, but I didn't. Sorry if it upset you, but I made my decision to go. I don't regret it. And I hope you guys had fun that night without me.
So yeah, I hung out with Shiva. We talked. She shared a lil bit about what happened at Leadership Today, the retreat she went on. The first thing she told me about, how she introduced the topic made me stop and sweat a little because I thought someone had gotten seriously injured and she mentioned a name of a professor I know. But what had happened was not as tragic but still really terrible. And it had impacted Shiva greatly, as did the rest of the retreat...
Before she shared more about LT, we went to eat at The Tandoori Oven. Saag paneer and cholay bhature (looked it up on their website just now). Definitely can't read or pronounce any of that well, but that's ok XD Tasty. Took some of both home.
The rest of the night, because I hadn't received any more texts, I was worried that my friends were angry at me ;-; especially since I've never had this kinda conflict before and stuff. Shiva was worried that my friends would dislike her because they'd think she took me away from them (Same thing's happened to her in regard to me. I'm still not that well-liked, I guess heh <_<;). I assured her that if that's what they thought, I would tell them the truth that I had decided on my own without any influence from her. I had even initially told her that I was gonna eat with my friends. But anyway, I tried to reassure Shiva that my friends wouldn't dislike her for Friday because she wasn't the one who decided what I was going to do.
After that, we just laid in bed and talked. Or mostly Shiva did. LT was good for her :) I'm so glad. She had been worried about it, but it turned out to be "life-inspiring" as she put it. I was really happy to hear it.
And I'm just gonna say that the conversation in her room that night, along with all our other conversations during the night, made my night better :3 I was surprised and confused XD I didn't know what to say or think. I was just like O_O I'm still not sure haha XD Kinda. I dunno. I don't think I'm thinking enough haha. Wasn't sure what to think. But I know I was happy :)
Went to sleep pretty early. But I woke up soon after, thinking and worrying. I didn't get much sleep >_> Was thinking about how to apologize and stuff like that. But eventually I realized all I could apologize for was the not showing up when I said I would. No apologizing for not leaving Shiva to be by herself. No apologizing for all the good stuff that happened Friday night. I can't explain the good things, but it just made me really happy.
Saturday, we woke up kinda early. Shiva had planned to go with Michelle W to the mall because Michelle wanted someone to accompany her as she got a naval piercing. Shiva wanted me to stay in her room to sleep -_- Instead, I tagged along.
Michelle drove us to Valley Fair. Went to the body piercing shop, Body Jewelz, I think. Checked out the piercings and stuff. Then when Michelle got her piercing, Shiva and I recorded it and her reaction on two cameras XD So funny. The guy who did the piercing was nice and funny, making fun of us XP We know the three of us don't look older than 18 haha.
After the piercing, Shiva and I bought a caramel pecanbon from Cinnabon. Tasty, but so unhealthy. Michelle drove us back to campus. Shiva and I spent the rest of the day in her dorm. For some reason, the order of the things we did isn't in my head o_o;
I remember watching "Iron Man 2." It wasn't very good. The plot wasn't all that interesting. The final fight scene was so quick. I was hoping it would redeem some of the movie, but it didn't. The main villain wasn't very convincing either. I dunno. The movie was off, didn't enjoy it as much as I enjoyed the first movie.
I also remember eating leftover cholay bhature. The frame of my glasses broke. Shiva fixed it with tape <_< so I look more like a geek now (When I went home on Sunday, I actually re-taped it. So I probably look a little geekier). Shiva talked about LT some more. Sadly, I can't remember what else we did Saturday other than talk and stuff.
Sunday, we were awoken by a early morning phone call from Shiva's aunt. Learned that Shiva's paternal grandfather had died. Her aunt was trying to reach Shiva's dad. I couldn't do anything but hold Shiva. I didn't know what to say. I haven't experienced the death of someone close to me, unless you count Earl. But anyway, yeah, we were awake then. Shiva talked about her grandfather. I listened, hoping I knew what I could say. Nothing really came out.
I fell back to sleep, and Shiva left the room. I woke an hour later, and Shiva wasn't back. So I walked out to the living room, and she was there, using her computer. I sat with her. We looked at textbook prices. She's got 11 books she needs for her classes next semester. So fun <_<
Watched "The Kids Are All Right." Not what we expected. Much more sex than we liked. Thought the movie would be more family-focused, but no. The only character Shiva and I felt sympathy for was Nic. But other than that, we thought the characters were underdeveloped. I think the ending was a quick, "happy" ending. Closure, but not real closure.
After the movie, we took a bus to Safeway, since Shiva had almost no food in her kitchen. Earlier, I had called Mother to ask her to pick us up from Safeway. I told her it would take at least an hour and a half in Safeway for us to get stuff, but she misunderstood me. So while Shiva and I were in Safeway, Mother and D came an hour early. Mother kept calling me, asking if we were done. We were not. She was getting frustrated. So I had to cut the grocery shopping short. Mother came into the store to look for us too -_- Went and paid for everything. Went out to the car. D was driving because Mother didn't know the area. Drove back to campus. Helped Shiva carry all the stuff back up. Then left.
In the car, Mother just yelled at me for helping my friends too much. "Why are you so good to your friends? One day, they're going to turn on you. They won't help you when you really need them to. They haven't helped you with anything. How could you ignore our family and help your friends? Don't you care about us? You're just gonna ignore us and let our house be destroyed." She said things like this, among other negative things I care not to mention. While she's spilling all this babble, I was just thinking, "Well, when I do help you, all you do is get mad at me for not doing it all the time or not doing it correctly. Then you yell at me to stop and you do it yourself. So what am I supposed to do? I'm supposed to just stick around, do things for you while you talk about how lazy, unhelpful, or ungrateful I am, and be happy about how much good I'm doing for the family?"
I know I'm probably in the wrong for some of the things I do. But being angry and yelling at me all the time isn't gonna help me make 'better' decisions. It just makes me wish other things would happen..
I know I probably focused more on the negative stuff. But trust me, there were a lot of positives this weekend. I just can't help but feel like the good stuff that happen to me tend to end in negative crap.
There were good times this weekend. Little to no worries. I can't explain how things were good. I'm so bad with words haha. But the conversations, the words, were unexpected but really good.
Oh haha, Shiva's been trying to convince me that I should go to Leadership Today next year. I'll think about it. I had kinda wanted to go to this year's retreat, but the timing just didn't work out. Hopefully, next year's timing will be better. I wouldn't mind being inspired, you know. But who knows if I will be? I have a hard time believing in inspiration.
But anyway, yeah, that was my weekend. Kinda. Ups and downs. Trying to focus on the ups, but the downs have weight.
Not sure what I mean by my title anymore haha. Just something from inside my head... There are no explanations there right now haha.
Anyway, this past weekend has been full of ups and downs. Mostly ups. Or at least I focused on the ups as best I could.
Friday, the plan had been to go eat a late dinner and karaoke with Kat, Ariane, Andrew, and Shiva. Though, I wasn't able to tell Shiva that dinner had been pushed back from 17h30 to 21h00, until she came back from Santa Cruz and could use her cell phone; so she didn't eat anything after noon, thinking that dinner would be at 17h30. Other than that, there were no hitches as of 16h00. Mother had been ok with my plan. Everything was supposed to work out fine.
Then there was a minor hitch with rides. Shiva couldn't be picked up from campus as I had originally thought. The suggestion was that she should light rail to south San Jose, and Ariane would drive all of us to Santa Clara for dinner and karaoke. But Shiva hadn't gotten enough sleep the night before; though she took a nap, neither Shiva nor I wanted her going on the light rail. So I figured I could borrow Mother's car and drive Shiva back to my house; maybe I could even drive her to dinner. I called Mother to ask, and she said it was ok. I just had to wait for her to come home.
Things were looking good. Then Mother came home. I asked her about the car, and she got annoyed, mad at me for going to dinner and karaoke so late. I don't know why; I've done it before with pretty much the same people, and she was fine with it then. And she also knew that dinner was going to be late. I don't know why she got mad at me. Then she said she would drive me to pick up Shiva, instead of letting me drive. "You shouldn't drive at night. You'll crash!" Why are we back to this? -_- I've driven at night before.
Mother also wanted to go to Costco after picking up Shiva. But I realized, at that point in time, if she drove to campus, then back home, and then to Costco, it would have wasted gas and she might not have gotten to Costco by the time it closed. And just saying, in my house, Mother wanting to go to Costco is just as important as me wanting to go out with my friends.
I told Shiva about how the whole driving thing seemed to be working out. She didn't want to inconvenience my friends or Mother, so she offered to not join my friends and me D: I couldn't have that, especially if she hadn't eaten because she had planned to eat with us. She had things to tell me, but she insisted it was fine if I went with my friends. We kinda talked it out. I figured I only had a few options, none of which I really liked: I get Mother to drive, we'll waste gas, and she probably won't get to Costco; I eat with friends, and Shiva does not join us; or I eat with Shiva, and I won't see my friends. Or I could have stayed home and not see anyone. But that last one, I really didn't like.
A few other personal issues came up, that I had to take into consideration. And Mother was not getting any happier by the minute >_<
So I decided I would go eat with my friends and see Shiva the next day.
But my decision bothered me. I started thinking:
If Shiva's not coming with me, none of her roommates are home, and she doesn't have any food in the apartment, then she'll eat alone ): My friends, on the other hand, will still have each other to eat with, if I don't go. But I realize I've been the one telling Kat that we should hang out >_< But Shiva hasn't eaten anything for more than six hours because of me.
I changed my mind. I was going to see Shiva. I care about my friends, and I want to hang out with them. But Shiva's going to be alone. Even though she said she would be ok, I was worried anyway. I wanted to see her Friday to make sure she was all right and to see if her retreat had been good because she had been worried about it before.
So yeah, I changed my mind. Mother was happy. I wasn't going out of the city. I wasn't going to come home after midnight. I was gonna be somewhere safe, somewhere I've gone often. She had preferred that I sleep over at Shiva's on campus rather than go to another city to eat and sing. It made Mother happier, and it also meant I wouldn't come home and disturb her sleep because she has a difficult time getting to sleep late. And I can't get into the house without waking her up because she uses the door latch at night -_- Anyway, yeah. She rushed me out of the house as soon as I said, "I'll go to campus and stay there, so you won't have to drive back and forth twice."
On the drive to campus, I texted Kat and Ariane, telling them that Shiva and I weren't going anymore. Tried to explain why in 160 characters or less, which wasn't easy. Ariane seemed frustrated or angry in her replies >_< She said that it would be ok to drive Shiva if we pitched in gas money, but at this point I was already at campus and lost the mood to karaoke. Kat offered to switch from singing karaoke to watching a movie in theaters in San Jose. Shiva and I were fine with it if we could get a ride, since we were both on campus at this point, heading to Tandoori Oven to eat. But I received no more replies after 20h40, so I figured they all decided to go without us and/or they were mad/upset at me for ditching them or leaving already <_<
I felt bad. But when I had initially decided to go eat with my friends, I was feeling worse that Shiva would be by herself. And I thought, "If I'm gonna be with my friends and thinking about Shiva eating alone or not at all, I'm gonna be worried all night, and I don't know how much fun I'll have."
And honestly, this was an afterthought that occurred when I was trying to go to sleep Friday night: I want to spend as much time with Shiva as I can these next four or so months. Because after she graduates in May, I have no idea when I will actually get to hold her again. We'll probably end up in a long-distance relationship, and I just wanna see her when I can and make our moments together last as long as possible....
So Kat, Ariane, and Andrew, I don't know if you read this, but I'm sorry for bailing on you at the last minute. Sorry, Kat, since it was my last chance to see you before you went back to Harvard. It was messed up on my part 'cause I said I'd go and then I didn't. I hope you don't think I didn't hang out with you just because she's my girlfriend. That wasn't it. I really did try to think this through and find what all the pros and cons were for all the decisions. In the end, I figured that it would be better if everyone was with someone, even if it wasn't with everyone they had wanted. Yeah, I probably could have done things better, but I didn't. Sorry if it upset you, but I made my decision to go. I don't regret it. And I hope you guys had fun that night without me.
So yeah, I hung out with Shiva. We talked. She shared a lil bit about what happened at Leadership Today, the retreat she went on. The first thing she told me about, how she introduced the topic made me stop and sweat a little because I thought someone had gotten seriously injured and she mentioned a name of a professor I know. But what had happened was not as tragic but still really terrible. And it had impacted Shiva greatly, as did the rest of the retreat...
Before she shared more about LT, we went to eat at The Tandoori Oven. Saag paneer and cholay bhature (looked it up on their website just now). Definitely can't read or pronounce any of that well, but that's ok XD Tasty. Took some of both home.
The rest of the night, because I hadn't received any more texts, I was worried that my friends were angry at me ;-; especially since I've never had this kinda conflict before and stuff. Shiva was worried that my friends would dislike her because they'd think she took me away from them (Same thing's happened to her in regard to me. I'm still not that well-liked, I guess heh <_<;). I assured her that if that's what they thought, I would tell them the truth that I had decided on my own without any influence from her. I had even initially told her that I was gonna eat with my friends. But anyway, I tried to reassure Shiva that my friends wouldn't dislike her for Friday because she wasn't the one who decided what I was going to do.
After that, we just laid in bed and talked. Or mostly Shiva did. LT was good for her :) I'm so glad. She had been worried about it, but it turned out to be "life-inspiring" as she put it. I was really happy to hear it.
And I'm just gonna say that the conversation in her room that night, along with all our other conversations during the night, made my night better :3 I was surprised and confused XD I didn't know what to say or think. I was just like O_O I'm still not sure haha XD Kinda. I dunno. I don't think I'm thinking enough haha. Wasn't sure what to think. But I know I was happy :)
Went to sleep pretty early. But I woke up soon after, thinking and worrying. I didn't get much sleep >_> Was thinking about how to apologize and stuff like that. But eventually I realized all I could apologize for was the not showing up when I said I would. No apologizing for not leaving Shiva to be by herself. No apologizing for all the good stuff that happened Friday night. I can't explain the good things, but it just made me really happy.
Saturday, we woke up kinda early. Shiva had planned to go with Michelle W to the mall because Michelle wanted someone to accompany her as she got a naval piercing. Shiva wanted me to stay in her room to sleep -_- Instead, I tagged along.
Michelle drove us to Valley Fair. Went to the body piercing shop, Body Jewelz, I think. Checked out the piercings and stuff. Then when Michelle got her piercing, Shiva and I recorded it and her reaction on two cameras XD So funny. The guy who did the piercing was nice and funny, making fun of us XP We know the three of us don't look older than 18 haha.
After the piercing, Shiva and I bought a caramel pecanbon from Cinnabon. Tasty, but so unhealthy. Michelle drove us back to campus. Shiva and I spent the rest of the day in her dorm. For some reason, the order of the things we did isn't in my head o_o;
I remember watching "Iron Man 2." It wasn't very good. The plot wasn't all that interesting. The final fight scene was so quick. I was hoping it would redeem some of the movie, but it didn't. The main villain wasn't very convincing either. I dunno. The movie was off, didn't enjoy it as much as I enjoyed the first movie.
I also remember eating leftover cholay bhature. The frame of my glasses broke. Shiva fixed it with tape <_< so I look more like a geek now (When I went home on Sunday, I actually re-taped it. So I probably look a little geekier). Shiva talked about LT some more. Sadly, I can't remember what else we did Saturday other than talk and stuff.
Sunday, we were awoken by a early morning phone call from Shiva's aunt. Learned that Shiva's paternal grandfather had died. Her aunt was trying to reach Shiva's dad. I couldn't do anything but hold Shiva. I didn't know what to say. I haven't experienced the death of someone close to me, unless you count Earl. But anyway, yeah, we were awake then. Shiva talked about her grandfather. I listened, hoping I knew what I could say. Nothing really came out.
I fell back to sleep, and Shiva left the room. I woke an hour later, and Shiva wasn't back. So I walked out to the living room, and she was there, using her computer. I sat with her. We looked at textbook prices. She's got 11 books she needs for her classes next semester. So fun <_<
Watched "The Kids Are All Right." Not what we expected. Much more sex than we liked. Thought the movie would be more family-focused, but no. The only character Shiva and I felt sympathy for was Nic. But other than that, we thought the characters were underdeveloped. I think the ending was a quick, "happy" ending. Closure, but not real closure.
After the movie, we took a bus to Safeway, since Shiva had almost no food in her kitchen. Earlier, I had called Mother to ask her to pick us up from Safeway. I told her it would take at least an hour and a half in Safeway for us to get stuff, but she misunderstood me. So while Shiva and I were in Safeway, Mother and D came an hour early. Mother kept calling me, asking if we were done. We were not. She was getting frustrated. So I had to cut the grocery shopping short. Mother came into the store to look for us too -_- Went and paid for everything. Went out to the car. D was driving because Mother didn't know the area. Drove back to campus. Helped Shiva carry all the stuff back up. Then left.
In the car, Mother just yelled at me for helping my friends too much. "Why are you so good to your friends? One day, they're going to turn on you. They won't help you when you really need them to. They haven't helped you with anything. How could you ignore our family and help your friends? Don't you care about us? You're just gonna ignore us and let our house be destroyed." She said things like this, among other negative things I care not to mention. While she's spilling all this babble, I was just thinking, "Well, when I do help you, all you do is get mad at me for not doing it all the time or not doing it correctly. Then you yell at me to stop and you do it yourself. So what am I supposed to do? I'm supposed to just stick around, do things for you while you talk about how lazy, unhelpful, or ungrateful I am, and be happy about how much good I'm doing for the family?"
I know I'm probably in the wrong for some of the things I do. But being angry and yelling at me all the time isn't gonna help me make 'better' decisions. It just makes me wish other things would happen..
