Just for you, Shiva.
Today, as we were walking to the parking garage near Tangerine Salon, Shiva said, "My girl." I immediately thought of the karaoke session from yesterday.
Then I started to sing
I guess you'd say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl...
My girl...
My girl...
Haha I was skipping/dancing, shaking my head, and moving my arms to the imaginary beat. Shiva wished she had her camera <_<
Anyway, the first day of semester was eh -shrug- One class. Social Change. The rest of the day, Shiva and I walked around campus so she could talk to the people in charge about her class that was dropped two days before school started. Turned out the instructor canceled the class herself because she couldn't teach it at the scheduled time.
Reading over all my green sheets for the semester, I feel extremely overwhelmed. I hope it's just my normal beginning-of-the-semester worries, and I'll get the hang of all five classes soon. Gonna add Global Society tomorrow. Pay $25 because adding classes after instruction starts means a late fee -_-
Anyway, yeah, not too much to say. Took a nice nap today XP
I hope we're all gonna be ok this semester. Seems quite a few people are trying to graduate this spring. Also seems like many of us are taking more units than usual.
I'm feeling really unfocused. I'm not ready for school. Again ;-;
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Brother is free...
So Brother is out of jail now. Can you believe five months have passed already since he went in?
Been spending the past three days at Shiva's. Harrison came over Friday night. Pizza and Tekken 5. I was excited when I defeated Shiva in a match XD Finally...
Anyway, this past week has been pretty good. Lots of talking and meaningful exchanges of thoughts between Shiva and me >_> haha. More to come, I hope.
So Saturday night, Mother and D came by campus to pick me up around 21h00. Drove to the Elmwood Facility. Signed in and left. Waited in a McDonald's parking lot for a while. Came back to the jail at 23h00. Went inside, sat, waited, and talked. Mother was impatient. I was making the time pass by talking to D.
At midnight, everyone in the waiting area turned around from their seats to watch the inmates walk out in their everyday clothes. I saw a bunch of strangers waving through the windows. When Brother walked out and got his wrist tag clipped, I was shocked. He had waved through the window, but none of recognized him. As he walked out, wearing a red dress shirt and carrying a plastic bag of books, I barely recognized him. His face and body were rounder than I remember, and his hair was much longer than I'm used to seeing XD haha I laughed. I couldn't stop.
In the car ride home, he explained that he worked with the kitchen crew, so he could eat more than everyone else. He also worked out every day (up to 500 push-ups in an hour).
It's just strange to see him now. I've never seen him this round before XD It's a new sight, and I don't know how long it will stay. Don't know if his clothes will fit him very well either XD
I told him we should take a picture of him to remember this, before he gets a haircut and stuff.
It's just so weird :P
Anyway, I'm happy that he's out of jail. I'm hoping that it will stay that way. We'll see.
But yeah, just wanted to let you know he's out, hopefully making a good change in his life. Heh, maybe he'll get to meet Shiva soon XD
Hm, I'm gonna have to drive him around on Monday and maybe Tuesday, so he can get stuff done. So fun <_<
Other than that, I don't have much else to share. School starts on Wednesday -_- I don't feel ready for it, but oh well... Can't change it.
I hope all is well with you.
Been spending the past three days at Shiva's. Harrison came over Friday night. Pizza and Tekken 5. I was excited when I defeated Shiva in a match XD Finally...
Anyway, this past week has been pretty good. Lots of talking and meaningful exchanges of thoughts between Shiva and me >_> haha. More to come, I hope.
So Saturday night, Mother and D came by campus to pick me up around 21h00. Drove to the Elmwood Facility. Signed in and left. Waited in a McDonald's parking lot for a while. Came back to the jail at 23h00. Went inside, sat, waited, and talked. Mother was impatient. I was making the time pass by talking to D.
At midnight, everyone in the waiting area turned around from their seats to watch the inmates walk out in their everyday clothes. I saw a bunch of strangers waving through the windows. When Brother walked out and got his wrist tag clipped, I was shocked. He had waved through the window, but none of recognized him. As he walked out, wearing a red dress shirt and carrying a plastic bag of books, I barely recognized him. His face and body were rounder than I remember, and his hair was much longer than I'm used to seeing XD haha I laughed. I couldn't stop.
In the car ride home, he explained that he worked with the kitchen crew, so he could eat more than everyone else. He also worked out every day (up to 500 push-ups in an hour).
It's just strange to see him now. I've never seen him this round before XD It's a new sight, and I don't know how long it will stay. Don't know if his clothes will fit him very well either XD
I told him we should take a picture of him to remember this, before he gets a haircut and stuff.
It's just so weird :P
Anyway, I'm happy that he's out of jail. I'm hoping that it will stay that way. We'll see.
But yeah, just wanted to let you know he's out, hopefully making a good change in his life. Heh, maybe he'll get to meet Shiva soon XD
Hm, I'm gonna have to drive him around on Monday and maybe Tuesday, so he can get stuff done. So fun <_<
Other than that, I don't have much else to share. School starts on Wednesday -_- I don't feel ready for it, but oh well... Can't change it.
I hope all is well with you.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Bastardization of a Bastardization...