I know I probably focused more on the negative stuff. But trust me, there were a lot of positives this weekend. I just can't help but feel like the good stuff that happen to me tend to end in negative crap.
There were good times this weekend. Little to no worries. I can't explain how things were good. I'm so bad with words haha. But the conversations, the words, were unexpected but really good.
Oh haha, Shiva's been trying to convince me that I should go to Leadership Today next year. I'll think about it. I had kinda wanted to go to this year's retreat, but the timing just didn't work out. Hopefully, next year's timing will be better. I wouldn't mind being inspired, you know. But who knows if I will be? I have a hard time believing in inspiration.
But anyway, yeah, that was my weekend. Kinda. Ups and downs. Trying to focus on the ups, but the downs have weight.
Not sure what I mean by my title anymore haha. Just something from inside my head... There are no explanations there right now haha.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Yay for Winchesters!
I wish I could come up with creative entry titles all the time haha, but I'm not that creative XP
So, I haven't been doing too much since 2011 started. Didn't hang out with anyone. Skyped with Shiva every day. Did not get up early except for the first day of the year XD Also slowly working on my term paper for SOCI 116, but only because Shiva won't give me kisses if I don't finish by Friday ;-;
Anyway, Shiva came back to SJ yesterday. I asked D to pick her up. He obliged :D
Mother, D, and I drove around SJ for a while. Looked at homes, or rather neighborhoods. Mother wants to move this year, after we get Brother a room and he gets settled in. I'm game for moving, I guess. I mean I want to move out of this house 'cause Mother has problems with the landlady and I'd rather live closer to campus. But the hard part is finding a good place. Mother wants to move to North SJ or Milpitas. I'm cool with that as long as there's a light rail stop nearby. Mother also wants a spacious house, which is difficult to find especially if we're looking at two-bedroom homes. Not very often that you find a two-bedroom house. So we're looking at apartments that are in the so-called style of a townhouse. Fun.
Anyway, around 16h00, the three of us went to In N Out to eat a quick meal before driving to the airport. While waiting for the food, I saw Maggie's little brother Tommy haha. I thought, "Why does this lil kid look so familiar? ... Ohh, hey, that's Maggie's brother." Yeaah, anyway, the food was good :P
Around 17h05, Shiva finally called. Such a long delay :O Kept me waiting in anticipation XP Got to the airport and picked Shiva up :) Back to campus. Yay for sleepover!
Shiva gave me a gift :D in a Powerpuff Girls lunchbox haha. When I first opened it, I saw a pair of scissors haha. Yay, because I needed a new pair. Got lost in the tissue paper for a bit. Then got to the gift :) A pair of matching black Winchester folding pocket knives. One for her, one for me :3 Pretty sweet. Even sweeter was that she took time to put our first initials on them with silver Fimo Effect (polymer clay).
Sadly, airport security apparently took out the contents to check them, probably because it looked like a suspicious metal box in the luggage. Haha they probably thought Shiva was a threat since she was carrying two knives and a pair of scissors (and pepper spray) in her luggage XD They f'ed up the zipper on her luggage though ): And they broke off part of the initials on one of the knives >_< How rude. But Shiva said she'd fix it :3
But yeah, such an amazing gift, yeah? :3 Her parents think she's a crazy delinquent for buying knives and scissors for me XD haha. These are thoughtful gifts, in my opinion. I appreciate them wholeheartedly :) Haha sadly, the only gifts I gave her were two pieces of origami art that I did a few days earlier (first time, so they're not very impressive haha), a crane and a you-and-me heart. They weren't even on red paper XP A yellow-orange paper heh ^_^;
Back to last night, Harrison and Michelle W came over. Harrison bought plain yogurt for Shiva, so that she could make rava, which I still can't pronounce >_> A lot of yogurt in that; it was too sour for me until Shiva added sugar, which is not a normal ingredient for rava XP Taste was interesting. Not my preferred taste, but it was ok.
The four of us watched movies because we didn't know what else to do. First, tried to watch Iron Man 2, D's copy, but the audio didn't work -_- Next, "How To Train Your Dragon," D's copy, except it started skipping toward the climax of the movie -_- So Michelle went to her dorm and brought up her copies of HTTYD and "Inception." Toothless is adorable, especially when he tries to smile, even if he's just an animation haha. Watching "Inception" the second time was good. Got the first fifteen or so minutes of the movie. Helped understand a few things a lil better. Haha Harrison fell asleep through most of the middle of the movie; Shiva fell asleep during the last half of the movie XP But that's ok because she was sleeping in my arms :3
Finished around 1 in the morning. Harrison and Michelle left. I washed dishes. Shiva and I eventually went to sleep... I dunno when though.
This morning, woke up kinda early. Got up before noon. Ate breakfast. Watched "Speak." Went to the mail room and then the school bookstore to check if there were any books for our classes. Then I went home ): Sad. Shiva's going to Santa Cruz tomorrow morning for Leadership Today. She'll be back on Friday. In the meantime, I must get my paper done -nods- Then on Friday, hopefully, we'll go eat and karaoke with Kat, Andrew, and other people.
Anyway, yeah, that's all that I can think of right now about what's happened. Tomorrow, I'm going ice skating with Amy, Lisa, Christine, Albert, and maybe a few other people. I don't know for sure. Lisa's giving me a ride. It's been about year since I last went ice skating. With Amy, Lisa, and Christine haha. Sad that Shiva won't be here to join us ): Another time -nods-
I can't believe there's like only two weeks left till I'm back in school -_- Break is going so fast. I'm not sure I feel prepared to go back to school in two weeks. I need more break. Maybe I should stop staying up so late XD
So, I haven't been doing too much since 2011 started. Didn't hang out with anyone. Skyped with Shiva every day. Did not get up early except for the first day of the year XD Also slowly working on my term paper for SOCI 116, but only because Shiva won't give me kisses if I don't finish by Friday ;-;
Anyway, Shiva came back to SJ yesterday. I asked D to pick her up. He obliged :D
Mother, D, and I drove around SJ for a while. Looked at homes, or rather neighborhoods. Mother wants to move this year, after we get Brother a room and he gets settled in. I'm game for moving, I guess. I mean I want to move out of this house 'cause Mother has problems with the landlady and I'd rather live closer to campus. But the hard part is finding a good place. Mother wants to move to North SJ or Milpitas. I'm cool with that as long as there's a light rail stop nearby. Mother also wants a spacious house, which is difficult to find especially if we're looking at two-bedroom homes. Not very often that you find a two-bedroom house. So we're looking at apartments that are in the so-called style of a townhouse. Fun.
Anyway, around 16h00, the three of us went to In N Out to eat a quick meal before driving to the airport. While waiting for the food, I saw Maggie's little brother Tommy haha. I thought, "Why does this lil kid look so familiar? ... Ohh, hey, that's Maggie's brother." Yeaah, anyway, the food was good :P
Around 17h05, Shiva finally called. Such a long delay :O Kept me waiting in anticipation XP Got to the airport and picked Shiva up :) Back to campus. Yay for sleepover!
Shiva gave me a gift :D in a Powerpuff Girls lunchbox haha. When I first opened it, I saw a pair of scissors haha. Yay, because I needed a new pair. Got lost in the tissue paper for a bit. Then got to the gift :) A pair of matching black Winchester folding pocket knives. One for her, one for me :3 Pretty sweet. Even sweeter was that she took time to put our first initials on them with silver Fimo Effect (polymer clay).
Sadly, airport security apparently took out the contents to check them, probably because it looked like a suspicious metal box in the luggage. Haha they probably thought Shiva was a threat since she was carrying two knives and a pair of scissors (and pepper spray) in her luggage XD They f'ed up the zipper on her luggage though ): And they broke off part of the initials on one of the knives >_< How rude. But Shiva said she'd fix it :3
But yeah, such an amazing gift, yeah? :3 Her parents think she's a crazy delinquent for buying knives and scissors for me XD haha. These are thoughtful gifts, in my opinion. I appreciate them wholeheartedly :) Haha sadly, the only gifts I gave her were two pieces of origami art that I did a few days earlier (first time, so they're not very impressive haha), a crane and a you-and-me heart. They weren't even on red paper XP A yellow-orange paper heh ^_^;
Back to last night, Harrison and Michelle W came over. Harrison bought plain yogurt for Shiva, so that she could make rava, which I still can't pronounce >_> A lot of yogurt in that; it was too sour for me until Shiva added sugar, which is not a normal ingredient for rava XP Taste was interesting. Not my preferred taste, but it was ok.
The four of us watched movies because we didn't know what else to do. First, tried to watch Iron Man 2, D's copy, but the audio didn't work -_- Next, "How To Train Your Dragon," D's copy, except it started skipping toward the climax of the movie -_- So Michelle went to her dorm and brought up her copies of HTTYD and "Inception." Toothless is adorable, especially when he tries to smile, even if he's just an animation haha. Watching "Inception" the second time was good. Got the first fifteen or so minutes of the movie. Helped understand a few things a lil better. Haha Harrison fell asleep through most of the middle of the movie; Shiva fell asleep during the last half of the movie XP But that's ok because she was sleeping in my arms :3
Finished around 1 in the morning. Harrison and Michelle left. I washed dishes. Shiva and I eventually went to sleep... I dunno when though.
This morning, woke up kinda early. Got up before noon. Ate breakfast. Watched "Speak." Went to the mail room and then the school bookstore to check if there were any books for our classes. Then I went home ): Sad. Shiva's going to Santa Cruz tomorrow morning for Leadership Today. She'll be back on Friday. In the meantime, I must get my paper done -nods- Then on Friday, hopefully, we'll go eat and karaoke with Kat, Andrew, and other people.
Anyway, yeah, that's all that I can think of right now about what's happened. Tomorrow, I'm going ice skating with Amy, Lisa, Christine, Albert, and maybe a few other people. I don't know for sure. Lisa's giving me a ride. It's been about year since I last went ice skating. With Amy, Lisa, and Christine haha. Sad that Shiva won't be here to join us ): Another time -nods-
I can't believe there's like only two weeks left till I'm back in school -_- Break is going so fast. I'm not sure I feel prepared to go back to school in two weeks. I need more break. Maybe I should stop staying up so late XD
Monday, November 22, 2010
Twelfth Night... Steampunk-style...
So this past Saturday evening, Shiva, Brian, Marian, and I went to the University Theatre to watch the play Twelfth Night, steampunk-style :O
We, excluding Brian, walked in the pouring rain across campus XP I stepped in a deep puddle. Wet socks T-T Came a few minutes before the start of the show, but managed to get seats in the third row :D because a girl generously moved over for the four of us.
The play was entertaining. Though, much more physically vulgar than I'd like. A lot of pelvic thrusting and stuff. One of the things I like about Shakespearean plays is that the crude jokes remain crude jokes, not necessarily to be acted out. The way I see it is if you get the dirtiness of the joke, then you get it. If not, then oh well. I don't want physical gestures to tell me what I already understand -__-
Anyway, the acting was good. I liked Festes :P He was silly. He rapped and sang XD And all the characters danced. There were some scenes in which some characters walked or danced silently o_o I wasn't sure what to make of those. Interpretive dance? -shrug-
The scene where Olivia and Cesario/Viola kiss was not unexpected, yet it was. I thought the actresses would pretend to kiss, but they actually kissed :O
Um, what else did I think? Oh, Orsino looked gross >_> I think it was the combination of his messy hair and bristly beard. Did not look attractive to me. His posse, however, was cool haha. They were a bunch of female thugs (or well, one or two were playing guys).
Hm, since this was the last show, the actors and actresses seemed to have all their lines down. Didn't notice any moments where someone got stuck at a line. I think at one point someone almost rolled off the stage :O Instead, they managed to just kick a skull or something off the stage.
Oh haha, I recognized one or two of the actors from about two years ago, I think :P The guy who played Sebastian had played the role of a son in Death of a Salesman.
Anyway, that was fun. The four of us walked back across campus. Shiva tried to pull me into giant puddles. The Seventh Street Plaza had like three huge puddles. Ponds. Mini lakes XP I tricked Shiva into stepping into one XD Shiva and Brian play-fought, ran around and stuff.
Shiva, Marian, and I went to 7-11 to rent some movies. Went back to Shiva's. Made DiGiorno pizza and breadsticks. Breadsticks, awesome; pizza, meh, could have been better. Watched "Jonah Hex." I thought it was going to be a good movie 'cause I had read good things about it. But it was not that amazing -_- Waste of a dollar. Sorry. Thought it was gonna be about a guy on a bounty-hunting mission. It technically was, I guess, I dunno, but it wasn't exciting.
Went to sleep. The next day, Sunday, Shiva and I went to a queer-dance committee meeting. Ironed out some details. Date set for February 24 at 8PM. Anyone 18 and over can attend. Theme: Red/White/Black or suits of playing cards :)
After that, Shiva and I watched "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo." It was entertaining, gross, exciting, and not as good as we had expected. But it was still worth the dollar haha. We plan to watch the second and third movie -nodnod- I think we'll learn more about the main character in the second movie. Also, she looks pretty cool XP Her character is troubled but likable. Though, a few of the things she does is blehhh -_- But Shiva and I agree that we both like the part where she tattoos a guy -nodnodnod- :P
So that was the weekend. Today was ok. Not much happened, except I found out that I don't have 100W on Wednesday, which means I can escort Shiva on the light rail to the airport :P Should probably not bring much stuff to school on Wednesday.
Have quite a bit of work to do this weekend. Two papers and lots of reading, it seems. Have to do the papers this weekend even though they're both due on the last two days of school. Why? Because I signed up to present on my papers next Monday and Tuesday to get them out of the way. Also, signing up early should encourage me to finish my papers early -nodnodnod- I hope so XD It would be sad if I didn't finish my papers this weekend.
Anything else? Anyone coming home to SJ this weekend? Though, I'm not sure how free I will be to hang out. I will try. Not going Black Friday shopping, sorry. Don't ask me to go to that. I don't want to buy anything nor risk my life for materialism XP haha. Hope no one dies on Friday >_>
Oh, just found out an ST student died yesterday. A junior cheerleader named Jordan. Alcohol was involved. Five students (two ST cheerleaders, three OG boys) crammed into a RAV4. The other four were injured (broken bones and such). I dunno what's gonna happen to the other cheerleader or how she's gonna deal with this because she was the one driving. Anyway, RIP Jordan. Even though I never met you, I know you'll be greatly missed.
People, don't drink and drive. Or rather, drink responsibly please.
Well, that's all I've got to say. Later!
We, excluding Brian, walked in the pouring rain across campus XP I stepped in a deep puddle. Wet socks T-T Came a few minutes before the start of the show, but managed to get seats in the third row :D because a girl generously moved over for the four of us.
The play was entertaining. Though, much more physically vulgar than I'd like. A lot of pelvic thrusting and stuff. One of the things I like about Shakespearean plays is that the crude jokes remain crude jokes, not necessarily to be acted out. The way I see it is if you get the dirtiness of the joke, then you get it. If not, then oh well. I don't want physical gestures to tell me what I already understand -__-
Anyway, the acting was good. I liked Festes :P He was silly. He rapped and sang XD And all the characters danced. There were some scenes in which some characters walked or danced silently o_o I wasn't sure what to make of those. Interpretive dance? -shrug-
The scene where Olivia and Cesario/Viola kiss was not unexpected, yet it was. I thought the actresses would pretend to kiss, but they actually kissed :O
Um, what else did I think? Oh, Orsino looked gross >_> I think it was the combination of his messy hair and bristly beard. Did not look attractive to me. His posse, however, was cool haha. They were a bunch of female thugs (or well, one or two were playing guys).
Hm, since this was the last show, the actors and actresses seemed to have all their lines down. Didn't notice any moments where someone got stuck at a line. I think at one point someone almost rolled off the stage :O Instead, they managed to just kick a skull or something off the stage.
Oh haha, I recognized one or two of the actors from about two years ago, I think :P The guy who played Sebastian had played the role of a son in Death of a Salesman.
Anyway, that was fun. The four of us walked back across campus. Shiva tried to pull me into giant puddles. The Seventh Street Plaza had like three huge puddles. Ponds. Mini lakes XP I tricked Shiva into stepping into one XD Shiva and Brian play-fought, ran around and stuff.
Shiva, Marian, and I went to 7-11 to rent some movies. Went back to Shiva's. Made DiGiorno pizza and breadsticks. Breadsticks, awesome; pizza, meh, could have been better. Watched "Jonah Hex." I thought it was going to be a good movie 'cause I had read good things about it. But it was not that amazing -_- Waste of a dollar. Sorry. Thought it was gonna be about a guy on a bounty-hunting mission. It technically was, I guess, I dunno, but it wasn't exciting.
Went to sleep. The next day, Sunday, Shiva and I went to a queer-dance committee meeting. Ironed out some details. Date set for February 24 at 8PM. Anyone 18 and over can attend. Theme: Red/White/Black or suits of playing cards :)
After that, Shiva and I watched "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo." It was entertaining, gross, exciting, and not as good as we had expected. But it was still worth the dollar haha. We plan to watch the second and third movie -nodnod- I think we'll learn more about the main character in the second movie. Also, she looks pretty cool XP Her character is troubled but likable. Though, a few of the things she does is blehhh -_- But Shiva and I agree that we both like the part where she tattoos a guy -nodnodnod- :P
So that was the weekend. Today was ok. Not much happened, except I found out that I don't have 100W on Wednesday, which means I can escort Shiva on the light rail to the airport :P Should probably not bring much stuff to school on Wednesday.
Have quite a bit of work to do this weekend. Two papers and lots of reading, it seems. Have to do the papers this weekend even though they're both due on the last two days of school. Why? Because I signed up to present on my papers next Monday and Tuesday to get them out of the way. Also, signing up early should encourage me to finish my papers early -nodnodnod- I hope so XD It would be sad if I didn't finish my papers this weekend.
Anything else? Anyone coming home to SJ this weekend? Though, I'm not sure how free I will be to hang out. I will try. Not going Black Friday shopping, sorry. Don't ask me to go to that. I don't want to buy anything nor risk my life for materialism XP haha. Hope no one dies on Friday >_>
Oh, just found out an ST student died yesterday. A junior cheerleader named Jordan. Alcohol was involved. Five students (two ST cheerleaders, three OG boys) crammed into a RAV4. The other four were injured (broken bones and such). I dunno what's gonna happen to the other cheerleader or how she's gonna deal with this because she was the one driving. Anyway, RIP Jordan. Even though I never met you, I know you'll be greatly missed.
People, don't drink and drive. Or rather, drink responsibly please.
Well, that's all I've got to say. Later!
Sunday, November 14, 2010
My first formal-ish date....
So on Friday, I went to campus to hang out with Shiva. I went with her to our friends Killol and Phil's place. She had been hanging out with them, eating dinner with their friends. Killol kept offering food. I would have eaten them if Mother hadn't been stuffing me with food all day that day. A Double-Double with a strawberry shake and fries. And Mother made me eat her fries too. Then she made me eat porridge. Just way too much food for one day @_@
After hanging out Killol's and Phil's place, Maggie came by to pick Shiva and me up. And we hung out in Shiva's room, talking and catching up. It was good :) Learned a bit about what's been going on with some people, like Autumn. Ariane wanted to hang out a bit, but she was busy and Maggie had to go home ): And we didn't get to hang out yesterday.
Anyway, Shiva and I spent Friday night/Saturday morning watching "The Illusionist." That was a good movie. Quite a twist. I like Edward Norton, such a good actor. I wasn't expecting accents though o_o haha.
Saturday, Shiva and I just slept and talked for most of the day. Had an off moment in the afternoon ): Completely my fault.
Then we got up to get ready to go to dinner. I wore a dress shirt, slacks, a tie, and a jacket. Shiva wore a dress just for me :) She looked beautiful. We walked to PF Chang's. Shiva had made reservations for a booth at 7pm, but there were no booths available when we arrived. So we waited. As we waited, one of Shiva's former classmates, who was working there, stopped and talked to us about school and stuff.
Dinner itself was tasty. Vegetarian lettuce wraps, tea (something with peach and apricot), brown rice, coconut curry vegetables, and wok-seared lamb. Service was slow. Apparently, it took an hour and fifteen minutes for us to get our dessert and our check.
Dessert was a birthday chocolate cake in a shot glass that wasn't that bad. That was free. The other two desserts Shiva and I got were tiramisu and a cheesecake in shot glasses. Tasty tiramisu. Two dollars for such a small thing though @_@
Ahaha, when we were eating or waiting (I don't remember), Shiva's classmate passed by, tapped our table, and said, "You two are just so cute!" haha XD At first, I thought, "Wth? Did a stranger just say that to us?" but then I realized it was the friend who was working haha.
Oh, so when I was blowing out the candle on the chocolate cake in a shot glass, Shiva sneakily placed a gift on the table. So I opened it (with a bit of Shiva's help haha). Guess what she got me? XD It's pretty damn awesome. Wrapped in dark green tissue paper and a white ribbon, with a dried rose on top, was -trumpet music- Le Petit Prince! :D I loooove that book. I can't believe she remembered haha. Shiva's amazing :3 When I saw the book, apparently I looked shocked or surprised haha. I was! Ahh, I wanted to get the book so badly after I read it in Madame's class. Ahh, have I mentioned that Shiva is amazing? If I haven't, well, SHIVA IS AMAZING! :O
Anyway, lots of food. We had to take them home because we were stuffed.
Back at Shiva's, Sabrina (roommate) took a few pictures of us. We took a few more before we decided to go to bed.
Oh oh, also, when I walked into Shiva's room, I didn't notice anything. Until Shiva went to go open the window to let some air in. On the window, the words "HAPPY BIRTHDAY THUY" were written. Sabrina told us that Marian had come by and written it. And on Shiva's desk was a note and a gift. She had made Shiva and me a pair of I-don't-actually-know-what-you-call-them (keychain-like thingy?). And I don't know how to describe them. Maybe Shiva will comment to describe them for us haha. But they're images of me and her (though, the one of her doesn't really look like her because apparently Marian had to erase some lines, making the face look rounder). The one of me for her and the one of her for me. They're pretty awesome.
Mm, Shiva and I turned in early (midnight). Kinda wanted to watch a movie, but were too full and exhausted XD
Woke up early today. Didn't really get up until noon though. Strange morning -_- Exciting but depressing dream. Bicycles that fly higher as you pedal faster. Losing people. Or people dying or disappearing. An evil bathroom (like a room where you feel something malevolent in the air). Anyway, yeah, morning was kinda off. But Shiva and I got up and went outside. There was supposed to be a meeting for Shiva to go to, but it wasn't where it was supposed to be. So we went to 7-11 to rent "The Book of Eli." Watched that.
What a twist of an ending. Did not see that coming at all XD Made me want to watch the movie again haha. Maybe I'll watch it again sometime in the future. With what I know now, I would watch the movie with a different mindset. During the movie, I thought the action sequences were good, and the storyline ok. But the ending really WOW-ed me :D or rather us haha. We totally didn't predict the ending.
Anyway, yeah, this weekend was fun, thanks to Shiva :) What an amazing person I have in my life.... I'm sorry I ruined the weekend a lil with my stupidity >_< I'll make it up to you. And I'm also sad that I didn't get to do amazing things for you for your birthday T-T I will though -nodnodnod-
After hanging out Killol's and Phil's place, Maggie came by to pick Shiva and me up. And we hung out in Shiva's room, talking and catching up. It was good :) Learned a bit about what's been going on with some people, like Autumn. Ariane wanted to hang out a bit, but she was busy and Maggie had to go home ): And we didn't get to hang out yesterday.
Anyway, Shiva and I spent Friday night/Saturday morning watching "The Illusionist." That was a good movie. Quite a twist. I like Edward Norton, such a good actor. I wasn't expecting accents though o_o haha.
Saturday, Shiva and I just slept and talked for most of the day. Had an off moment in the afternoon ): Completely my fault.
Then we got up to get ready to go to dinner. I wore a dress shirt, slacks, a tie, and a jacket. Shiva wore a dress just for me :) She looked beautiful. We walked to PF Chang's. Shiva had made reservations for a booth at 7pm, but there were no booths available when we arrived. So we waited. As we waited, one of Shiva's former classmates, who was working there, stopped and talked to us about school and stuff.
Dinner itself was tasty. Vegetarian lettuce wraps, tea (something with peach and apricot), brown rice, coconut curry vegetables, and wok-seared lamb. Service was slow. Apparently, it took an hour and fifteen minutes for us to get our dessert and our check.
Dessert was a birthday chocolate cake in a shot glass that wasn't that bad. That was free. The other two desserts Shiva and I got were tiramisu and a cheesecake in shot glasses. Tasty tiramisu. Two dollars for such a small thing though @_@
Ahaha, when we were eating or waiting (I don't remember), Shiva's classmate passed by, tapped our table, and said, "You two are just so cute!" haha XD At first, I thought, "Wth? Did a stranger just say that to us?" but then I realized it was the friend who was working haha.
Oh, so when I was blowing out the candle on the chocolate cake in a shot glass, Shiva sneakily placed a gift on the table. So I opened it (with a bit of Shiva's help haha). Guess what she got me? XD It's pretty damn awesome. Wrapped in dark green tissue paper and a white ribbon, with a dried rose on top, was -trumpet music- Le Petit Prince! :D I loooove that book. I can't believe she remembered haha. Shiva's amazing :3 When I saw the book, apparently I looked shocked or surprised haha. I was! Ahh, I wanted to get the book so badly after I read it in Madame's class. Ahh, have I mentioned that Shiva is amazing? If I haven't, well, SHIVA IS AMAZING! :O
Anyway, lots of food. We had to take them home because we were stuffed.
Back at Shiva's, Sabrina (roommate) took a few pictures of us. We took a few more before we decided to go to bed.
Oh oh, also, when I walked into Shiva's room, I didn't notice anything. Until Shiva went to go open the window to let some air in. On the window, the words "HAPPY BIRTHDAY THUY" were written. Sabrina told us that Marian had come by and written it. And on Shiva's desk was a note and a gift. She had made Shiva and me a pair of I-don't-actually-know-what-you-call-them (keychain-like thingy?). And I don't know how to describe them. Maybe Shiva will comment to describe them for us haha. But they're images of me and her (though, the one of her doesn't really look like her because apparently Marian had to erase some lines, making the face look rounder). The one of me for her and the one of her for me. They're pretty awesome.
Mm, Shiva and I turned in early (midnight). Kinda wanted to watch a movie, but were too full and exhausted XD
Woke up early today. Didn't really get up until noon though. Strange morning -_- Exciting but depressing dream. Bicycles that fly higher as you pedal faster. Losing people. Or people dying or disappearing. An evil bathroom (like a room where you feel something malevolent in the air). Anyway, yeah, morning was kinda off. But Shiva and I got up and went outside. There was supposed to be a meeting for Shiva to go to, but it wasn't where it was supposed to be. So we went to 7-11 to rent "The Book of Eli." Watched that.
What a twist of an ending. Did not see that coming at all XD Made me want to watch the movie again haha. Maybe I'll watch it again sometime in the future. With what I know now, I would watch the movie with a different mindset. During the movie, I thought the action sequences were good, and the storyline ok. But the ending really WOW-ed me :D or rather us haha. We totally didn't predict the ending.
Anyway, yeah, this weekend was fun, thanks to Shiva :) What an amazing person I have in my life.... I'm sorry I ruined the weekend a lil with my stupidity >_< I'll make it up to you. And I'm also sad that I didn't get to do amazing things for you for your birthday T-T I will though -nodnodnod-
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Fall 2010 started today...
Not much to say about it, except that I wasn't looking forward to it. How unusual. I usually can't wait for school to start again. But this year's different. Probably because of summer session. Just wasn't excited about today. Nervous, yeah. Excited, no.
Ran into Albert, Christine, and Marian N this morning after I got off the light rail to head to campus. Also ran into Stephanie H. She claims to be the matchmaker for Shiva and me >_> hahaha. She also claims she will be a bridesmaid at our wedding o_o I told her there wasn't gonna be a wedding, and she just said, "You never know. Eventually, you'll change your mind and want one; then I'll be your bridesmaid." Then she turned to Albert and claimed that she will be his matchmaker as well haha. Anyway, we parted ways when Albert and I went to DMH.
I have a feeling my Monday and Wednesday classes are gonna test my exhaustion.
PHIL 57 with P Bashaw... He's old but nice. Talks real slow and real low. I couldn't hear him because I had sat in the back. Class was packed. No adds. Gonna have two midterms and a final. One paper, maybe. Weekly homework. Nothing too trying. Just gonna be a slow class, it seems.
Was only in class for half an hour. Then I went to sit in front of Clark Hall for a while. Stephanie came out of the building, and we went to the Student Union to chill with Amy. Talked for a while, and then Shiva came :D
SOCI 100W with D Brook... Shiva sat in on this class 'cause she had it last semester XP Class was ok. Small. Kinda blah. The amount of work seems daunting though >_> Or maybe I'm just too lazy. That's probably it.
Haha I feel like I'm going to be overwhelmed this semester. And extra lazy. But motivated. Oh, how paradoxical. Just weird to think that I'm gonna be in at least three upper division courses this semester (only one lower division). Next semester's gonna be all upper division, and so will the semester after. Crazy. Gonna be so much work >_> Will I survive? Will I stay motivated enough? We'll see.
Anyway, Shiva and I just spent the rest of the day together. Though, she did go to class at one point, while I napped in her bedroom haha.
Oh, so yesterday, Harrison, Marian N, Marian L, and I went to Shiva's place to eat pasta and watch a movie. Was supposed to be a movie marathon, but Marian N and I had to go home early. Watched "Jurassic Park." Hadn't seen that movie since I was little. Been so long. Ooh, I don't think we paid much attention toward the beginning of the movie though. Kept talking XD well, throughout the movie too, but yeah. Oh, Marian L brought hella Pocky haha. And Harrison and Marian N went to get slurpees from 7-11. Yeah, random, I dunno...
Haha Marian N is learning to drive. So she drove Harrison's SUV. She wasn't bad. I wasn't scared for my life or anything XD I just sat in the back and put my hand out the window. Ahh, cool evening breeze, love it.
Ahhh, it's been so hot lately x_x Torture. Highest was yesterday? 104 degrees D: at almost 4pm! But it's supposed to start getting cooler tomorrow, so that's good. Can't wait for colder weather to come. Means the ants go back outside XD
T-T Painful muscle spasms. Feel like something just bit my arm, and my muscles spasmed. Grr. There's nothing there! Ah, paaaiin.. Now, my arm just hurts every time my heart beats x_x Whaaa?
Ran into Albert, Christine, and Marian N this morning after I got off the light rail to head to campus. Also ran into Stephanie H. She claims to be the matchmaker for Shiva and me >_> hahaha. She also claims she will be a bridesmaid at our wedding o_o I told her there wasn't gonna be a wedding, and she just said, "You never know. Eventually, you'll change your mind and want one; then I'll be your bridesmaid." Then she turned to Albert and claimed that she will be his matchmaker as well haha. Anyway, we parted ways when Albert and I went to DMH.
I have a feeling my Monday and Wednesday classes are gonna test my exhaustion.
PHIL 57 with P Bashaw... He's old but nice. Talks real slow and real low. I couldn't hear him because I had sat in the back. Class was packed. No adds. Gonna have two midterms and a final. One paper, maybe. Weekly homework. Nothing too trying. Just gonna be a slow class, it seems.
Was only in class for half an hour. Then I went to sit in front of Clark Hall for a while. Stephanie came out of the building, and we went to the Student Union to chill with Amy. Talked for a while, and then Shiva came :D
SOCI 100W with D Brook... Shiva sat in on this class 'cause she had it last semester XP Class was ok. Small. Kinda blah. The amount of work seems daunting though >_> Or maybe I'm just too lazy. That's probably it.
Haha I feel like I'm going to be overwhelmed this semester. And extra lazy. But motivated. Oh, how paradoxical. Just weird to think that I'm gonna be in at least three upper division courses this semester (only one lower division). Next semester's gonna be all upper division, and so will the semester after. Crazy. Gonna be so much work >_> Will I survive? Will I stay motivated enough? We'll see.
Anyway, Shiva and I just spent the rest of the day together. Though, she did go to class at one point, while I napped in her bedroom haha.
Oh, so yesterday, Harrison, Marian N, Marian L, and I went to Shiva's place to eat pasta and watch a movie. Was supposed to be a movie marathon, but Marian N and I had to go home early. Watched "Jurassic Park." Hadn't seen that movie since I was little. Been so long. Ooh, I don't think we paid much attention toward the beginning of the movie though. Kept talking XD well, throughout the movie too, but yeah. Oh, Marian L brought hella Pocky haha. And Harrison and Marian N went to get slurpees from 7-11. Yeah, random, I dunno...
Haha Marian N is learning to drive. So she drove Harrison's SUV. She wasn't bad. I wasn't scared for my life or anything XD I just sat in the back and put my hand out the window. Ahh, cool evening breeze, love it.
Ahhh, it's been so hot lately x_x Torture. Highest was yesterday? 104 degrees D: at almost 4pm! But it's supposed to start getting cooler tomorrow, so that's good. Can't wait for colder weather to come. Means the ants go back outside XD
T-T Painful muscle spasms. Feel like something just bit my arm, and my muscles spasmed. Grr. There's nothing there! Ah, paaaiin.. Now, my arm just hurts every time my heart beats x_x Whaaa?
Friday, July 23, 2010
Harrison's Water Fight/Movie Night
This past week has been pretty good and tiring. I don't update often anymore 'cause I'm not home for most of my awake time. When I am home, it's usually early in the day and late at night. Too tired to update stuff. I'm not even keeping up with my YouTube subscriptions D: So sad. I have about thirty videos to watch.
Anyway, just been going to class and being with Shiva and few other persons.
Shiva and I watched "Inception" on Sunday. Missed the first couple of minutes though. But the movie was pretty good. I didn't completely understand the movie, but it was captivating and the effects were spiffy. DiCaprio sure picks some awesome films to act in. Anyway, the theater was crowded. Shiva and I had to sit toward the front to watch the movie. Neck cramp for me -_- but it was all good. We enjoyed ourselves.
Oh, the squirrel came back to me yesterday XD but I didn't feed it this time. And it wasn't being persistent about getting food.
Been really distracted this past week by a certain someone >_> Really need to get reading and work done this weekend. Must focus real hard.
Oh, Harrison and I decided yesterday evening (while waiting for Shiva to finish Kendo practice) that we shall share a super burrito from La Vic's from time to time. Our bonding time haha. Maybe one day I'll be hungry enough for us to share a Burritozilla from Iguanas.
Anyway, today, I went to campus to help Shiva make food for Harrison's party. What was it? Mitarashi dango? I don't remember exactly what it was called. But yeah. Tasty stuff. Messy process haha. I kinda screwed up and put in too much water in the mixture. Instead of making twenty-five pieces, we made more than seventy pieces. Using toothpicks instead of skewers (gotta love Shiva's resourcefulness).
After we finished, Michelle (Shiva's roommate) gave Shiva, Marian, and me a ride to Harrison's so that the four of us could enjoy the water fight XD The four of us spent about an hour and a half filling up water balloons and tossing them into the kiddie pool in front of Harrison's house.
I hadn't planned on participating in the water fight, but people got me with the balloons -_- so I ended up joining in. Took the longest time for me to dry off haha.