So today, when I was on the light rail, going home from campus at about 18h00, I was standing, listening to my music and staring out the windows. Two guys, one white and the other Hispanic, had gotten on the light rail at the same time I did. They were probably in their 20's. The white guy, wearing a black and white bandanna, was sitting at the three-seated wheelchair-access area, and the Hispanic guy, wearing a polo shirt that was too big for him, was standing. They were talking to each other really loudly, so much so that I could hear them through my music. It was like they're talking for everyone around them to hear.
As I made a mental note of how loudly they were speaking, despite not actually listening to their words, I saw a black gentleman, maybe in his late 30's or early 40's, who was wearing gloves and had been sitting near the two guys, stand up from his seat. He turned around and said, "Would you stop using that word?" The guys stared at him in disbelief.
At this point, I paused my music to listen. (Note: Obviously, I'm not gonna get all the words correct from the event, but most of the important words were used. H is the Hispanic male, and B is the black male.)
H: "What word?"
B: "That word you keep throwing around. 'Nigga.' It's disrespectful."
H: "Man, I wasn't talking to you. Mind your own business. It's a free country. I can say whatever I want."
B: "But it's a disrespectful word. You shouldn't be saying it."
H: "But I'm not saying 'nig-GER.' I'm saying 'nig-GA.' They're different! You shouldn't be fucking offended! I said 'nigga,' not 'nigger.' Besides, you shouldn't be listening to other people's conversations!"
B: "It doesn't matter how you say it. It's disrespectful! And I asked you to stop saying that word!"
H: "Uh huh. You know, black people say 'nigga' all the time! You probably don't think that's wrong!"
B: "No. It doesn't matter what shade of skin you have. It's a disrespectful word! You should educate yourself!"
H: "Yeah, well, it's a free country! I can say whatever the fuck I want! You can't stop me!"
At this point, I was just listening, not really thinking anything of the argument. But I was afraid a fight might break out because the black gentleman asked them to escort themselves out at the next stop. But the guys said, "What the fuck? Hell naw." The gentleman continued to say, "Let's take this outside!" But the guys didn't budge. The white guy even said, "Go fuck yourself! I don't gotta get off at the next stop. You get off." The gentleman's response: "What did you say? All right! Step outside! Step outside!" He even stood in the doorway as the doors closed, waiting for the other two to get off. But they didn't, so he stepped back in.
As they continued arguing, a light rail security officer stepped on. The males were still arguing, and the gentleman then told the officer what happened, hoping the officer could make the two guys stop saying "nigga." The guys yelled at the gentleman, continuing to say, "Oh, shut up! It's a free country, man!" After some more arguing, the officer, who was also black, asked the black gentleman to step away and walk to the other end of the car. So the gentleman picked up his stuff and went to stand next to me. As he was walking over, he yelled back, "Ignorant idiots!"
With the distance between them, there was less yelling but still a few back-and-forth's. The gentleman talked to another light rail rider, who agreed that the other two were ignorant and disrespectful. Meanwhile, the white guy just sat there, smiling in disbelief, and the Hispanic guy was glaring at the black gentleman. The Hispanic even started talking to a girl who was standing near him, asking her what she thought about him saying "nigga." She agreed with him, saying, "Well, as long as you weren't saying it in a bad way. Like, how did you say it? Did you say it the bad way?" He replied, "No! I said, 'Nigga!' This asshole's just making a big deal out of it."
Finally, we got to the stop that the two guys were getting off at. They got off, as well as the security officer who had been on his walkie-talkie since the gentleman complained to him. As the two passed by the door closest to me and the gentleman, the Hispanic guy turned his head, glared at the gentleman, and yelled loudly, "Nigger!"
We all stopped in shock. I noticed the security guard following them, talking on his walkie-talkie. The gentleman yelled back, "Oh, come back in here and say that to my face!" Of course, no one came back in. He then said, "Look at that. He didn't dare say that when he was in here with me. But now that he's walking away, he thinks he can say that to me."
One of the other riders, a white male in his 20's, commented on the Hispanic guy's racial epithet: "Oh, hell no. Hell no! That's fucked up. I can't believe he said that. Fuck him. Man, you totally have my support. I mean if he had tried to start something, I would have been on your side." The black gentleman thanked him for that and sat down, still angry about what had just happened...
I just stared out the windows again.
Sorry for the lacking descriptors. The individual items (bandanna, shirt, and gloves) were the only things I really noticed on the three males. There were also many more expletives than I used in my retelling of the event, but I think it suffices. And the reason why I call the black man a gentleman is, though he was angry and was raising his voice, he didn't swear, act all haughty, or call anyone names other than "ignorant idiots," which I hardly find offensive (maybe just insulting to a person's intelligence). He was much calmer too. The other two really were disrespectful and vulgar in their language.
At first, I agreed with both parties. I agreed that it would be disrespectful of anyone to say, "Nigga," if someone stated that they found it disrespectful. And I kinda agreed with the Hispanic guy. First Amendment and stuff <_< Though I didn't like him saying any variation of "nigger," I thought he had the right to say it. But I also thought it would have been a nice gesture to stop saying the word too, at least around the gentleman. But when the Hispanic guy yelled "Nigger!" I just thought, "Well, fuck him. He just threw away support he might have gotten from anyone."
So, I tend to not care too much about racism, or just prejudice in general. It mostly doesn't affect me. Until I start thinking about all the different kinds of friends I have. But usually, stuff like that doesn't faze me too much.
This was also the first time I had ever witnessed a heated argument relating to race. Usually, I just see it in movies, TV shows, or some kinda media. This, however, was right in my face. And, like I said, I was afraid a fight might break out. So I got my pepper spray from my backpack, just in case a fight got started and it got too close to me or something >_>; Scary.
But yeah, no one got hurt. Just a lot of bad language and inconsiderateness.
The title of my entry was just something I was thinking after the argument ended. Bastardization of language. One word is a bastardized form of a word from another language. And the other word is just a bastardized form of the word that's already bastardized O_O But the latter is also debatable. Some people don't think so; "nigga" is just people's chance to take back the power of the word -shrug- I dunno.
I don't think it works too well.
As I made a mental note of how loudly they were speaking, despite not actually listening to their words, I saw a black gentleman, maybe in his late 30's or early 40's, who was wearing gloves and had been sitting near the two guys, stand up from his seat. He turned around and said, "Would you stop using that word?" The guys stared at him in disbelief.
At this point, I paused my music to listen. (Note: Obviously, I'm not gonna get all the words correct from the event, but most of the important words were used. H is the Hispanic male, and B is the black male.)
H: "What word?"
B: "That word you keep throwing around. 'Nigga.' It's disrespectful."
H: "Man, I wasn't talking to you. Mind your own business. It's a free country. I can say whatever I want."
B: "But it's a disrespectful word. You shouldn't be saying it."
H: "But I'm not saying 'nig-GER.' I'm saying 'nig-GA.' They're different! You shouldn't be fucking offended! I said 'nigga,' not 'nigger.' Besides, you shouldn't be listening to other people's conversations!"
B: "It doesn't matter how you say it. It's disrespectful! And I asked you to stop saying that word!"
H: "Uh huh. You know, black people say 'nigga' all the time! You probably don't think that's wrong!"
B: "No. It doesn't matter what shade of skin you have. It's a disrespectful word! You should educate yourself!"
H: "Yeah, well, it's a free country! I can say whatever the fuck I want! You can't stop me!"
At this point, I was just listening, not really thinking anything of the argument. But I was afraid a fight might break out because the black gentleman asked them to escort themselves out at the next stop. But the guys said, "What the fuck? Hell naw." The gentleman continued to say, "Let's take this outside!" But the guys didn't budge. The white guy even said, "Go fuck yourself! I don't gotta get off at the next stop. You get off." The gentleman's response: "What did you say? All right! Step outside! Step outside!" He even stood in the doorway as the doors closed, waiting for the other two to get off. But they didn't, so he stepped back in.
As they continued arguing, a light rail security officer stepped on. The males were still arguing, and the gentleman then told the officer what happened, hoping the officer could make the two guys stop saying "nigga." The guys yelled at the gentleman, continuing to say, "Oh, shut up! It's a free country, man!" After some more arguing, the officer, who was also black, asked the black gentleman to step away and walk to the other end of the car. So the gentleman picked up his stuff and went to stand next to me. As he was walking over, he yelled back, "Ignorant idiots!"
With the distance between them, there was less yelling but still a few back-and-forth's. The gentleman talked to another light rail rider, who agreed that the other two were ignorant and disrespectful. Meanwhile, the white guy just sat there, smiling in disbelief, and the Hispanic guy was glaring at the black gentleman. The Hispanic even started talking to a girl who was standing near him, asking her what she thought about him saying "nigga." She agreed with him, saying, "Well, as long as you weren't saying it in a bad way. Like, how did you say it? Did you say it the bad way?" He replied, "No! I said, 'Nigga!' This asshole's just making a big deal out of it."
Finally, we got to the stop that the two guys were getting off at. They got off, as well as the security officer who had been on his walkie-talkie since the gentleman complained to him. As the two passed by the door closest to me and the gentleman, the Hispanic guy turned his head, glared at the gentleman, and yelled loudly, "Nigger!"
We all stopped in shock. I noticed the security guard following them, talking on his walkie-talkie. The gentleman yelled back, "Oh, come back in here and say that to my face!" Of course, no one came back in. He then said, "Look at that. He didn't dare say that when he was in here with me. But now that he's walking away, he thinks he can say that to me."
One of the other riders, a white male in his 20's, commented on the Hispanic guy's racial epithet: "Oh, hell no. Hell no! That's fucked up. I can't believe he said that. Fuck him. Man, you totally have my support. I mean if he had tried to start something, I would have been on your side." The black gentleman thanked him for that and sat down, still angry about what had just happened...
I just stared out the windows again.
Sorry for the lacking descriptors. The individual items (bandanna, shirt, and gloves) were the only things I really noticed on the three males. There were also many more expletives than I used in my retelling of the event, but I think it suffices. And the reason why I call the black man a gentleman is, though he was angry and was raising his voice, he didn't swear, act all haughty, or call anyone names other than "ignorant idiots," which I hardly find offensive (maybe just insulting to a person's intelligence). He was much calmer too. The other two really were disrespectful and vulgar in their language.
At first, I agreed with both parties. I agreed that it would be disrespectful of anyone to say, "Nigga," if someone stated that they found it disrespectful. And I kinda agreed with the Hispanic guy. First Amendment and stuff <_< Though I didn't like him saying any variation of "nigger," I thought he had the right to say it. But I also thought it would have been a nice gesture to stop saying the word too, at least around the gentleman. But when the Hispanic guy yelled "Nigger!" I just thought, "Well, fuck him. He just threw away support he might have gotten from anyone."