After Shiva and I were done with the balloons, I walked with her to a house I used to live in. It looks completely different. Lots of memories in that house for me. Many good, many bad. But really, I just remember all the bike-riding.
Anyway, back to the party... I need to walk barefoot more often. The soles of my feet are so sensitive; so disappointing. I used to go barefoot with no problems. Today, every twig and rock hurt my feet T-T
When we got back to Harrison's house, all of the water balloons were gone. Group pictures. I made a strange face for the silly pictures o_o Can't wait to see those >_>
I didn't really eat too much. There were pizza, cupcakes, sodas, vegetables, and other stuff. Food did not agree with my stomach ): And I was soaked. No extra clothes, blah. Borrowed Shiva's shirt haha.
Started watching "Ocean's Eleven," but most people weren't paying attention. So "Robin Hood: Men in Tights" was put in, and more attention was held by this. Realized Cary Elwes was the actor playing Robin Hood O: Shocking, especially since I've only ever thought of him as Dr Gordon from "Saw."
Left Harrison's place at 21h45-ish. Michelle gave me a ride home.
Now, I'm home. Yay. Tried to eat something to make my stomach feel better. But nothing wants to go into my stomach and stay there.
Mm, need to get stuff done this weekend. I hope I do. Readings and papers. I can do this. Just need to focus and not get distracted.
Going to campus tomorrow and on Sunday to work on stuff and study for a midterm.
Three weeks of summer session left. About five weeks of summer break. Helping Shiva move to her old apartment next weekend, wooo.
Blah blah blah. My brain is starting to become mush. Exhausted... Need sleep. Forgetting things. Thoughts jumping around, feeling semi-coherent.
Ok, good night.
Anyway, just been going to class and being with Shiva and few other persons.
Shiva and I watched "Inception" on Sunday. Missed the first couple of minutes though. But the movie was pretty good. I didn't completely understand the movie, but it was captivating and the effects were spiffy. DiCaprio sure picks some awesome films to act in. Anyway, the theater was crowded. Shiva and I had to sit toward the front to watch the movie. Neck cramp for me -_- but it was all good. We enjoyed ourselves.
Oh, the squirrel came back to me yesterday XD but I didn't feed it this time. And it wasn't being persistent about getting food.
Been really distracted this past week by a certain someone >_> Really need to get reading and work done this weekend. Must focus real hard.
Oh, Harrison and I decided yesterday evening (while waiting for Shiva to finish Kendo practice) that we shall share a super burrito from La Vic's from time to time. Our bonding time haha. Maybe one day I'll be hungry enough for us to share a Burritozilla from Iguanas.
Anyway, today, I went to campus to help Shiva make food for Harrison's party. What was it? Mitarashi dango? I don't remember exactly what it was called. But yeah. Tasty stuff. Messy process haha. I kinda screwed up and put in too much water in the mixture. Instead of making twenty-five pieces, we made more than seventy pieces. Using toothpicks instead of skewers (gotta love Shiva's resourcefulness).
After we finished, Michelle (Shiva's roommate) gave Shiva, Marian, and me a ride to Harrison's so that the four of us could enjoy the water fight XD The four of us spent about an hour and a half filling up water balloons and tossing them into the kiddie pool in front of Harrison's house.
I hadn't planned on participating in the water fight, but people got me with the balloons -_- so I ended up joining in. Took the longest time for me to dry off haha.
After Shiva and I were done with the balloons, I walked with her to a house I used to live in. It looks completely different. Lots of memories in that house for me. Many good, many bad. But really, I just remember all the bike-riding.
Anyway, back to the party... I need to walk barefoot more often. The soles of my feet are so sensitive; so disappointing. I used to go barefoot with no problems. Today, every twig and rock hurt my feet T-T
When we got back to Harrison's house, all of the water balloons were gone. Group pictures. I made a strange face for the silly pictures o_o Can't wait to see those >_>
I didn't really eat too much. There were pizza, cupcakes, sodas, vegetables, and other stuff. Food did not agree with my stomach ): And I was soaked. No extra clothes, blah. Borrowed Shiva's shirt haha.
Started watching "Ocean's Eleven," but most people weren't paying attention. So "Robin Hood: Men in Tights" was put in, and more attention was held by this. Realized Cary Elwes was the actor playing Robin Hood O: Shocking, especially since I've only ever thought of him as Dr Gordon from "Saw."
Left Harrison's place at 21h45-ish. Michelle gave me a ride home.
Now, I'm home. Yay. Tried to eat something to make my stomach feel better. But nothing wants to go into my stomach and stay there.
Mm, need to get stuff done this weekend. I hope I do. Readings and papers. I can do this. Just need to focus and not get distracted.
Going to campus tomorrow and on Sunday to work on stuff and study for a midterm.
Three weeks of summer session left. About five weeks of summer break. Helping Shiva move to her old apartment next weekend, wooo.
Blah blah blah. My brain is starting to become mush. Exhausted... Need sleep. Forgetting things. Thoughts jumping around, feeling semi-coherent.
Ok, good night.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Root canals aren't that bad...
Past couple of days have been interesting. Haven't updated about any of it because my computer contracted a virus T-T Apparently downloaded itself into my computer. It wouldn't let me connect to any website except for one that "sells" an anti-virus program called AV Security Suite. Couldn't open up the task manager or Control Panel to get rid of it. Kept giving me warnings about how files on my computer were infected. Wouldn't let me open any of my programs T-T
But now the virus is gone. Yay for online removal instructions.
If I couldn't get rid of the virus today, I would have been allowed to buy a netbook O: Wow. Oh well. I'm good with my desktop until it craps out on me or something.
Ooh, D's gonna give me his external hard drive so that I can put my music files in it, just in case my desktop does decide to die.
But anyway, back to Thursday. Went to campus around 15h00 after driving Mother to the eye doctor. Chilled with Shiva. Was going to go to Music in the Park. But friggin' headache meant loud music would not be a good idea T-T
Hmm, it's been a while, so details have disappeared from my brain D: but I remember Jay and Veronica coming over to write stuff in a birthday card to the Naginata sensei. They like the smell of permanent marker, egh XP Then off to Kendo/Naginata.
Gave the birthday card and a nagamaki to the Naginata sensei. Took pictures. Fun stuff. I still find it weird that I'm being included in all these club things >_> 'cause I'm not actually a part of the club.
Hm, the sensei for Kendo said that I lied O: He said I said I would show up to all the practices. But I didn't T-T I said I would try to come watch sometime. Haha he went out and brought a cushiony chair into the basketball court for me to sit on XD He told me if I keep showing up, he'd bring in a chair for me every time haha XP
So I sat in the chair and watched the few people who showed up practice. Tried to take pictures, but Shiva's camera is too slow or the people are just too fast :P haha Veronica broke Jay's naginata in half XD That was pretty awesome. I mean, not for the naginata. But it was interesting to see. I looked over at them for two seconds before it happened.
But anyway, fun stuff to watch. Shiva and I left the practice about an hour early. Back to her place. Then out for a walk and food. Iguana's, my first time there. Ran into Jonathan G (the guy I met at parties) and his coworkers. Talked for a while. His coworkers left. He stayed to walk with Shiva and me >_> Ate foods in front of the SJ Rep. Yay, wind and stuff haha. Green sauce was interesting.
Walked back to room. Sprinklers! I got soaked. I meant to pull Shiva through with me, but she resisted -_- Darn you, Shiva.
Anyway, Jon went home. Shiva and I went back up to her room, though I wanted to keep walking outside. Outside was nice. Would have gone back outside, but somehow we managed to pass time in her room for quite a while before going to sleep. Oh yeah, CUTE KITTEN VIDEOS.... ^_^ Adorrrable.
But anyway, we ended up going to bed at like 1h30 or something like that :P An interesting night's sleep it was for me.
Waking up was interesting too. I had set my alarm for 6h30 as usual. I woke up at 6h30. Got up at 6h40. Shiva made me go back to bed for an hour -_-
Marian gave us both a ride to the dentist all the way past the car dealerships on Capitol O: So far from campus.
45-minute appointment. And Shiva has to go back on Friday 'cause her root canal's not done, hm.
Bus and light rail back to campus. Took about an hour. Went by really quickly.
What did we do the rest of the day? I don't really remember. Though, I do recall being attacked by Shiva's fingers T-T I could still feel the tickles when I went home. Phantom tickles -shudders-
Oh, we also watched "Sherlock Holmes" :D Interesting movie.
Holmes: "Madam, I need you to remain calm. And trust me, I'm a professional. Beneath this pillow, lies the key to my release."
Maid: -screams, runs-
And I didn't know that Sherlock Holmes could plan out physical attacks in his head so quickly o_o Those scenes were pretty awesome.
If you haven't watched the movie, you should. It's pretty entertaining.
Mm, other than that, there's not much else for me to share about Thursday and Friday. Well, I could... but nahh... :P You don't need to know everything haha.
Yesterday and today was full of me driving family around. Fun stuff >_> But anyway, now, it seems that I shall be chillin' with Shiva and Harrison some more before 10 and sleep :P
So good night haha.
But now the virus is gone. Yay for online removal instructions.
If I couldn't get rid of the virus today, I would have been allowed to buy a netbook O: Wow. Oh well. I'm good with my desktop until it craps out on me or something.
Ooh, D's gonna give me his external hard drive so that I can put my music files in it, just in case my desktop does decide to die.
But anyway, back to Thursday. Went to campus around 15h00 after driving Mother to the eye doctor. Chilled with Shiva. Was going to go to Music in the Park. But friggin' headache meant loud music would not be a good idea T-T
Hmm, it's been a while, so details have disappeared from my brain D: but I remember Jay and Veronica coming over to write stuff in a birthday card to the Naginata sensei. They like the smell of permanent marker, egh XP Then off to Kendo/Naginata.
Gave the birthday card and a nagamaki to the Naginata sensei. Took pictures. Fun stuff. I still find it weird that I'm being included in all these club things >_> 'cause I'm not actually a part of the club.
Hm, the sensei for Kendo said that I lied O: He said I said I would show up to all the practices. But I didn't T-T I said I would try to come watch sometime. Haha he went out and brought a cushiony chair into the basketball court for me to sit on XD He told me if I keep showing up, he'd bring in a chair for me every time haha XP
So I sat in the chair and watched the few people who showed up practice. Tried to take pictures, but Shiva's camera is too slow or the people are just too fast :P haha Veronica broke Jay's naginata in half XD That was pretty awesome. I mean, not for the naginata. But it was interesting to see. I looked over at them for two seconds before it happened.
But anyway, fun stuff to watch. Shiva and I left the practice about an hour early. Back to her place. Then out for a walk and food. Iguana's, my first time there. Ran into Jonathan G (the guy I met at parties) and his coworkers. Talked for a while. His coworkers left. He stayed to walk with Shiva and me >_> Ate foods in front of the SJ Rep. Yay, wind and stuff haha. Green sauce was interesting.
Walked back to room. Sprinklers! I got soaked. I meant to pull Shiva through with me, but she resisted -_- Darn you, Shiva.
Anyway, Jon went home. Shiva and I went back up to her room, though I wanted to keep walking outside. Outside was nice. Would have gone back outside, but somehow we managed to pass time in her room for quite a while before going to sleep. Oh yeah, CUTE KITTEN VIDEOS.... ^_^ Adorrrable.
But anyway, we ended up going to bed at like 1h30 or something like that :P An interesting night's sleep it was for me.
Waking up was interesting too. I had set my alarm for 6h30 as usual. I woke up at 6h30. Got up at 6h40. Shiva made me go back to bed for an hour -_-
Marian gave us both a ride to the dentist all the way past the car dealerships on Capitol O: So far from campus.
45-minute appointment. And Shiva has to go back on Friday 'cause her root canal's not done, hm.
Bus and light rail back to campus. Took about an hour. Went by really quickly.
What did we do the rest of the day? I don't really remember. Though, I do recall being attacked by Shiva's fingers T-T I could still feel the tickles when I went home. Phantom tickles -shudders-
Oh, we also watched "Sherlock Holmes" :D Interesting movie.
Holmes: "Madam, I need you to remain calm. And trust me, I'm a professional. Beneath this pillow, lies the key to my release."
Maid: -screams, runs-
And I didn't know that Sherlock Holmes could plan out physical attacks in his head so quickly o_o Those scenes were pretty awesome.
If you haven't watched the movie, you should. It's pretty entertaining.
Mm, other than that, there's not much else for me to share about Thursday and Friday. Well, I could... but nahh... :P You don't need to know everything haha.
Yesterday and today was full of me driving family around. Fun stuff >_> But anyway, now, it seems that I shall be chillin' with Shiva and Harrison some more before 10 and sleep :P
So good night haha.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Been a long while since I last shopped in Oakridge
So today, I went to Oakridge with Shiva. We met up at the Ohlone-Chynoweth light rail station and walked to the mall.
We watched the first showing of "Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time." I saw Jovany working the register :P Anyway, I didn't really know anything about the storyline. But the movie was all right, somewhat interesting. Really, I liked the music the most haha. And Garsiv was my favorite character, even if his part wasn't really all that crucial to the plot :P Oh yea, Shiva pointed out that the Persians all had European accents XD Oh, British actors and their accents haha.
Anyway, after the movie, Shiva and I went shopping >_> Kinda. More like she picked out stuff and I tried them on haha. She tried to get my opinion in on the choices, but, like I say over and over again, I do not like shopping, am not fun to shop with, and would never wish to shop. First time in a really long time that anyone outside of my family has tried to help me buy clothes XD In the end, I bought two pairs of shorts from Target for about $36. Shiva bought stuff too haha.
Food from Sbarro. Pizza and bread sticks. First time eating from there for me. Apparently not as good as the other times Shiva has gotten food from Sbarro.
Ooh, I saw Trieu twice with his family. Once in the food court and the other time at the theater. He and I need to hang out more often haha. Been way too long.
Haha when Shiva and I walked around the mall, a girl working at one of those makeup island thingies tried to stop us to try some lip gloss or something. I was gonna keep going. But Shiva had to reply and stop XP As she was being pulled in, I slowly walked away and ignored the chick. I waited in front of a store window looking at skateboard sets. I want the Pacman board :D It was pretty awesome. 90 bucks too.
Anyway, Shiva and I decided to head to campus around 17h30. Light rail from Oakridge to Ohlone, from Ohlone to San Antonio. Haha while we were waiting for the light rail at Oakridge, there was a mom there with her son, who was climbing on a fence. All I can remember about her was that she kept scolding her son for climbing the fence and saying stuff about the police and Internal Affairs or something O_o
Haha a while after we got on the light rail to campus, some dude, who might have been drunk, asked Shiva for her phone number XP Denied. And ignored haha. When we got off the light rail, he said "Good bye, ladies." When we were outside the light rail, he tapped on the window and waved at us. I would call this a mild interaction... Whew haha.
Mm, on campus, I spent like three hours in Shiva's room before I had to go home. She was doing her reading, while I was napping from time to time. Fun stuff XP Mm... Wish I could have stayed instead of going home. I was getting sooo comfy too haha -_- Didn't wanna get up -grumblegrumble- Why did I get up? ):
Mm, fun day. Lots of awesome, fun times... :)
Going home was terrible.. I was gonna complain about it, but whatever. Fuck it.
Tomorrow, I'm gonna be on campus to talk to Financial Aid people. Will probably take Stats and Social Problems this summer. 9h00 classes four days a week -_- It's like semester all over again. Except longer class times. Mm, fun stuff.
Ooh, get to sign up for Fall classes next Tuesday at 10h40, yay. Kinda got my schedule planned for Fall. Hope I get all morning classes again like my first two semesters of college. I miss that kinda schedule. Could get out early in the day.
Oh, I just did some math haha. I have 77 units right now. Junior status, woot. Add in two summer courses. I'll have 83 at the end of summer. That means after Fall semester, I'll have at least 95 units. Up to Senior status. Does that mean I'd have to start thinking about/applying for graduation? Hmm.
Back to the 77 units... That consists of 42 units for my Core GE, 2 units for PE courses, 27 units earned from testing (APs), and 6 units for just-for-fun classes. One of those just-for-fun classes was Intro to Sociology. Because of that class, of the 42 units I need for my major, I got 3 out of the way (Going to get 6 more out of the way this summer). So I still need 39 (or 33 after summer) for my major. 77 + (6 + 33) = 116. That's like another two semesters and a summer's worth of classes. And then I'd only need like two more electives to get the minimum 120 units for graduation.
And then I've got my Philosophy minor, which would be another 18 units. But I've taken Moral Philosophy. So that takes out 3 units. So 15 needed for my minor (a whole semester's worth of classes). So 116 + 15 = 131. If I did my math right and I stick to this plan, I could possibly graduate with 131 units in Fall 2011. Latest would probably be Spring 2012.
All this just means I've been on track for a timely graduation without realizing it XD hahaha. And here I thought I'd be graduating after five or six years of college. Though, of course, I could decide to change my major or something. That could get in the way of a timely graduation.
Blah. Life better work out somewhat well for all this crap and stuff I'm putting myself through -_- haha...
We watched the first showing of "Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time." I saw Jovany working the register :P Anyway, I didn't really know anything about the storyline. But the movie was all right, somewhat interesting. Really, I liked the music the most haha. And Garsiv was my favorite character, even if his part wasn't really all that crucial to the plot :P Oh yea, Shiva pointed out that the Persians all had European accents XD Oh, British actors and their accents haha.
Anyway, after the movie, Shiva and I went shopping >_> Kinda. More like she picked out stuff and I tried them on haha. She tried to get my opinion in on the choices, but, like I say over and over again, I do not like shopping, am not fun to shop with, and would never wish to shop. First time in a really long time that anyone outside of my family has tried to help me buy clothes XD In the end, I bought two pairs of shorts from Target for about $36. Shiva bought stuff too haha.
Food from Sbarro. Pizza and bread sticks. First time eating from there for me. Apparently not as good as the other times Shiva has gotten food from Sbarro.
Ooh, I saw Trieu twice with his family. Once in the food court and the other time at the theater. He and I need to hang out more often haha. Been way too long.
Haha when Shiva and I walked around the mall, a girl working at one of those makeup island thingies tried to stop us to try some lip gloss or something. I was gonna keep going. But Shiva had to reply and stop XP As she was being pulled in, I slowly walked away and ignored the chick. I waited in front of a store window looking at skateboard sets. I want the Pacman board :D It was pretty awesome. 90 bucks too.
Anyway, Shiva and I decided to head to campus around 17h30. Light rail from Oakridge to Ohlone, from Ohlone to San Antonio. Haha while we were waiting for the light rail at Oakridge, there was a mom there with her son, who was climbing on a fence. All I can remember about her was that she kept scolding her son for climbing the fence and saying stuff about the police and Internal Affairs or something O_o
Haha a while after we got on the light rail to campus, some dude, who might have been drunk, asked Shiva for her phone number XP Denied. And ignored haha. When we got off the light rail, he said "Good bye, ladies." When we were outside the light rail, he tapped on the window and waved at us. I would call this a mild interaction... Whew haha.
Mm, on campus, I spent like three hours in Shiva's room before I had to go home. She was doing her reading, while I was napping from time to time. Fun stuff XP Mm... Wish I could have stayed instead of going home. I was getting sooo comfy too haha -_- Didn't wanna get up -grumblegrumble- Why did I get up? ):
Mm, fun day. Lots of awesome, fun times... :)
Going home was terrible.. I was gonna complain about it, but whatever. Fuck it.
Tomorrow, I'm gonna be on campus to talk to Financial Aid people. Will probably take Stats and Social Problems this summer. 9h00 classes four days a week -_- It's like semester all over again. Except longer class times. Mm, fun stuff.
Ooh, get to sign up for Fall classes next Tuesday at 10h40, yay. Kinda got my schedule planned for Fall. Hope I get all morning classes again like my first two semesters of college. I miss that kinda schedule. Could get out early in the day.
Oh, I just did some math haha. I have 77 units right now. Junior status, woot. Add in two summer courses. I'll have 83 at the end of summer. That means after Fall semester, I'll have at least 95 units. Up to Senior status. Does that mean I'd have to start thinking about/applying for graduation? Hmm.
Back to the 77 units... That consists of 42 units for my Core GE, 2 units for PE courses, 27 units earned from testing (APs), and 6 units for just-for-fun classes. One of those just-for-fun classes was Intro to Sociology. Because of that class, of the 42 units I need for my major, I got 3 out of the way (Going to get 6 more out of the way this summer). So I still need 39 (or 33 after summer) for my major. 77 + (6 + 33) = 116. That's like another two semesters and a summer's worth of classes. And then I'd only need like two more electives to get the minimum 120 units for graduation.
And then I've got my Philosophy minor, which would be another 18 units. But I've taken Moral Philosophy. So that takes out 3 units. So 15 needed for my minor (a whole semester's worth of classes). So 116 + 15 = 131. If I did my math right and I stick to this plan, I could possibly graduate with 131 units in Fall 2011. Latest would probably be Spring 2012.
All this just means I've been on track for a timely graduation without realizing it XD hahaha. And here I thought I'd be graduating after five or six years of college. Though, of course, I could decide to change my major or something. That could get in the way of a timely graduation.
Blah. Life better work out somewhat well for all this crap and stuff I'm putting myself through -_- haha...
Friday, April 2, 2010
What an uneventful Spring Break...
But filled with thoughtful contemplation. Yay, redundancy.
Haven't done much of interest all week ):
Haven't gone anywhere outside of the house unless I had to drive Mother or Brother somewhere.
Haven't gotten started on my essays. I was going to start today, but Mother had me drive her to Walgreen's so that we could H1N1 shots -__- Then drive to other places. When we got home, I didn't feel like doing anything anymore.
I ended up watching "The Invention of Lying." Awesome movie. 8/10. I love Ricky Gervais' movies, even if he plays the same kinda character in all of them :P The saddest scene in this movie was my favorite XP I cried with him.
Anyway, the movie makes me wonder how the world would be if everyone always told the truth. Never lie. Don't know how to lie. That would be interesting. According to the movie, you can't lie by omission either. That's how I usually lie XP So hm, scary. Sad, isn't it? Complete honesty is scary.
Makes me think some things. Hm. I need to ask questions. But I suppose it's gonna make people look at me like O_o Oh well.
I wonder how difficult it will be to tell people what I've lied to them about...
Oh, Wednesday, I finally decided on my major/minor. Major in Justice Studies and minor in Philosophy. You think that will work out for me? I'm not sure. Then again, I'm never sure about anything XP Not my education, my love life, not my possibilities, nothing hahaha..
But yeah, Justice Studies and Philosophy. I was originally thinking of majoring in Philosophy, but I don't know what I would do with that. Don't think Mother would be too happy with that either. Though, I'm sure she won't be happy with Justice Studies either. She still wants me to go into Nursing. But I won't because I don't want to be around sick people >_>
So JS, yeah. I've always liked law and the legal system in some way or another. Maybe because Brother has had a few run-ins with the system since he was in high school :P
Philosophy, well, you know me and my philosophical talks :P haha jk. I dunno, I'm not sure how much I'll like it after a couple of courses :P Structure, you know. I don't like structure all that much.
Haha I like routine, but I dislike structure. Does that even make sense? I dunno.
Anyway, seriously, what do you think? 'Cause I'm not sure what I should think of my choice (haha so much for making decisive decisions).
So really, I haven't done anything really interesting all week. So sad. Haven't even seen Robert yet D: Maybe we'll have to put it off till summer XP Tamales and lessons, hm. Would go tomorrow or on the weekend, but it seems Robert will be preoccupied with tennis and WonderCon.
Hmm, some other thing on my mind... Phone conversations... You already know. I say it so often. I hate talking on the phone. Or strongly dislike it. I don't really know why. I just don't like it. The longest conversation I've ever had on the phone with someone (other than customer service, which has lasted more than two hours) was Ryan T back in like senior year of high school. An hour and a half. Why? Because I had said on Myspace or Facebook that I wanted to talk to someone and he decided to call me from SD. That was really the only talk-just-to-talk phone conversation I had ever had.
The second longest phone conversation I had was with Kat the summer before senior year. Twenty minutes talking about what classes she should take haha. Third longest phone conversation was the eight-minute one I had with Shiva last week.
Yeah, "long" phone conversations happen so rarely to me that I can remember with whom I have had them so far. Typically, my phone calls don't last any more than four minutes. And those are always for directions and invitations. But now, most people just text me 'cause they know I don't like talking on the phone all that much. Really, does anyone call me just to talk? Do people do that? I don't XP
So don't expect me to call you unless I have to. Like if you don't have unlimited texting. I especially do not call for casual conversation. I'm sad like that, I know. Every time I've had a casual phone conversation with you, it was always you who called me, yeah? Yeah. Mother and Brother do that too. I never call them unless I needed a ride or an answer to a question.
If I ever call you just to talk, you'll know something's up, yeah?
Haha I wonder sometimes why I have a cell phone :P And then I remember all those times I was forgotten on campus in middle and high school and I had to walk home for an hour and a half or longer. Yeah, fond memories. Cell phone, necessary and essential? Probably. Sadly.
Hm, lately, my dreams have been... weird... Not exactly recurring. Happen like every other day. Always a different setting. But pretty much the same or similar things happening. Makes me wonder if I'm obsessing so much when I'm conscious that it also haunts me in my sleep.
My sleep is so off, but my dreams are quite consistent @_@ well, every other day (I've lost track of the days on which they've occurred). The dreams I have in between are just the usual, seemingly irrelevant, sometimes whacked-out ones. You know, surprisingly, the somewhat recurring ones are sooo not crazy. Well, I suppose that would depend on how you look at them, if you knew what they were.
I dunno. They're "normal," as in nothing crazy like murder or naked people are in it haha. Different people show up and different things occur, but the main focus(?) of the dreams is always the same. Just always mellow(?). Comforting, even. But also disheartening in a way. Leave me wanting more, wanting real. Make me feel kinda pathetic and disappointed in myself when I wake up haha.
Aiyah, I'm so tired. I don't know how I'm gonna make it through college with such a low level of energy haha.
What do you think will motivate me to do better, try harder? To just try? 'Cause I just don't know right now.
Wanting but not trying. Needing but not asking...
I think my sleep-deprived brain is losing sense tonight haha. Not thinking straight anymore. Never thinking straight.
Feeling... numb. My house is kinda cold. It's 49 degrees. Wow, and all I'm wearing are PJ bottoms and a t-shirt. Time to go cuddle up with my blanket and stuffed dog XP
Haven't done much of interest all week ):
Haven't gone anywhere outside of the house unless I had to drive Mother or Brother somewhere.
Haven't gotten started on my essays. I was going to start today, but Mother had me drive her to Walgreen's so that we could H1N1 shots -__- Then drive to other places. When we got home, I didn't feel like doing anything anymore.
I ended up watching "The Invention of Lying." Awesome movie. 8/10. I love Ricky Gervais' movies, even if he plays the same kinda character in all of them :P The saddest scene in this movie was my favorite XP I cried with him.
Anyway, the movie makes me wonder how the world would be if everyone always told the truth. Never lie. Don't know how to lie. That would be interesting. According to the movie, you can't lie by omission either. That's how I usually lie XP So hm, scary. Sad, isn't it? Complete honesty is scary.
Makes me think some things. Hm. I need to ask questions. But I suppose it's gonna make people look at me like O_o Oh well.
I wonder how difficult it will be to tell people what I've lied to them about...
Oh, Wednesday, I finally decided on my major/minor. Major in Justice Studies and minor in Philosophy. You think that will work out for me? I'm not sure. Then again, I'm never sure about anything XP Not my education, my love life, not my possibilities, nothing hahaha..
But yeah, Justice Studies and Philosophy. I was originally thinking of majoring in Philosophy, but I don't know what I would do with that. Don't think Mother would be too happy with that either. Though, I'm sure she won't be happy with Justice Studies either. She still wants me to go into Nursing. But I won't because I don't want to be around sick people >_>
So JS, yeah. I've always liked law and the legal system in some way or another. Maybe because Brother has had a few run-ins with the system since he was in high school :P
Philosophy, well, you know me and my philosophical talks :P haha jk. I dunno, I'm not sure how much I'll like it after a couple of courses :P Structure, you know. I don't like structure all that much.
Haha I like routine, but I dislike structure. Does that even make sense? I dunno.
Anyway, seriously, what do you think? 'Cause I'm not sure what I should think of my choice (haha so much for making decisive decisions).
So really, I haven't done anything really interesting all week. So sad. Haven't even seen Robert yet D: Maybe we'll have to put it off till summer XP Tamales and lessons, hm. Would go tomorrow or on the weekend, but it seems Robert will be preoccupied with tennis and WonderCon.
Hmm, some other thing on my mind... Phone conversations... You already know. I say it so often. I hate talking on the phone. Or strongly dislike it. I don't really know why. I just don't like it. The longest conversation I've ever had on the phone with someone (other than customer service, which has lasted more than two hours) was Ryan T back in like senior year of high school. An hour and a half. Why? Because I had said on Myspace or Facebook that I wanted to talk to someone and he decided to call me from SD. That was really the only talk-just-to-talk phone conversation I had ever had.
The second longest phone conversation I had was with Kat the summer before senior year. Twenty minutes talking about what classes she should take haha. Third longest phone conversation was the eight-minute one I had with Shiva last week.
Yeah, "long" phone conversations happen so rarely to me that I can remember with whom I have had them so far. Typically, my phone calls don't last any more than four minutes. And those are always for directions and invitations. But now, most people just text me 'cause they know I don't like talking on the phone all that much. Really, does anyone call me just to talk? Do people do that? I don't XP
So don't expect me to call you unless I have to. Like if you don't have unlimited texting. I especially do not call for casual conversation. I'm sad like that, I know. Every time I've had a casual phone conversation with you, it was always you who called me, yeah? Yeah. Mother and Brother do that too. I never call them unless I needed a ride or an answer to a question.
If I ever call you just to talk, you'll know something's up, yeah?
Haha I wonder sometimes why I have a cell phone :P And then I remember all those times I was forgotten on campus in middle and high school and I had to walk home for an hour and a half or longer. Yeah, fond memories. Cell phone, necessary and essential? Probably. Sadly.
Hm, lately, my dreams have been... weird... Not exactly recurring. Happen like every other day. Always a different setting. But pretty much the same or similar things happening. Makes me wonder if I'm obsessing so much when I'm conscious that it also haunts me in my sleep.
My sleep is so off, but my dreams are quite consistent @_@ well, every other day (I've lost track of the days on which they've occurred). The dreams I have in between are just the usual, seemingly irrelevant, sometimes whacked-out ones. You know, surprisingly, the somewhat recurring ones are sooo not crazy. Well, I suppose that would depend on how you look at them, if you knew what they were.
I dunno. They're "normal," as in nothing crazy like murder or naked people are in it haha. Different people show up and different things occur, but the main focus(?) of the dreams is always the same. Just always mellow(?). Comforting, even. But also disheartening in a way. Leave me wanting more, wanting real. Make me feel kinda pathetic and disappointed in myself when I wake up haha.
Aiyah, I'm so tired. I don't know how I'm gonna make it through college with such a low level of energy haha.
What do you think will motivate me to do better, try harder? To just try? 'Cause I just don't know right now.
Wanting but not trying. Needing but not asking...
I think my sleep-deprived brain is losing sense tonight haha. Not thinking straight anymore. Never thinking straight.
Feeling... numb. My house is kinda cold. It's 49 degrees. Wow, and all I'm wearing are PJ bottoms and a t-shirt. Time to go cuddle up with my blanket and stuffed dog XP
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
I want to be cautious
I want to be cautious, not paranoid.
But it's difficult. Mother woke me up this morning because the sprinklers had apparently been on for five hours D: (Water bill's gonna be high this month). And they're still leaking.
Mother believes that someone stuck their hand in through the mail slot in the garage to mess with the sprinkler system. I told her that did not happen because the settings are the same as always. Something's probably physically wrong with the sprinkler system. But she won't let go of the belief that someone's fuckin' with us.. -_-
I don't want to hear her paranoid conjectures anymore. I've been listening to them for a long time. I used to believe her. Now, not so much. Though, somewhere in my brain, I hear what-ifs. Then I tell myself, "No. Don't believe such crap. It's paranoia. There's no evidence." But I can't help wondering if she's right about those people.
I can feel the paranoia creep in. I don't wanna be like that. Don't wanna think like that about people I don't even know. But it's getting a lil harder. Especially when Mother starts talking about people I do know. Like my friends ): She hasn't been right about them often. But the few times she mentioned a negative trait that I'd also noticed, I just thought "What if she's been right about my other friends?"
Then I slap myself for being silly. But again, I can't help it. Egh, I wish I could push those stupid thoughts out of my mind. So hard to trust people when all I can think about is how they might hurt me or how they might be planning something to hurt my family. Conspiracies >_< that I know are not real.
Blahh. Enough about how much I dislike paranoia.
Resolutions.
I think I'm gonna stop making yearly resolutions. I feel too inadequate to fulfill them. Or I really need someone to make sure I make more realistic resolutions haha. Maybe I'll just make lists of things to keep in mind XP I feel like I'm giving up too easily. I lost my motivation for the resolutions pretty quickly this year haha.
Progress(?):
1. Follow: No anger. No complaints.
-I'm sure this was an unrealistic resolution. I'm still always angry and complaining -_- Quite pathetic. Though I don't complain about every little thing my family does now, I'm still complaining too much. Still complaining about myself haha.
2. Daily: Get out of bed by 0700.
-I do this on school days. I haven't been doing it on weekends ):
3. Daily: Meditate for 10 minutes.
-I never got started on this. Or it's an irregular activity.
4. Daily: Do 20 push-ups, 20 crunches, 20 chin-ups.
-I'm good with this. One of the few things I can keep up with.
5. Do a fitness activity at least twice a week.
-I'm scrapping this. Biking to and from the light rail station is good enough XP
6. Daily: Drink 1 bottle of water.
-I'm now not as consistent with this as I was in the first two months of the year haha.
7. Daily: Spend 3 extra hours max on the Internet.
-Most days, a success. Some days, people decide to talk to me on AIM. Though, I suppose doing my homework at the same time is ok haha.
8. Improve Vietnamese and/or French.
-Yay, French class. Vietnamese, I need to find someone to teach me XP
9. Choose a major by March 31.
-Working on this. I intend to decide by tomorrow night. For now, I'm pretty sure I'll at least minor in Philosophy, but that's as far as I've gotten.
10. Get a job by summertime.
-Not likely. None of the places I applied to online replied. I should probably apply in person. But I think now is a bit too late to apply for summer. And still no car, so I don't know how I'd get myself to work.
11. Do not doubt myself.
-I'm still not sure how I'm supposed to do this. Too vague, mm. How does one find confidence in oneself?
12. Prepare for and go to Anime Expo 2010.
-This may be a go. Not yet sure. Depends on if I wanna fork over $75 (or even $65) for a four-day weekend when it used to be just $55. Also depends on if I wanna spend money the hotel room. First need to find out when Maggie and her friends are going down to Anaheim because I may just replace AX with Disneyland haha.
13. Watch the sunrise/sunset with someone.
-Meh. No occasion to spend the night outside with anyone. Though, I'm sure one of my friends wants to go to Half Moon Bay for a night. Eh -shrug- If anyone wants to go somewhere outside for a night, invite me :P so we can watch the sunset or sunrise together :D
So which resolutions have I been doing well with?: 4 and 8 haha. #9 is going to be accomplished tomorrow -nods- The ones I'm kinda sticking to are #1, 2, 6, 7, and 12, I guess.