So, I tend to not care too much about racism, or just prejudice in general. It mostly doesn't affect me. Until I start thinking about all the different kinds of friends I have. But usually, stuff like that doesn't faze me too much.
This was also the first time I had ever witnessed a heated argument relating to race. Usually, I just see it in movies, TV shows, or some kinda media. This, however, was right in my face. And, like I said, I was afraid a fight might break out. So I got my pepper spray from my backpack, just in case a fight got started and it got too close to me or something >_>; Scary.
But yeah, no one got hurt. Just a lot of bad language and inconsiderateness.
The title of my entry was just something I was thinking after the argument ended. Bastardization of language. One word is a bastardized form of a word from another language. And the other word is just a bastardized form of the word that's already bastardized O_O But the latter is also debatable. Some people don't think so; "nigga" is just people's chance to take back the power of the word -shrug- I dunno.
I don't think it works too well.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Role Conflicts and Defining Moments?
I've been so sad. No minutes on my phone until the 19th, except for nights, weekends, and mobile-to-mobile T-T The last minute was used on like the 4th haha.
Anyway, this past weekend has been full of ups and downs. Mostly ups. Or at least I focused on the ups as best I could.
Friday, the plan had been to go eat a late dinner and karaoke with Kat, Ariane, Andrew, and Shiva. Though, I wasn't able to tell Shiva that dinner had been pushed back from 17h30 to 21h00, until she came back from Santa Cruz and could use her cell phone; so she didn't eat anything after noon, thinking that dinner would be at 17h30. Other than that, there were no hitches as of 16h00. Mother had been ok with my plan. Everything was supposed to work out fine.
Then there was a minor hitch with rides. Shiva couldn't be picked up from campus as I had originally thought. The suggestion was that she should light rail to south San Jose, and Ariane would drive all of us to Santa Clara for dinner and karaoke. But Shiva hadn't gotten enough sleep the night before; though she took a nap, neither Shiva nor I wanted her going on the light rail. So I figured I could borrow Mother's car and drive Shiva back to my house; maybe I could even drive her to dinner. I called Mother to ask, and she said it was ok. I just had to wait for her to come home.
Things were looking good. Then Mother came home. I asked her about the car, and she got annoyed, mad at me for going to dinner and karaoke so late. I don't know why; I've done it before with pretty much the same people, and she was fine with it then. And she also knew that dinner was going to be late. I don't know why she got mad at me. Then she said she would drive me to pick up Shiva, instead of letting me drive. "You shouldn't drive at night. You'll crash!" Why are we back to this? -_- I've driven at night before.
Mother also wanted to go to Costco after picking up Shiva. But I realized, at that point in time, if she drove to campus, then back home, and then to Costco, it would have wasted gas and she might not have gotten to Costco by the time it closed. And just saying, in my house, Mother wanting to go to Costco is just as important as me wanting to go out with my friends.
I told Shiva about how the whole driving thing seemed to be working out. She didn't want to inconvenience my friends or Mother, so she offered to not join my friends and me D: I couldn't have that, especially if she hadn't eaten because she had planned to eat with us. She had things to tell me, but she insisted it was fine if I went with my friends. We kinda talked it out. I figured I only had a few options, none of which I really liked: I get Mother to drive, we'll waste gas, and she probably won't get to Costco; I eat with friends, and Shiva does not join us; or I eat with Shiva, and I won't see my friends. Or I could have stayed home and not see anyone. But that last one, I really didn't like.
A few other personal issues came up, that I had to take into consideration. And Mother was not getting any happier by the minute >_<
So I decided I would go eat with my friends and see Shiva the next day.
But my decision bothered me. I started thinking:
If Shiva's not coming with me, none of her roommates are home, and she doesn't have any food in the apartment, then she'll eat alone ): My friends, on the other hand, will still have each other to eat with, if I don't go. But I realize I've been the one telling Kat that we should hang out >_< But Shiva hasn't eaten anything for more than six hours because of me.
I changed my mind. I was going to see Shiva. I care about my friends, and I want to hang out with them. But Shiva's going to be alone. Even though she said she would be ok, I was worried anyway. I wanted to see her Friday to make sure she was all right and to see if her retreat had been good because she had been worried about it before.
So yeah, I changed my mind. Mother was happy. I wasn't going out of the city. I wasn't going to come home after midnight. I was gonna be somewhere safe, somewhere I've gone often. She had preferred that I sleep over at Shiva's on campus rather than go to another city to eat and sing. It made Mother happier, and it also meant I wouldn't come home and disturb her sleep because she has a difficult time getting to sleep late. And I can't get into the house without waking her up because she uses the door latch at night -_- Anyway, yeah. She rushed me out of the house as soon as I said, "I'll go to campus and stay there, so you won't have to drive back and forth twice."
On the drive to campus, I texted Kat and Ariane, telling them that Shiva and I weren't going anymore. Tried to explain why in 160 characters or less, which wasn't easy. Ariane seemed frustrated or angry in her replies >_< She said that it would be ok to drive Shiva if we pitched in gas money, but at this point I was already at campus and lost the mood to karaoke. Kat offered to switch from singing karaoke to watching a movie in theaters in San Jose. Shiva and I were fine with it if we could get a ride, since we were both on campus at this point, heading to Tandoori Oven to eat. But I received no more replies after 20h40, so I figured they all decided to go without us and/or they were mad/upset at me for ditching them or leaving already <_<
I felt bad. But when I had initially decided to go eat with my friends, I was feeling worse that Shiva would be by herself. And I thought, "If I'm gonna be with my friends and thinking about Shiva eating alone or not at all, I'm gonna be worried all night, and I don't know how much fun I'll have."
And honestly, this was an afterthought that occurred when I was trying to go to sleep Friday night: I want to spend as much time with Shiva as I can these next four or so months. Because after she graduates in May, I have no idea when I will actually get to hold her again. We'll probably end up in a long-distance relationship, and I just wanna see her when I can and make our moments together last as long as possible....
So Kat, Ariane, and Andrew, I don't know if you read this, but I'm sorry for bailing on you at the last minute. Sorry, Kat, since it was my last chance to see you before you went back to Harvard. It was messed up on my part 'cause I said I'd go and then I didn't. I hope you don't think I didn't hang out with you just because she's my girlfriend. That wasn't it. I really did try to think this through and find what all the pros and cons were for all the decisions. In the end, I figured that it would be better if everyone was with someone, even if it wasn't with everyone they had wanted. Yeah, I probably could have done things better, but I didn't. Sorry if it upset you, but I made my decision to go. I don't regret it. And I hope you guys had fun that night without me.
So yeah, I hung out with Shiva. We talked. She shared a lil bit about what happened at Leadership Today, the retreat she went on. The first thing she told me about, how she introduced the topic made me stop and sweat a little because I thought someone had gotten seriously injured and she mentioned a name of a professor I know. But what had happened was not as tragic but still really terrible. And it had impacted Shiva greatly, as did the rest of the retreat...
Before she shared more about LT, we went to eat at The Tandoori Oven. Saag paneer and cholay bhature (looked it up on their website just now). Definitely can't read or pronounce any of that well, but that's ok XD Tasty. Took some of both home.
The rest of the night, because I hadn't received any more texts, I was worried that my friends were angry at me ;-; especially since I've never had this kinda conflict before and stuff. Shiva was worried that my friends would dislike her because they'd think she took me away from them (Same thing's happened to her in regard to me. I'm still not that well-liked, I guess heh <_<;). I assured her that if that's what they thought, I would tell them the truth that I had decided on my own without any influence from her. I had even initially told her that I was gonna eat with my friends. But anyway, I tried to reassure Shiva that my friends wouldn't dislike her for Friday because she wasn't the one who decided what I was going to do.
After that, we just laid in bed and talked. Or mostly Shiva did. LT was good for her :) I'm so glad. She had been worried about it, but it turned out to be "life-inspiring" as she put it. I was really happy to hear it.
And I'm just gonna say that the conversation in her room that night, along with all our other conversations during the night, made my night better :3 I was surprised and confused XD I didn't know what to say or think. I was just like O_O I'm still not sure haha XD Kinda. I dunno. I don't think I'm thinking enough haha. Wasn't sure what to think. But I know I was happy :)
Went to sleep pretty early. But I woke up soon after, thinking and worrying. I didn't get much sleep >_> Was thinking about how to apologize and stuff like that. But eventually I realized all I could apologize for was the not showing up when I said I would. No apologizing for not leaving Shiva to be by herself. No apologizing for all the good stuff that happened Friday night. I can't explain the good things, but it just made me really happy.
Saturday, we woke up kinda early. Shiva had planned to go with Michelle W to the mall because Michelle wanted someone to accompany her as she got a naval piercing. Shiva wanted me to stay in her room to sleep -_- Instead, I tagged along.
Michelle drove us to Valley Fair. Went to the body piercing shop, Body Jewelz, I think. Checked out the piercings and stuff. Then when Michelle got her piercing, Shiva and I recorded it and her reaction on two cameras XD So funny. The guy who did the piercing was nice and funny, making fun of us XP We know the three of us don't look older than 18 haha.
After the piercing, Shiva and I bought a caramel pecanbon from Cinnabon. Tasty, but so unhealthy. Michelle drove us back to campus. Shiva and I spent the rest of the day in her dorm. For some reason, the order of the things we did isn't in my head o_o;
I remember watching "Iron Man 2." It wasn't very good. The plot wasn't all that interesting. The final fight scene was so quick. I was hoping it would redeem some of the movie, but it didn't. The main villain wasn't very convincing either. I dunno. The movie was off, didn't enjoy it as much as I enjoyed the first movie.
I also remember eating leftover cholay bhature. The frame of my glasses broke. Shiva fixed it with tape <_< so I look more like a geek now (When I went home on Sunday, I actually re-taped it. So I probably look a little geekier). Shiva talked about LT some more. Sadly, I can't remember what else we did Saturday other than talk and stuff.
Sunday, we were awoken by a early morning phone call from Shiva's aunt. Learned that Shiva's paternal grandfather had died. Her aunt was trying to reach Shiva's dad. I couldn't do anything but hold Shiva. I didn't know what to say. I haven't experienced the death of someone close to me, unless you count Earl. But anyway, yeah, we were awake then. Shiva talked about her grandfather. I listened, hoping I knew what I could say. Nothing really came out.