I feel so not happy that I'm not sticking to this list haha. But it doesn't feel all that important to me anymore. I think next year I'll just try to stick to two or three resolutions instead of long a list XP Long lists of resolutions, not so smart on my part haha. Can't focus on all of them.
I think I'm doing better with the list of non-resolutions:
+Learn how to play piano or guitar. [no]
+Talk to people more. Initiate more conversations. [kinda]
+Go out with friends weekly. [yeah]
+Don't drive too fast. Don't rush. [yeah]
+Be honest. Do not lie. [mm, yeah and no. I'm trying]
+Obsess less. Figure out more solutions. Make decisive decisions. [mm, no]
+Eat enough fruits and vegetable every day. [yeah]
+Avoid 80+ proof liquor. [hellz yeah]
+Go to SF Pride. Get a small group of friends to go. [not summer yet]
+Go to ST's 2010 graduation. [June hasn't arrived yet]
+Read all the novels suggested by friends. [waiting till May]
+Finish at least half the list of "Movies To Watch." [waiting till May]
+Have a horror/thriller movie marathon. [kinda, but next time with people haha]
+Go to a concert. [no]
+Hug more. [yes, shocking >_>]
+Wander through the city (any city). [no]
+Explore San Jose's Japantown. [no]
+Celebrate my birthday. [not yet]
Fulfilling and not fulfilling resolutions affects how I feel about myself as a person haha.. And I think labeling my resolutions makes them feel like obligations. I really don't like feeling obligated to do anything. I want to do things for myself because I want to, not because I am expected to. I should have thought about that. Now, I feel lame -_- haha.
Hmm, now that I'm thinking about things... I think I would prefer to go to Anaheim at the end of May instead of to Expo. I mean, I'm sure Jeisun and Andrew are probably going to Expo. I know Kat's not going. Who else would be going? Must reduce cost of hotel room for it to be worth it XP For Anaheim, Maggie's friend might have free tickets, right? Hmm... Aaand I've only been to Disneyland once when I was five, and that experience wasn't all that amazing. Would like to build a happy memory of Disneyland haha.
Either way, I wanna go down to SoCal this summer. Or well, anywhere that's more than a two-hour drive away really. I don't wanna stay in the Bay Area all summer again. So if Disneyland and Expo don't happen, I still wanna go somewhere. Just dunno where or with whom, hm.
Hmm, what else did I wanna say in this entry? Eh -shrug- Hm, I had to sleep in the living room today because Brother fell asleep in my room -_- Can't sleep with his snoring. Anyway, sleep was elusive. Went to bed at 0100. Head hurt. Kept waking up again. But I remember a dream where someone hugged me. I'm getting more hug dreams @_@ Whhyyy?
Spring Break is going slow and quick. Sad that most others' springs breaks were last week. So not many people to chill with this week. I've gotten a lot of homework done though, especially over the weekend and yesterday. But I still have my two essays to start >_> Should have started yesterday, but I ended up watching movies online. "Cube," "Cube 2: Hypercube," "Cube Zero," and "Thir13en Ghosts." First three were the ones that Brian L told me about. The last one, I've just enjoyed since it came out nine years ago. "Cube," interesting idea, poor execution, bad acting (haha I recognized the actress who played Leaven). Traps weren't as interesting as I thought they would be. But the first trap in "Cube Zero" was awesome. "Water!"
"Thir13en Ghosts" has always entertained me. Acting was ok. The ghosts look pretty awesome. Though, the big baby looks kinda gross. And the lawyer's death is pretty cool, and his post-death movement was a bit funny haha.
Anyway, I will try to find the motivation to start my essays. And I'm gonna keep watching movies (been a while). And I may start reading Naruto, but who knows? So many volumes to catch up to x_x
Yeah, there's my long entry for the week. Unless something cool happens in the next few days. Like I get to go outside and chill with people haha. Supposed to rain all week >_< mm...
But it's difficult. Mother woke me up this morning because the sprinklers had apparently been on for five hours D: (Water bill's gonna be high this month). And they're still leaking.
Mother believes that someone stuck their hand in through the mail slot in the garage to mess with the sprinkler system. I told her that did not happen because the settings are the same as always. Something's probably physically wrong with the sprinkler system. But she won't let go of the belief that someone's fuckin' with us.. -_-
I don't want to hear her paranoid conjectures anymore. I've been listening to them for a long time. I used to believe her. Now, not so much. Though, somewhere in my brain, I hear what-ifs. Then I tell myself, "No. Don't believe such crap. It's paranoia. There's no evidence." But I can't help wondering if she's right about those people.
I can feel the paranoia creep in. I don't wanna be like that. Don't wanna think like that about people I don't even know. But it's getting a lil harder. Especially when Mother starts talking about people I do know. Like my friends ): She hasn't been right about them often. But the few times she mentioned a negative trait that I'd also noticed, I just thought "What if she's been right about my other friends?"
Then I slap myself for being silly. But again, I can't help it. Egh, I wish I could push those stupid thoughts out of my mind. So hard to trust people when all I can think about is how they might hurt me or how they might be planning something to hurt my family. Conspiracies >_< that I know are not real.
Blahh. Enough about how much I dislike paranoia.
Resolutions.
I think I'm gonna stop making yearly resolutions. I feel too inadequate to fulfill them. Or I really need someone to make sure I make more realistic resolutions haha. Maybe I'll just make lists of things to keep in mind XP I feel like I'm giving up too easily. I lost my motivation for the resolutions pretty quickly this year haha.
Progress(?):
1. Follow: No anger. No complaints.
-I'm sure this was an unrealistic resolution. I'm still always angry and complaining -_- Quite pathetic. Though I don't complain about every little thing my family does now, I'm still complaining too much. Still complaining about myself haha.
2. Daily: Get out of bed by 0700.
-I do this on school days. I haven't been doing it on weekends ):
3. Daily: Meditate for 10 minutes.
-I never got started on this. Or it's an irregular activity.
4. Daily: Do 20 push-ups, 20 crunches, 20 chin-ups.
-I'm good with this. One of the few things I can keep up with.
5. Do a fitness activity at least twice a week.
-I'm scrapping this. Biking to and from the light rail station is good enough XP
6. Daily: Drink 1 bottle of water.
-I'm now not as consistent with this as I was in the first two months of the year haha.
7. Daily: Spend 3 extra hours max on the Internet.
-Most days, a success. Some days, people decide to talk to me on AIM. Though, I suppose doing my homework at the same time is ok haha.
8. Improve Vietnamese and/or French.
-Yay, French class. Vietnamese, I need to find someone to teach me XP
9. Choose a major by March 31.
-Working on this. I intend to decide by tomorrow night. For now, I'm pretty sure I'll at least minor in Philosophy, but that's as far as I've gotten.
10. Get a job by summertime.
-Not likely. None of the places I applied to online replied. I should probably apply in person. But I think now is a bit too late to apply for summer. And still no car, so I don't know how I'd get myself to work.
11. Do not doubt myself.
-I'm still not sure how I'm supposed to do this. Too vague, mm. How does one find confidence in oneself?
12. Prepare for and go to Anime Expo 2010.
-This may be a go. Not yet sure. Depends on if I wanna fork over $75 (or even $65) for a four-day weekend when it used to be just $55. Also depends on if I wanna spend money the hotel room. First need to find out when Maggie and her friends are going down to Anaheim because I may just replace AX with Disneyland haha.
13. Watch the sunrise/sunset with someone.
-Meh. No occasion to spend the night outside with anyone. Though, I'm sure one of my friends wants to go to Half Moon Bay for a night. Eh -shrug- If anyone wants to go somewhere outside for a night, invite me :P so we can watch the sunset or sunrise together :D
So which resolutions have I been doing well with?: 4 and 8 haha. #9 is going to be accomplished tomorrow -nods- The ones I'm kinda sticking to are #1, 2, 6, 7, and 12, I guess.
I feel so not happy that I'm not sticking to this list haha. But it doesn't feel all that important to me anymore. I think next year I'll just try to stick to two or three resolutions instead of long a list XP Long lists of resolutions, not so smart on my part haha. Can't focus on all of them.
I think I'm doing better with the list of non-resolutions:
+Learn how to play piano or guitar. [no]
+Talk to people more. Initiate more conversations. [kinda]
+Go out with friends weekly. [yeah]
+Don't drive too fast. Don't rush. [yeah]
+Be honest. Do not lie. [mm, yeah and no. I'm trying]
+Obsess less. Figure out more solutions. Make decisive decisions. [mm, no]
+Eat enough fruits and vegetable every day. [yeah]
+Avoid 80+ proof liquor. [hellz yeah]
+Go to SF Pride. Get a small group of friends to go. [not summer yet]
+Go to ST's 2010 graduation. [June hasn't arrived yet]
+Read all the novels suggested by friends. [waiting till May]
+Finish at least half the list of "Movies To Watch." [waiting till May]
+Have a horror/thriller movie marathon. [kinda, but next time with people haha]
+Go to a concert. [no]
+Hug more. [yes, shocking >_>]
+Wander through the city (any city). [no]
+Explore San Jose's Japantown. [no]
+Celebrate my birthday. [not yet]
Fulfilling and not fulfilling resolutions affects how I feel about myself as a person haha.. And I think labeling my resolutions makes them feel like obligations. I really don't like feeling obligated to do anything. I want to do things for myself because I want to, not because I am expected to. I should have thought about that. Now, I feel lame -_- haha.
Hmm, now that I'm thinking about things... I think I would prefer to go to Anaheim at the end of May instead of to Expo. I mean, I'm sure Jeisun and Andrew are probably going to Expo. I know Kat's not going. Who else would be going? Must reduce cost of hotel room for it to be worth it XP For Anaheim, Maggie's friend might have free tickets, right? Hmm... Aaand I've only been to Disneyland once when I was five, and that experience wasn't all that amazing. Would like to build a happy memory of Disneyland haha.
Either way, I wanna go down to SoCal this summer. Or well, anywhere that's more than a two-hour drive away really. I don't wanna stay in the Bay Area all summer again. So if Disneyland and Expo don't happen, I still wanna go somewhere. Just dunno where or with whom, hm.
Hmm, what else did I wanna say in this entry? Eh -shrug- Hm, I had to sleep in the living room today because Brother fell asleep in my room -_- Can't sleep with his snoring. Anyway, sleep was elusive. Went to bed at 0100. Head hurt. Kept waking up again. But I remember a dream where someone hugged me. I'm getting more hug dreams @_@ Whhyyy?
Spring Break is going slow and quick. Sad that most others' springs breaks were last week. So not many people to chill with this week. I've gotten a lot of homework done though, especially over the weekend and yesterday. But I still have my two essays to start >_> Should have started yesterday, but I ended up watching movies online. "Cube," "Cube 2: Hypercube," "Cube Zero," and "Thir13en Ghosts." First three were the ones that Brian L told me about. The last one, I've just enjoyed since it came out nine years ago. "Cube," interesting idea, poor execution, bad acting (haha I recognized the actress who played Leaven). Traps weren't as interesting as I thought they would be. But the first trap in "Cube Zero" was awesome. "Water!"
"Thir13en Ghosts" has always entertained me. Acting was ok. The ghosts look pretty awesome. Though, the big baby looks kinda gross. And the lawyer's death is pretty cool, and his post-death movement was a bit funny haha.
Anyway, I will try to find the motivation to start my essays. And I'm gonna keep watching movies (been a while). And I may start reading Naruto, but who knows? So many volumes to catch up to x_x
Yeah, there's my long entry for the week. Unless something cool happens in the next few days. Like I get to go outside and chill with people haha. Supposed to rain all week >_< mm...
Saturday, March 6, 2010
"Alice in Wonderland" and "Shutter Island"
It's not that weird of a combination of movies to watch. And both were entertaining. Though, I'm not sure if it's me or what, but I wasn't completely satisfied with either film -shrug-
AiW, 7/10. The computer effects, awesome. The creatures looked amazing. The Bandersnatch and the Jabberwocky, I wish they were real haha. Maybe they are. I wish the Cheshire Cat were real too haha. And I thought the acting and characters were a mixed bag. Red Queen (Helena B Carter) got my sympathy, honestly. Alice (Mia Wasikowska) was so dry. I'm thinking her character is supposed to be like that. The Red Hatter wasn't as eccentric as I had hoped, but then again I wasn't sure how the Hatter should be anyway in this future Wonderland. Crispin Glover did so well as the Knave of Hearts XD I was happy with his acting (Though, I still see him as Willard or George McFly >_>). White Queen (Anne Hathaway), ehh, did she always move around so much? So much floaty-ness and twirling. I'm not sure how I feel about that. And her appearance was ehh >_> All white but with dark eyebrows, eyes, lips, and nails. She looked kinda evil to me, hm.
Oh yeah, the last gazebo scene, ahahaha, totally gangster XD
"Shutter Island" was interesting, 7.5/10. Predictable stuff (Then again, Andrea had ruined the ending for me when we were at Battlefest). Though the plot twist wasn't all that crazy and the movie really wasn't suspenseful for me, I think the acting was well-done. Notable performances by Leonardo DiCaprio (Teddy), Mark Ruffalo (Chuck), Ben Kingsley (Dr Cawley), and Ted Levine (the Warden) with his small part. Seriously, I enjoyed the acting. But Michelle Williams' acting was a lil bit iffy. Or maybe it was her character. Her emotion was just off-putting to me, but I suppose that just added to the atmosphere of the movie. Oh, and the suspenseful moments didn't surprise me ): I was slightly disappointed. But the lake scene almost made me cry. Yeaah.
I agree with Brian that the plot twist was predictable and therefore not a real twist. However, the way the movie handled the twist was a bit unexpected. It didn't follow the trend. Haha Claudia was disappointed that the ending didn't follow cliche :P
I read an online review somewhere that compared "Shutter Island" to "The Departed." Honestly, I have to say that I prefer "The Departed." I feel like I could watch that movie more often than I could watch "Shutter Island," but that's just me.
So today, Chris M (from Bernal and ST) gave me a ride to Eastridge around 11h10. Would have picked up Shiva and her friend if she had called, but she didn't. So Chris and I got to the mall around 11h30. Claudia wasn't there yet. And Chris had to leave because his dad called and told him to come home ): I told him he should go home. He bought a ticket for the "Shutter Island" showing at 14h00 and left. I waited for Claudia. She showed up right at noon when "Alice in Wonderland" was supposed to start. I almost thought she wasn't gonna show up, but yeah she did ^_^ If she hadn't, I don't know what I would have done because she has no cell phone and I had no ride for home -_-
Haha and while we were in line so she could buy water, we were talking about how we hate planning things/inviting people to things. People say yes at first, and then gradually they all change their answers to no -_- This is the third time it's happened to me in the past six or so months. I had at least eight people say yes for today. Claudia was obviously supposed to show because she was the one who invited me. Chris came (for the purpose of being my chauffeur XP haha). Brian showed for the second movie. Everyone else decided they didn't want to go or they couldn't go. I'd prefer that people just say no upfront or maybe. Not yes, then no. I dislike that very much. It has a negative impact on my life XP Apparently, the reason why Claudia invites me to the movies is that I mean yes when I say yes. At least for movie-watching. I'm usually good on my word, you know? Yeaah.
Anyway, we watched AiW. The movie ended around 2. I bought chocolate-covered raisins from a vending machine (been so long since I last had some). I put in $3.25 because I was hungry XP And you know, this was a suspenseful experience because the box got stuck D: I almost freaked out. Started pounding on the machine. Eventually, I figured out how to get it out. But ah, I dislike vending machines now T-T
After that, we headed over to the room for SI, where Brian was waiting for us. Haha Brian and I laughed at quite a few things during the movie XP Such silly things. Though, I currently cannot recall what any of them were haha.
When we got out of the theater around 16h30, Chris appeared out of nowhere. Turned out that he had come in to watch the last hour of the movie :O I didn't know. I had seen him come in and sit down in front, but I wasn't sure if it had actually been him >_> I felt bad. He paid $8.75 to watch half a movie D: And he was driving me too DX Mm..
We stood outside the theater for a bit. I talked to each person individually. They didn't really talk to each other -_- I realized I didn't introduce Chris to the other two. But, you know, they could have introduced themselves without me.
Anyway, we headed over to Daiso because Claudia wanted to look at or buy something. Brian left soon after. The rest of us headed over to Barnes & Noble and talked about the different books there. I didn't know Glenn Beck put out many books -_- Scary. Also, so many novels changing their covers to match with the recently-released movies based on them. I'm kinda not liking that, but eh whatever. After a few minutes of the conversation on books and Chris' hand gestures haha, Claudia had to leave.
Chris and I headed to his Jeep. I didn't know where to go, so Chris took me to the spot where he crashed his old Chevelle, poor thing. Spent more than half an hour standing on the side of San Felipe Road talking about his experience and whatnot. Crazy stuff. His car took out a chunk of a telephone pole haha. Damn. I'm surprised the pole is still standing. Oh, we saw two cars racing down the winding road as well. How close they got to running me over, hmm. Worrisome. Also darkness settling in. So we decided to get back in the car.
Drove all the way down San Felipe to Metcalf Road, to Bailey Avenue. So many turns @_@ Dangerous. Ooh, but the city lights, sooo nice. I really wanna just camp out on a tall hill or a mountain and look down on the city lights. And wait for the sunrise :D Ahh, that reminds me of when I used to live next to Valley Christian High School. One of the coolest places to see the city lights from. Oh, memories.
Anyway, yeah, much of the conversation that I had with Chris was about cars and his friend Mike P, whom apparently everyone should know. I know of him. I've known of him since Bernal :P But yeah, all very interesting conversation haha.