I fell back to sleep, and Shiva left the room. I woke an hour later, and Shiva wasn't back. So I walked out to the living room, and she was there, using her computer. I sat with her. We looked at textbook prices. She's got 11 books she needs for her classes next semester. So fun <_<
Watched "The Kids Are All Right." Not what we expected. Much more sex than we liked. Thought the movie would be more family-focused, but no. The only character Shiva and I felt sympathy for was Nic. But other than that, we thought the characters were underdeveloped. I think the ending was a quick, "happy" ending. Closure, but not real closure.
After the movie, we took a bus to Safeway, since Shiva had almost no food in her kitchen. Earlier, I had called Mother to ask her to pick us up from Safeway. I told her it would take at least an hour and a half in Safeway for us to get stuff, but she misunderstood me. So while Shiva and I were in Safeway, Mother and D came an hour early. Mother kept calling me, asking if we were done. We were not. She was getting frustrated. So I had to cut the grocery shopping short. Mother came into the store to look for us too -_- Went and paid for everything. Went out to the car. D was driving because Mother didn't know the area. Drove back to campus. Helped Shiva carry all the stuff back up. Then left.
In the car, Mother just yelled at me for helping my friends too much. "Why are you so good to your friends? One day, they're going to turn on you. They won't help you when you really need them to. They haven't helped you with anything. How could you ignore our family and help your friends? Don't you care about us? You're just gonna ignore us and let our house be destroyed." She said things like this, among other negative things I care not to mention. While she's spilling all this babble, I was just thinking, "Well, when I do help you, all you do is get mad at me for not doing it all the time or not doing it correctly. Then you yell at me to stop and you do it yourself. So what am I supposed to do? I'm supposed to just stick around, do things for you while you talk about how lazy, unhelpful, or ungrateful I am, and be happy about how much good I'm doing for the family?"
I know I'm probably in the wrong for some of the things I do. But being angry and yelling at me all the time isn't gonna help me make 'better' decisions. It just makes me wish other things would happen..
I know I probably focused more on the negative stuff. But trust me, there were a lot of positives this weekend. I just can't help but feel like the good stuff that happen to me tend to end in negative crap.
There were good times this weekend. Little to no worries. I can't explain how things were good. I'm so bad with words haha. But the conversations, the words, were unexpected but really good.
Oh haha, Shiva's been trying to convince me that I should go to Leadership Today next year. I'll think about it. I had kinda wanted to go to this year's retreat, but the timing just didn't work out. Hopefully, next year's timing will be better. I wouldn't mind being inspired, you know. But who knows if I will be? I have a hard time believing in inspiration.
But anyway, yeah, that was my weekend. Kinda. Ups and downs. Trying to focus on the ups, but the downs have weight.
Not sure what I mean by my title anymore haha. Just something from inside my head... There are no explanations there right now haha.
Anyway, this past weekend has been full of ups and downs. Mostly ups. Or at least I focused on the ups as best I could.
Friday, the plan had been to go eat a late dinner and karaoke with Kat, Ariane, Andrew, and Shiva. Though, I wasn't able to tell Shiva that dinner had been pushed back from 17h30 to 21h00, until she came back from Santa Cruz and could use her cell phone; so she didn't eat anything after noon, thinking that dinner would be at 17h30. Other than that, there were no hitches as of 16h00. Mother had been ok with my plan. Everything was supposed to work out fine.
Then there was a minor hitch with rides. Shiva couldn't be picked up from campus as I had originally thought. The suggestion was that she should light rail to south San Jose, and Ariane would drive all of us to Santa Clara for dinner and karaoke. But Shiva hadn't gotten enough sleep the night before; though she took a nap, neither Shiva nor I wanted her going on the light rail. So I figured I could borrow Mother's car and drive Shiva back to my house; maybe I could even drive her to dinner. I called Mother to ask, and she said it was ok. I just had to wait for her to come home.
Things were looking good. Then Mother came home. I asked her about the car, and she got annoyed, mad at me for going to dinner and karaoke so late. I don't know why; I've done it before with pretty much the same people, and she was fine with it then. And she also knew that dinner was going to be late. I don't know why she got mad at me. Then she said she would drive me to pick up Shiva, instead of letting me drive. "You shouldn't drive at night. You'll crash!" Why are we back to this? -_- I've driven at night before.
Mother also wanted to go to Costco after picking up Shiva. But I realized, at that point in time, if she drove to campus, then back home, and then to Costco, it would have wasted gas and she might not have gotten to Costco by the time it closed. And just saying, in my house, Mother wanting to go to Costco is just as important as me wanting to go out with my friends.
I told Shiva about how the whole driving thing seemed to be working out. She didn't want to inconvenience my friends or Mother, so she offered to not join my friends and me D: I couldn't have that, especially if she hadn't eaten because she had planned to eat with us. She had things to tell me, but she insisted it was fine if I went with my friends. We kinda talked it out. I figured I only had a few options, none of which I really liked: I get Mother to drive, we'll waste gas, and she probably won't get to Costco; I eat with friends, and Shiva does not join us; or I eat with Shiva, and I won't see my friends. Or I could have stayed home and not see anyone. But that last one, I really didn't like.
A few other personal issues came up, that I had to take into consideration. And Mother was not getting any happier by the minute >_<
So I decided I would go eat with my friends and see Shiva the next day.
But my decision bothered me. I started thinking:
If Shiva's not coming with me, none of her roommates are home, and she doesn't have any food in the apartment, then she'll eat alone ): My friends, on the other hand, will still have each other to eat with, if I don't go. But I realize I've been the one telling Kat that we should hang out >_< But Shiva hasn't eaten anything for more than six hours because of me.
I changed my mind. I was going to see Shiva. I care about my friends, and I want to hang out with them. But Shiva's going to be alone. Even though she said she would be ok, I was worried anyway. I wanted to see her Friday to make sure she was all right and to see if her retreat had been good because she had been worried about it before.
So yeah, I changed my mind. Mother was happy. I wasn't going out of the city. I wasn't going to come home after midnight. I was gonna be somewhere safe, somewhere I've gone often. She had preferred that I sleep over at Shiva's on campus rather than go to another city to eat and sing. It made Mother happier, and it also meant I wouldn't come home and disturb her sleep because she has a difficult time getting to sleep late. And I can't get into the house without waking her up because she uses the door latch at night -_- Anyway, yeah. She rushed me out of the house as soon as I said, "I'll go to campus and stay there, so you won't have to drive back and forth twice."
On the drive to campus, I texted Kat and Ariane, telling them that Shiva and I weren't going anymore. Tried to explain why in 160 characters or less, which wasn't easy. Ariane seemed frustrated or angry in her replies >_< She said that it would be ok to drive Shiva if we pitched in gas money, but at this point I was already at campus and lost the mood to karaoke. Kat offered to switch from singing karaoke to watching a movie in theaters in San Jose. Shiva and I were fine with it if we could get a ride, since we were both on campus at this point, heading to Tandoori Oven to eat. But I received no more replies after 20h40, so I figured they all decided to go without us and/or they were mad/upset at me for ditching them or leaving already <_<
I felt bad. But when I had initially decided to go eat with my friends, I was feeling worse that Shiva would be by herself. And I thought, "If I'm gonna be with my friends and thinking about Shiva eating alone or not at all, I'm gonna be worried all night, and I don't know how much fun I'll have."
And honestly, this was an afterthought that occurred when I was trying to go to sleep Friday night: I want to spend as much time with Shiva as I can these next four or so months. Because after she graduates in May, I have no idea when I will actually get to hold her again. We'll probably end up in a long-distance relationship, and I just wanna see her when I can and make our moments together last as long as possible....
So Kat, Ariane, and Andrew, I don't know if you read this, but I'm sorry for bailing on you at the last minute. Sorry, Kat, since it was my last chance to see you before you went back to Harvard. It was messed up on my part 'cause I said I'd go and then I didn't. I hope you don't think I didn't hang out with you just because she's my girlfriend. That wasn't it. I really did try to think this through and find what all the pros and cons were for all the decisions. In the end, I figured that it would be better if everyone was with someone, even if it wasn't with everyone they had wanted. Yeah, I probably could have done things better, but I didn't. Sorry if it upset you, but I made my decision to go. I don't regret it. And I hope you guys had fun that night without me.
So yeah, I hung out with Shiva. We talked. She shared a lil bit about what happened at Leadership Today, the retreat she went on. The first thing she told me about, how she introduced the topic made me stop and sweat a little because I thought someone had gotten seriously injured and she mentioned a name of a professor I know. But what had happened was not as tragic but still really terrible. And it had impacted Shiva greatly, as did the rest of the retreat...
Before she shared more about LT, we went to eat at The Tandoori Oven. Saag paneer and cholay bhature (looked it up on their website just now). Definitely can't read or pronounce any of that well, but that's ok XD Tasty. Took some of both home.
The rest of the night, because I hadn't received any more texts, I was worried that my friends were angry at me ;-; especially since I've never had this kinda conflict before and stuff. Shiva was worried that my friends would dislike her because they'd think she took me away from them (Same thing's happened to her in regard to me. I'm still not that well-liked, I guess heh <_<;). I assured her that if that's what they thought, I would tell them the truth that I had decided on my own without any influence from her. I had even initially told her that I was gonna eat with my friends. But anyway, I tried to reassure Shiva that my friends wouldn't dislike her for Friday because she wasn't the one who decided what I was going to do.
After that, we just laid in bed and talked. Or mostly Shiva did. LT was good for her :) I'm so glad. She had been worried about it, but it turned out to be "life-inspiring" as she put it. I was really happy to hear it.
And I'm just gonna say that the conversation in her room that night, along with all our other conversations during the night, made my night better :3 I was surprised and confused XD I didn't know what to say or think. I was just like O_O I'm still not sure haha XD Kinda. I dunno. I don't think I'm thinking enough haha. Wasn't sure what to think. But I know I was happy :)
Went to sleep pretty early. But I woke up soon after, thinking and worrying. I didn't get much sleep >_> Was thinking about how to apologize and stuff like that. But eventually I realized all I could apologize for was the not showing up when I said I would. No apologizing for not leaving Shiva to be by herself. No apologizing for all the good stuff that happened Friday night. I can't explain the good things, but it just made me really happy.
Saturday, we woke up kinda early. Shiva had planned to go with Michelle W to the mall because Michelle wanted someone to accompany her as she got a naval piercing. Shiva wanted me to stay in her room to sleep -_- Instead, I tagged along.