So I got home at 18h00, maybe 18h30. I don't remember. But I do remember Mother saying that she liked Chris because he looked like a nice guy haha. He is a nice guy (:
Oh, haha I just remembered that I could have gotten him and Brian talking more if I had mentioned that Brian is on a team building a hybrid formula race car XP Why I didn't think of it earlier, I do not know. Next time.
But yeah, that was basically my day. Good stuff. Movies were good, but conversations were more fun. Next time, I'll try to facilitate conversation, I guess. Though, people already know I'm not much of a conversationalist myself, sooo... Don't expect amazing conversation starters from me. I'm usually better at one-on-one conversations, in which the other speaker has more to say than I do or is passionate about something ^_^ Yeah, if you hadn't noticed.
Mm, fun stuff. Shall spend tomorrow doing some homework. At least another chapter for Sociology. I need motivation to start on my essays though -_- Blah. Ooh, Queer Prom in three weeks. I want to go. We'll see what happens, hm.
Oh yeah, yesterday was cool too. Spent the day chillin' at Shiva's and doing French homework haha. Brian came over when we were watching the Japanese version of Sailor Moon. Oh, memories XD There were also invasions of foot space. Offers of a shoulder to lean on. Literally. Lessons in hugs, I suppose >_> scary stuff. She made me hug Phil XP haha.
Ok, enough remembering stuff for tonight. I need sleep. Soon.
AiW, 7/10. The computer effects, awesome. The creatures looked amazing. The Bandersnatch and the Jabberwocky, I wish they were real haha. Maybe they are. I wish the Cheshire Cat were real too haha. And I thought the acting and characters were a mixed bag. Red Queen (Helena B Carter) got my sympathy, honestly. Alice (Mia Wasikowska) was so dry. I'm thinking her character is supposed to be like that. The Red Hatter wasn't as eccentric as I had hoped, but then again I wasn't sure how the Hatter should be anyway in this future Wonderland. Crispin Glover did so well as the Knave of Hearts XD I was happy with his acting (Though, I still see him as Willard or George McFly >_>). White Queen (Anne Hathaway), ehh, did she always move around so much? So much floaty-ness and twirling. I'm not sure how I feel about that. And her appearance was ehh >_> All white but with dark eyebrows, eyes, lips, and nails. She looked kinda evil to me, hm.
Oh yeah, the last gazebo scene, ahahaha, totally gangster XD
"Shutter Island" was interesting, 7.5/10. Predictable stuff (Then again, Andrea had ruined the ending for me when we were at Battlefest). Though the plot twist wasn't all that crazy and the movie really wasn't suspenseful for me, I think the acting was well-done. Notable performances by Leonardo DiCaprio (Teddy), Mark Ruffalo (Chuck), Ben Kingsley (Dr Cawley), and Ted Levine (the Warden) with his small part. Seriously, I enjoyed the acting. But Michelle Williams' acting was a lil bit iffy. Or maybe it was her character. Her emotion was just off-putting to me, but I suppose that just added to the atmosphere of the movie. Oh, and the suspenseful moments didn't surprise me ): I was slightly disappointed. But the lake scene almost made me cry. Yeaah.
I agree with Brian that the plot twist was predictable and therefore not a real twist. However, the way the movie handled the twist was a bit unexpected. It didn't follow the trend. Haha Claudia was disappointed that the ending didn't follow cliche :P
I read an online review somewhere that compared "Shutter Island" to "The Departed." Honestly, I have to say that I prefer "The Departed." I feel like I could watch that movie more often than I could watch "Shutter Island," but that's just me.
So today, Chris M (from Bernal and ST) gave me a ride to Eastridge around 11h10. Would have picked up Shiva and her friend if she had called, but she didn't. So Chris and I got to the mall around 11h30. Claudia wasn't there yet. And Chris had to leave because his dad called and told him to come home ): I told him he should go home. He bought a ticket for the "Shutter Island" showing at 14h00 and left. I waited for Claudia. She showed up right at noon when "Alice in Wonderland" was supposed to start. I almost thought she wasn't gonna show up, but yeah she did ^_^ If she hadn't, I don't know what I would have done because she has no cell phone and I had no ride for home -_-
Haha and while we were in line so she could buy water, we were talking about how we hate planning things/inviting people to things. People say yes at first, and then gradually they all change their answers to no -_- This is the third time it's happened to me in the past six or so months. I had at least eight people say yes for today. Claudia was obviously supposed to show because she was the one who invited me. Chris came (for the purpose of being my chauffeur XP haha). Brian showed for the second movie. Everyone else decided they didn't want to go or they couldn't go. I'd prefer that people just say no upfront or maybe. Not yes, then no. I dislike that very much. It has a negative impact on my life XP Apparently, the reason why Claudia invites me to the movies is that I mean yes when I say yes. At least for movie-watching. I'm usually good on my word, you know? Yeaah.
Anyway, we watched AiW. The movie ended around 2. I bought chocolate-covered raisins from a vending machine (been so long since I last had some). I put in $3.25 because I was hungry XP And you know, this was a suspenseful experience because the box got stuck D: I almost freaked out. Started pounding on the machine. Eventually, I figured out how to get it out. But ah, I dislike vending machines now T-T
After that, we headed over to the room for SI, where Brian was waiting for us. Haha Brian and I laughed at quite a few things during the movie XP Such silly things. Though, I currently cannot recall what any of them were haha.
When we got out of the theater around 16h30, Chris appeared out of nowhere. Turned out that he had come in to watch the last hour of the movie :O I didn't know. I had seen him come in and sit down in front, but I wasn't sure if it had actually been him >_> I felt bad. He paid $8.75 to watch half a movie D: And he was driving me too DX Mm..
We stood outside the theater for a bit. I talked to each person individually. They didn't really talk to each other -_- I realized I didn't introduce Chris to the other two. But, you know, they could have introduced themselves without me.
Anyway, we headed over to Daiso because Claudia wanted to look at or buy something. Brian left soon after. The rest of us headed over to Barnes & Noble and talked about the different books there. I didn't know Glenn Beck put out many books -_- Scary. Also, so many novels changing their covers to match with the recently-released movies based on them. I'm kinda not liking that, but eh whatever. After a few minutes of the conversation on books and Chris' hand gestures haha, Claudia had to leave.
Chris and I headed to his Jeep. I didn't know where to go, so Chris took me to the spot where he crashed his old Chevelle, poor thing. Spent more than half an hour standing on the side of San Felipe Road talking about his experience and whatnot. Crazy stuff. His car took out a chunk of a telephone pole haha. Damn. I'm surprised the pole is still standing. Oh, we saw two cars racing down the winding road as well. How close they got to running me over, hmm. Worrisome. Also darkness settling in. So we decided to get back in the car.
Drove all the way down San Felipe to Metcalf Road, to Bailey Avenue. So many turns @_@ Dangerous. Ooh, but the city lights, sooo nice. I really wanna just camp out on a tall hill or a mountain and look down on the city lights. And wait for the sunrise :D Ahh, that reminds me of when I used to live next to Valley Christian High School. One of the coolest places to see the city lights from. Oh, memories.
Anyway, yeah, much of the conversation that I had with Chris was about cars and his friend Mike P, whom apparently everyone should know. I know of him. I've known of him since Bernal :P But yeah, all very interesting conversation haha.
So I got home at 18h00, maybe 18h30. I don't remember. But I do remember Mother saying that she liked Chris because he looked like a nice guy haha. He is a nice guy (:
Oh, haha I just remembered that I could have gotten him and Brian talking more if I had mentioned that Brian is on a team building a hybrid formula race car XP Why I didn't think of it earlier, I do not know. Next time.
But yeah, that was basically my day. Good stuff. Movies were good, but conversations were more fun. Next time, I'll try to facilitate conversation, I guess. Though, people already know I'm not much of a conversationalist myself, sooo... Don't expect amazing conversation starters from me. I'm usually better at one-on-one conversations, in which the other speaker has more to say than I do or is passionate about something ^_^ Yeah, if you hadn't noticed.
Mm, fun stuff. Shall spend tomorrow doing some homework. At least another chapter for Sociology. I need motivation to start on my essays though -_- Blah. Ooh, Queer Prom in three weeks. I want to go. We'll see what happens, hm.
Oh yeah, yesterday was cool too. Spent the day chillin' at Shiva's and doing French homework haha. Brian came over when we were watching the Japanese version of Sailor Moon. Oh, memories XD There were also invasions of foot space. Offers of a shoulder to lean on. Literally. Lessons in hugs, I suppose >_> scary stuff. She made me hug Phil XP haha.
Ok, enough remembering stuff for tonight. I need sleep. Soon.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
"The Princess and the Frog"
Watched it today with Brian and Shiva.
Light rail from ST to San Antonio. Got off and waited for the two of them. Then light rail to Great Mall. I don't think I said too much on the light rail (I'm not sure I talked as much as I usually do).
Uhh, the movie was good. Entertaining. Corny. Somewhat salacious (just like many other Disney movies). No catchy songs though. The Shadow Man reminded me of Jafar. Mama Odie reminded me of Suga Mama. Charlotte was like the nice version of Darla Dimple. Eh, enjoyable movie, slightly original plot, fun graphics. Much laughter, but not much excitement. Mm, yeah.
I was holding a pack of mini-mochi throughout the movie. My left wrist was cramped by the end of it.
After the movie, we walked around for a bit. I was like a ping pong ball, hm. I tripped at one point. Or two. And even though I don't like studded belts, I bought a rainbow one (finally) for five bucks because Shiva knows how to haggle.
Neiman Marcus is outrageously overpriced. I tried to explain that the only things I would probably ever buy from NM would be cookies. They really do sell cookies. I wasn't making it up. Hm.
We went to BevMo! so that they could buy root beer. While we were checking out the bottles, one of the employees dropped a wine bottle or two. You could smell the alcohol. Kinda made me feel nauseous.
Light rail back to campus. Shiva's place. Watched some of the Superbowl. I had had no idea which teams were playing. But now I know. Also watched some more AMV Hell. Shiva fed me chunks of egg from her ramen because she is not skilled in the ways of egg-beating. Also, she was playing Ace Attorney (Reminded me of Kat and Jeisun's Phoenix Wright cosplay. Must find photos. Are they on Facebook or ACParadise?).
After the food, I walked with the two of them to the Music Building. They were going to a benefit concert for Haiti. I would have joined them, but I was late for leaving (7:00 PM).
So yeah, that was pretty much my day. Nothing more, nothing less. Well, crappy morning, shitty evening. But everything else in between was all right. And hey, I got most of my homework for this week done. Just need to print out one assignment, finish reading AAS stuff, buy the Linguistics course reader, and start my sociology stuff (once I figure out why the website won't open on my desktop).
Mm, there's a lot of stuff I wanna say. But I keep deleting and revising what I type. I can't get it out of my head.. This kinda sucks.
Light rail from ST to San Antonio. Got off and waited for the two of them. Then light rail to Great Mall. I don't think I said too much on the light rail (I'm not sure I talked as much as I usually do).
Uhh, the movie was good. Entertaining. Corny. Somewhat salacious (just like many other Disney movies). No catchy songs though. The Shadow Man reminded me of Jafar. Mama Odie reminded me of Suga Mama. Charlotte was like the nice version of Darla Dimple. Eh, enjoyable movie, slightly original plot, fun graphics. Much laughter, but not much excitement. Mm, yeah.
I was holding a pack of mini-mochi throughout the movie. My left wrist was cramped by the end of it.
After the movie, we walked around for a bit. I was like a ping pong ball, hm. I tripped at one point. Or two. And even though I don't like studded belts, I bought a rainbow one (finally) for five bucks because Shiva knows how to haggle.
Neiman Marcus is outrageously overpriced. I tried to explain that the only things I would probably ever buy from NM would be cookies. They really do sell cookies. I wasn't making it up. Hm.
We went to BevMo! so that they could buy root beer. While we were checking out the bottles, one of the employees dropped a wine bottle or two. You could smell the alcohol. Kinda made me feel nauseous.
Light rail back to campus. Shiva's place. Watched some of the Superbowl. I had had no idea which teams were playing. But now I know. Also watched some more AMV Hell. Shiva fed me chunks of egg from her ramen because she is not skilled in the ways of egg-beating. Also, she was playing Ace Attorney (Reminded me of Kat and Jeisun's Phoenix Wright cosplay. Must find photos. Are they on Facebook or ACParadise?).
After the food, I walked with the two of them to the Music Building. They were going to a benefit concert for Haiti. I would have joined them, but I was late for leaving (7:00 PM).
So yeah, that was pretty much my day. Nothing more, nothing less. Well, crappy morning, shitty evening. But everything else in between was all right. And hey, I got most of my homework for this week done. Just need to print out one assignment, finish reading AAS stuff, buy the Linguistics course reader, and start my sociology stuff (once I figure out why the website won't open on my desktop).
Mm, there's a lot of stuff I wanna say. But I keep deleting and revising what I type. I can't get it out of my head.. This kinda sucks.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
"The Spy Next Door"
Today, I went to the movies at Oakridge with Ayana and her two sisters. The sisters watched "Leap Year," while Ayana and I watched "The Spy Next Door." Not the movie I wanted to watch. However, I knew Ayana wouldn't want to watch "Daybreaker" haha XP I still remember when she and Olivia walked out of "Van Helsing" after twenty minutes :P
Mm, so the theater was packed with little kids @_@ I didn't think it would be that packed. Ayana and I had to sit down in the front. That's the third time I've had to sit that close to the screen. I still remember the first time was to watch "Inspector Gadget" and the second to watch "Ratatouille." Hm, always lil kiddie movies.
Anyway, I give TSND a 6/10 because, while I did have my laughs and the fight scenes were entertaining as always, the movie was overly corny and cliche. I could barely stand it XP Though, Nora, the youngest child, was totally adorable. Even if I don't really like kids and the little actress wasn't that good :P haha.
The actress who played the mom wasn't all that good either. Eh, I don't know why I'm dissecting a PG movie haha. Anyway, all I could really think about when I saw her on the screen was that she's the same actress from "Gamer" and "Premonition."
Hm, throughout the movie, all Ayana could really say was that Lucas Till was hott. I agreed. He really does look good :D And his fight scenes were pretty cool (the use of the chair was pretty cool). But his Russian accent bothered me.
Actually, all of the faux Russian accents were irksome. I know they were probably supposed to be funny, but they weren't to me. Maybe I'm just not that into the goofy villains anymore. I mean, I laughed, but eh -shrug-
Really though, I enjoyed the movie. Got me to laugh. I just don't want all these new kiddie movies to be so predictable :/ Maybe I'm just wanting too much out of a movie.
Anyway, you know I just realized how much parkour there is in Jackie Chan's movies :D That's just awesome. Amazing skills, even if he has to redo the scenes. Hey, at least he does pretty much all of his own stunts, having broken so many different bones in his career several times.
So after the movie, Ayana and I went to Target to meet up with her sisters in the DVD section. The three of them spent a while debating which Disney DVDs to purchase haha. Wow, really. So typical of Ayana. She's rebuilding her Disney collection. She settled on "Hannah Montana the Movie" and "High School Musical 3" haha. She also bought "Eagle Eye." That one surprised me. I didn't know she watched anything that wasn't G or PG haha.
Anyway, it was good to see her again. It feels like it's been a year since I last saw her. Her hair's hella short now. Well, shorter than I've ever seen. It's because she didn't take control of the situation with her hairstylist :P hahaha. You shouldn't have that much faith in people haha.
Mm, so I didn't go with Brian L and his friends to watch Imaginarium. All 'cause I didn't want to go to Milpitas. Nor did Mother want me to either. D is borrowing the Avalon. So the Cressida is parked in front of the house. But I can't drive it because Mother doesn't trust that car. Especially in the rain -shrug- Not like I'm really gonna go anywhere.
And ahhh, school starts next Tuesday :O I can't wait. I don't like being stuck at home. I just hope I don't stress way the fuck out this semester, especially after such an easy Fall semester. Ah, and I'll seriously be on campus all day four days a week. Should figure out what I'll do during my five-hour break on Mondays and Wednesdays. Maybe add a class. Maybe just partake in a class for fun. And I'll be on campus early on Tuesdays and Thursdays as well, even if I don't have classes then. I'll probably stay in the library or find people to provide me with shelter for a few morning hours haha. We'll see how that all works out.
It also seems that I won't be able to make the VSA meetings this semester. Again, grr. I might not even make it to QTIP meetings D: 'cause my class ends at 17h45 and is across campus from the BB Building (I'd be able to show up for maybe the last half of the meetings). I should work out the bike thing. See if Mother won't kill me for that idea. Still need to go buy a bike lock and lights -_- I haven't been taking the initiative to go buy things.
I don't know if I'll make the Q&A meetings because we haven't decided on meeting times yet. Hmph.
Oh, so I've started a "To Read" list today (to accompany my "To Watch" and "To Listen" lists). I've put down all the suggestions people have given me before (that I could remember): Brave New World, His Dark Materials, LOTR, Man's Search for Meaning. I don't have that many yet. But eventually, the list shall grow, just like the others did. Still trying to up my bookworm level haha.
Hmm, I wonder how my last week of break will go. Smoothly, yes? Yes! Though, I have a feeling I'm forgetting something about this week :/
Mm, so the theater was packed with little kids @_@ I didn't think it would be that packed. Ayana and I had to sit down in the front. That's the third time I've had to sit that close to the screen. I still remember the first time was to watch "Inspector Gadget" and the second to watch "Ratatouille." Hm, always lil kiddie movies.
Anyway, I give TSND a 6/10 because, while I did have my laughs and the fight scenes were entertaining as always, the movie was overly corny and cliche. I could barely stand it XP Though, Nora, the youngest child, was totally adorable. Even if I don't really like kids and the little actress wasn't that good :P haha.
The actress who played the mom wasn't all that good either. Eh, I don't know why I'm dissecting a PG movie haha. Anyway, all I could really think about when I saw her on the screen was that she's the same actress from "Gamer" and "Premonition."
Hm, throughout the movie, all Ayana could really say was that Lucas Till was hott. I agreed. He really does look good :D And his fight scenes were pretty cool (the use of the chair was pretty cool). But his Russian accent bothered me.
Actually, all of the faux Russian accents were irksome. I know they were probably supposed to be funny, but they weren't to me. Maybe I'm just not that into the goofy villains anymore. I mean, I laughed, but eh -shrug-
Really though, I enjoyed the movie. Got me to laugh. I just don't want all these new kiddie movies to be so predictable :/ Maybe I'm just wanting too much out of a movie.
Anyway, you know I just realized how much parkour there is in Jackie Chan's movies :D That's just awesome. Amazing skills, even if he has to redo the scenes. Hey, at least he does pretty much all of his own stunts, having broken so many different bones in his career several times.
So after the movie, Ayana and I went to Target to meet up with her sisters in the DVD section. The three of them spent a while debating which Disney DVDs to purchase haha. Wow, really. So typical of Ayana. She's rebuilding her Disney collection. She settled on "Hannah Montana the Movie" and "High School Musical 3" haha. She also bought "Eagle Eye." That one surprised me. I didn't know she watched anything that wasn't G or PG haha.
Anyway, it was good to see her again. It feels like it's been a year since I last saw her. Her hair's hella short now. Well, shorter than I've ever seen. It's because she didn't take control of the situation with her hairstylist :P hahaha. You shouldn't have that much faith in people haha.
Mm, so I didn't go with Brian L and his friends to watch Imaginarium. All 'cause I didn't want to go to Milpitas. Nor did Mother want me to either. D is borrowing the Avalon. So the Cressida is parked in front of the house. But I can't drive it because Mother doesn't trust that car. Especially in the rain -shrug- Not like I'm really gonna go anywhere.
And ahhh, school starts next Tuesday :O I can't wait. I don't like being stuck at home. I just hope I don't stress way the fuck out this semester, especially after such an easy Fall semester. Ah, and I'll seriously be on campus all day four days a week. Should figure out what I'll do during my five-hour break on Mondays and Wednesdays. Maybe add a class. Maybe just partake in a class for fun. And I'll be on campus early on Tuesdays and Thursdays as well, even if I don't have classes then. I'll probably stay in the library or find people to provide me with shelter for a few morning hours haha. We'll see how that all works out.
It also seems that I won't be able to make the VSA meetings this semester. Again, grr. I might not even make it to QTIP meetings D: 'cause my class ends at 17h45 and is across campus from the BB Building (I'd be able to show up for maybe the last half of the meetings). I should work out the bike thing. See if Mother won't kill me for that idea. Still need to go buy a bike lock and lights -_- I haven't been taking the initiative to go buy things.
I don't know if I'll make the Q&A meetings because we haven't decided on meeting times yet. Hmph.
Oh, so I've started a "To Read" list today (to accompany my "To Watch" and "To Listen" lists). I've put down all the suggestions people have given me before (that I could remember): Brave New World, His Dark Materials, LOTR, Man's Search for Meaning. I don't have that many yet. But eventually, the list shall grow, just like the others did. Still trying to up my bookworm level haha.
Hmm, I wonder how my last week of break will go. Smoothly, yes? Yes! Though, I have a feeling I'm forgetting something about this week :/
Monday, January 4, 2010
Repeating myself over and over...
Feels like it anyway. And I really wish I could come up with a creative title. But sadly, I just can't -_- I wish I would blog about not-sad stuff. But I'm wallowing in self-pity, I suppose. I try not to, but it happens. I'm working on it. Seriously, I'm not just saying that. I'm sure I need help, but I don't know how you could help >_> sooo yeah. You just get to read :P and it's all good :) Knowing someone cares enough to read helps. Yep...
My brain feels all jumbled. Music playing all day long. Even when the radio isn't on, when the iPod isn't on. Some songs are stuck on repeat.
I don't want to keep listening to the same songs over and over. But I do anyway.
I've tried to listen to other songs, happier ones, but it was futile. I would just go back to listening to the not-so-happy songs.
"Stop This Song (Lovesick Melody)" by Paramore
"Doesn't Remind Me" by Audioslave
"Stuck On You" by Paramore
"Rain" by Breaking Benjamin
"Crying" by Sugarcult
"Always" by Saliva
"Pray Forgive Me These Mistakes" by Sherwood
"For The Longest Time" by Sherwood
"Save Me" by Unwritten Law
"Perfect" by Simple Plan
"When I'm Gone" by Simple Plan
"Bury My Head" by Kate Walsh
"Car Underwater" by Armor For Sleep
"Adam's Song" by Blink 182
"Doin' Just Fine" by Magnetic North
I can't even relate to half of these songs, but they just fit my mood -_-
I should go drive alone. As I've said before, when I'm driving alone, I just listen to Owl City and Josh Groban. Happy music. Mellow music. Less sad thinking. Or maybe more, but I can stand it then.
You know, I think it's stupid when people argue over the meaning of a song. Especially those songs that may be about love or about God. Regardless of the songwriter's intended meaning, we all give our own discrete meanings to the song when we listen to it. Our own experiences shape our perspective. Our perspective obviously molds our interpretations of things. People need to let it go. Not everyone's going to agree with your interpretation or opinion on everything.
I also feel like some people are just so unsympathetic. The other day, Brother asked me why I kept listening to such sad songs, sad love songs. So emo or whatever. Not like I've gone through anything that bad that I feel the need to listen to these songs.
Well, one, I don't have many songs that fit into my current mood/situation perfectly. Sad love songs come closest, I suppose. Two, if I listened to the other sad songs, would it make a difference? They're still sad. I'm feeling down, so the music fits even if the words don't necessarily do. Three, music is music. Doesn't matter if I'm listening to Simple Plan, 112, or TaeYang. If their song feels like the song to listen to at that point in time, I'm gonna fuckin' listen to it then.
Ah, I'm not angry. Just trying to explain how I'm thinking. I wish I could explain it to the people who don't listen, but I can't. So I'm doing it here.. Sorry.
Hm, I find it ignorant to dislike musicians because their faith as well. Yeah, their faith may influence their music. So what? They're not trying to convert you. Though, if their song is catchy enough, who knows? I listen to Christian-labeled (labeled, as in listeners say so) music: Switchfoot, Sixpence None The Richer, The Fray, Project 86, Anberlin, Underoath, Lifehouse, Cool Hand Luke, Relient K, etc etc. All good music to my ears. I've been dissed for liking them because of their Christian background and all. And you know what? I don't care, as long as people didn't really intend to insult me when they didn't know me.
I dunno. I just don't get it. People don't like a music artist for whatever reason, fine. Why do they feel a need to insult anyone who disagrees? Why do they need to put down the music artist? What does that do really, other than annoy people or put them on the defensive?
Blahdkjfaljffft. I need to stop thinking about such non-happy things -____- This is hard.. I'm not even talking about what I'm really thinking about. Friggin' weaksauce.
Ugh. My head T-T needs to stop going and stopping. Stopping and going. It hurts.
I need to stop complaining. Damn it..
Three weeks have passed since semester ended. Another three until Spring semester starts. Ahh, maan, I can't believe half of my break is already gone. At least it hasn't been completely wasted. I actually kinda can't wait for school to start again. Being home just sucks the life outta me. The most productive I can be at home is when I have to assemble something for Mother or when I blog haha. When school starts, homework will make me feel productive hopefully.
Mm, so in between songs on the radio station in my head, I watched "Turistas" and "Coraline" today.
"Turistas" is somewhat along the same line as "Hostel." Aside from the "Oh shit, that sucks for them" attitude, my sympathy level during the movie was minimal. At most, I could say that I felt scared for the main characters because I thought about how much it would suck if that shit happened to me. Mm hm, and you don't really get to see much of the bad guys. Like you see them, but you don't really learn much about them, except that they don't like gringos. And I have to say the one scene with the surgery was pretty good. Somewhat methodical, I like. All the other scenes that had blood in it were eh... typical action movie stuff with guns and a chase. I was disappointed by that. I thought there would be more disembowelment XP "Turistas" is not a thriller or horror. To me, it's more of an action film with little nudity, a slow plot, and a poorly executed climax haha. 6/10. I wouldn't watch it again unless I just wanted to stare at Melissa George and Olivia Wilde haha. But even then, nah. Though, the water looks amazing :D
"Coraline" was interesting. I remember Madame saying she liked the movie, and so did her grandkids :P I would give it a 7/10. I thought the movie was going to be creepier than it actually was, but it was still good. I couldn't figure out why not everyone on the other side of the door was strictly good or strictly evil. I guess people are still allowed to choose sides in fantasy worlds, hm. And I want to know where the other world came from. Why are the other people the way they are? Does she really want to love a child or what? I don't get it >_> And why is it the mom? Soo many questions. I'm not thinking it through though. And I'm also quite sad about the ending. No one really learns anything. Well, except Coraline, of course. You should never take your family for granted.
Really, you shouldn't take anyone for granted. Yeaah. Maybe I'll expound this thought another time. Hmm.
You know, I like that Blogspot lets you schedule the posting of entries. So convenient sometimes. Mm hmm. Like I've been slowly adding stuff to this entry all day. Scheduled for midnight. I did this so I wouldn't spend several hours on the computer just to write about a bunch of different things and then wanting to edit them. Even though, I ended up not writing about much, I think. And I got to remember things I wanted to write about. Though, I decided not to write about those things :P
And I know. I've been updating about unimportant things. I just don't know what else to blog about, but I want to blog about something, anything, boring things. Even if I don't like that I'm rambling. Ah, rambling. I remember when I could do that in person. Hm. Alas, the audience...
I'll finish that thought some other time... Not that it really matters anyway.
Oh yeah, I totally forgot to mention this in yesterday's blog: When Autumn, Cristina, Harrison, and I were walking back to Autumn's from San Carlos, a black dude on a bicycle stopped us to ask for directions. He was looking for a place that starts with an "H," but he couldn't remember the whole name. So Autumn tried to help him out. She mentioned something about a place that starts with the word "Historical." Then the guy said something like "Oh, I remember the name now. I'm actually looking for a place called Heaven, and I thought I'd ask you three beautiful ladies because y'all must be angels." I smiled, Autumn laughed, and Cristina apparently looked dumbstruck haha. Harrison just stood behind us and stared. The guy rode away on his bike, laughing and saying, "God bless you." After that, we were like, "Who hits on a girl and then says 'God bless you'?" haha Cristina was disappointed that the guy wasn't hot :P
There was also something about "llamas" and "lamas." Had nothing to do with the guy on the bike. It was way before that, when the sun was still out. But it was hilarious >_> Yay for silly misunderstandings.
Yeah, fun memories haha.
My brain feels all jumbled. Music playing all day long. Even when the radio isn't on, when the iPod isn't on. Some songs are stuck on repeat.
I don't want to keep listening to the same songs over and over. But I do anyway.
I've tried to listen to other songs, happier ones, but it was futile. I would just go back to listening to the not-so-happy songs.
"Stop This Song (Lovesick Melody)" by Paramore
"Doesn't Remind Me" by Audioslave
"Stuck On You" by Paramore
"Rain" by Breaking Benjamin
"Crying" by Sugarcult
"Always" by Saliva
"Pray Forgive Me These Mistakes" by Sherwood
"For The Longest Time" by Sherwood
"Save Me" by Unwritten Law
"Perfect" by Simple Plan
"When I'm Gone" by Simple Plan
"Bury My Head" by Kate Walsh
"Car Underwater" by Armor For Sleep
"Adam's Song" by Blink 182
"Doin' Just Fine" by Magnetic North
I can't even relate to half of these songs, but they just fit my mood -_-
I should go drive alone. As I've said before, when I'm driving alone, I just listen to Owl City and Josh Groban. Happy music. Mellow music. Less sad thinking. Or maybe more, but I can stand it then.
You know, I think it's stupid when people argue over the meaning of a song. Especially those songs that may be about love or about God. Regardless of the songwriter's intended meaning, we all give our own discrete meanings to the song when we listen to it. Our own experiences shape our perspective. Our perspective obviously molds our interpretations of things. People need to let it go. Not everyone's going to agree with your interpretation or opinion on everything.
I also feel like some people are just so unsympathetic. The other day, Brother asked me why I kept listening to such sad songs, sad love songs. So emo or whatever. Not like I've gone through anything that bad that I feel the need to listen to these songs.
Well, one, I don't have many songs that fit into my current mood/situation perfectly. Sad love songs come closest, I suppose. Two, if I listened to the other sad songs, would it make a difference? They're still sad. I'm feeling down, so the music fits even if the words don't necessarily do. Three, music is music. Doesn't matter if I'm listening to Simple Plan, 112, or TaeYang. If their song feels like the song to listen to at that point in time, I'm gonna fuckin' listen to it then.
Ah, I'm not angry. Just trying to explain how I'm thinking. I wish I could explain it to the people who don't listen, but I can't. So I'm doing it here.. Sorry.
Hm, I find it ignorant to dislike musicians because their faith as well. Yeah, their faith may influence their music. So what? They're not trying to convert you. Though, if their song is catchy enough, who knows? I listen to Christian-labeled (labeled, as in listeners say so) music: Switchfoot, Sixpence None The Richer, The Fray, Project 86, Anberlin, Underoath, Lifehouse, Cool Hand Luke, Relient K, etc etc. All good music to my ears. I've been dissed for liking them because of their Christian background and all. And you know what? I don't care, as long as people didn't really intend to insult me when they didn't know me.
I dunno. I just don't get it. People don't like a music artist for whatever reason, fine. Why do they feel a need to insult anyone who disagrees? Why do they need to put down the music artist? What does that do really, other than annoy people or put them on the defensive?
Blahdkjfaljffft. I need to stop thinking about such non-happy things -____- This is hard.. I'm not even talking about what I'm really thinking about. Friggin' weaksauce.
Ugh. My head T-T needs to stop going and stopping. Stopping and going. It hurts.
I need to stop complaining. Damn it..
Three weeks have passed since semester ended. Another three until Spring semester starts. Ahh, maan, I can't believe half of my break is already gone. At least it hasn't been completely wasted. I actually kinda can't wait for school to start again. Being home just sucks the life outta me. The most productive I can be at home is when I have to assemble something for Mother or when I blog haha. When school starts, homework will make me feel productive hopefully.
Mm, so in between songs on the radio station in my head, I watched "Turistas" and "Coraline" today.
"Turistas" is somewhat along the same line as "Hostel." Aside from the "Oh shit, that sucks for them" attitude, my sympathy level during the movie was minimal. At most, I could say that I felt scared for the main characters because I thought about how much it would suck if that shit happened to me. Mm hm, and you don't really get to see much of the bad guys. Like you see them, but you don't really learn much about them, except that they don't like gringos. And I have to say the one scene with the surgery was pretty good. Somewhat methodical, I like. All the other scenes that had blood in it were eh... typical action movie stuff with guns and a chase. I was disappointed by that. I thought there would be more disembowelment XP "Turistas" is not a thriller or horror. To me, it's more of an action film with little nudity, a slow plot, and a poorly executed climax haha. 6/10. I wouldn't watch it again unless I just wanted to stare at Melissa George and Olivia Wilde haha. But even then, nah. Though, the water looks amazing :D
"Coraline" was interesting. I remember Madame saying she liked the movie, and so did her grandkids :P I would give it a 7/10. I thought the movie was going to be creepier than it actually was, but it was still good. I couldn't figure out why not everyone on the other side of the door was strictly good or strictly evil. I guess people are still allowed to choose sides in fantasy worlds, hm. And I want to know where the other world came from. Why are the other people the way they are? Does she really want to love a child or what? I don't get it >_> And why is it the mom? Soo many questions. I'm not thinking it through though. And I'm also quite sad about the ending. No one really learns anything. Well, except Coraline, of course. You should never take your family for granted.
Really, you shouldn't take anyone for granted. Yeaah. Maybe I'll expound this thought another time. Hmm.
You know, I like that Blogspot lets you schedule the posting of entries. So convenient sometimes. Mm hmm. Like I've been slowly adding stuff to this entry all day. Scheduled for midnight. I did this so I wouldn't spend several hours on the computer just to write about a bunch of different things and then wanting to edit them. Even though, I ended up not writing about much, I think. And I got to remember things I wanted to write about. Though, I decided not to write about those things :P
And I know. I've been updating about unimportant things. I just don't know what else to blog about, but I want to blog about something, anything, boring things. Even if I don't like that I'm rambling. Ah, rambling. I remember when I could do that in person. Hm. Alas, the audience...
I'll finish that thought some other time... Not that it really matters anyway.
Oh yeah, I totally forgot to mention this in yesterday's blog: When Autumn, Cristina, Harrison, and I were walking back to Autumn's from San Carlos, a black dude on a bicycle stopped us to ask for directions. He was looking for a place that starts with an "H," but he couldn't remember the whole name. So Autumn tried to help him out. She mentioned something about a place that starts with the word "Historical." Then the guy said something like "Oh, I remember the name now. I'm actually looking for a place called Heaven, and I thought I'd ask you three beautiful ladies because y'all must be angels." I smiled, Autumn laughed, and Cristina apparently looked dumbstruck haha. Harrison just stood behind us and stared. The guy rode away on his bike, laughing and saying, "God bless you." After that, we were like, "Who hits on a girl and then says 'God bless you'?" haha Cristina was disappointed that the guy wasn't hot :P
There was also something about "llamas" and "lamas." Had nothing to do with the guy on the bike. It was way before that, when the sun was still out. But it was hilarious >_> Yay for silly misunderstandings.
Yeah, fun memories haha.
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