Michelle drove us to Valley Fair. Went to the body piercing shop, Body Jewelz, I think. Checked out the piercings and stuff. Then when Michelle got her piercing, Shiva and I recorded it and her reaction on two cameras XD So funny. The guy who did the piercing was nice and funny, making fun of us XP We know the three of us don't look older than 18 haha.
After the piercing, Shiva and I bought a caramel pecanbon from Cinnabon. Tasty, but so unhealthy. Michelle drove us back to campus. Shiva and I spent the rest of the day in her dorm. For some reason, the order of the things we did isn't in my head o_o;
I remember watching "Iron Man 2." It wasn't very good. The plot wasn't all that interesting. The final fight scene was so quick. I was hoping it would redeem some of the movie, but it didn't. The main villain wasn't very convincing either. I dunno. The movie was off, didn't enjoy it as much as I enjoyed the first movie.
I also remember eating leftover cholay bhature. The frame of my glasses broke. Shiva fixed it with tape <_< so I look more like a geek now (When I went home on Sunday, I actually re-taped it. So I probably look a little geekier). Shiva talked about LT some more. Sadly, I can't remember what else we did Saturday other than talk and stuff.
Sunday, we were awoken by a early morning phone call from Shiva's aunt. Learned that Shiva's paternal grandfather had died. Her aunt was trying to reach Shiva's dad. I couldn't do anything but hold Shiva. I didn't know what to say. I haven't experienced the death of someone close to me, unless you count Earl. But anyway, yeah, we were awake then. Shiva talked about her grandfather. I listened, hoping I knew what I could say. Nothing really came out.
I fell back to sleep, and Shiva left the room. I woke an hour later, and Shiva wasn't back. So I walked out to the living room, and she was there, using her computer. I sat with her. We looked at textbook prices. She's got 11 books she needs for her classes next semester. So fun <_<
Watched "The Kids Are All Right." Not what we expected. Much more sex than we liked. Thought the movie would be more family-focused, but no. The only character Shiva and I felt sympathy for was Nic. But other than that, we thought the characters were underdeveloped. I think the ending was a quick, "happy" ending. Closure, but not real closure.
After the movie, we took a bus to Safeway, since Shiva had almost no food in her kitchen. Earlier, I had called Mother to ask her to pick us up from Safeway. I told her it would take at least an hour and a half in Safeway for us to get stuff, but she misunderstood me. So while Shiva and I were in Safeway, Mother and D came an hour early. Mother kept calling me, asking if we were done. We were not. She was getting frustrated. So I had to cut the grocery shopping short. Mother came into the store to look for us too -_- Went and paid for everything. Went out to the car. D was driving because Mother didn't know the area. Drove back to campus. Helped Shiva carry all the stuff back up. Then left.
In the car, Mother just yelled at me for helping my friends too much. "Why are you so good to your friends? One day, they're going to turn on you. They won't help you when you really need them to. They haven't helped you with anything. How could you ignore our family and help your friends? Don't you care about us? You're just gonna ignore us and let our house be destroyed." She said things like this, among other negative things I care not to mention. While she's spilling all this babble, I was just thinking, "Well, when I do help you, all you do is get mad at me for not doing it all the time or not doing it correctly. Then you yell at me to stop and you do it yourself. So what am I supposed to do? I'm supposed to just stick around, do things for you while you talk about how lazy, unhelpful, or ungrateful I am, and be happy about how much good I'm doing for the family?"
I know I'm probably in the wrong for some of the things I do. But being angry and yelling at me all the time isn't gonna help me make 'better' decisions. It just makes me wish other things would happen..
I know I probably focused more on the negative stuff. But trust me, there were a lot of positives this weekend. I just can't help but feel like the good stuff that happen to me tend to end in negative crap.
There were good times this weekend. Little to no worries. I can't explain how things were good. I'm so bad with words haha. But the conversations, the words, were unexpected but really good.
Oh haha, Shiva's been trying to convince me that I should go to Leadership Today next year. I'll think about it. I had kinda wanted to go to this year's retreat, but the timing just didn't work out. Hopefully, next year's timing will be better. I wouldn't mind being inspired, you know. But who knows if I will be? I have a hard time believing in inspiration.
But anyway, yeah, that was my weekend. Kinda. Ups and downs. Trying to focus on the ups, but the downs have weight.
Not sure what I mean by my title anymore haha. Just something from inside my head... There are no explanations there right now haha.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Ice skating, yay!
So today, I woke up at 9h00, got up at 9h15, and was ready to leave at 10h30. Warm clothing included jeans, hoodie, arm warmers, beanie cap, and bandanna :P Kept me quite warm.
Lisa picked me up around 11h15. Got to Logitech Ice (Sharks Ice) around 11h35. Albert and Christine were already there. Got caught up with them; it's been quite a while since we actually hung out. Amy wasn't there because she was sick ): Sad.
So the four of us went in and paid $12 to skate and to rent skates. At first, we all got the regular blue skates. They felt weird and made me feel like I was out of balance. Even when I wasn't on the ice. Felt weird that the blades weren't straight on the shoes but slightly diagonal. Most of the weight had to be placed on the outside of my foot. Skated like that for a while. But Albert and I couldn't get it very well haha. So we switched to hockey skates 'cause I'm relatively more comfortable with those.
Got to skate for about two hours. Ankles hurt because of the first pair of skates. Knee hurt a bit because I was straining for balance throughout the session haha. Realized my right hockey skate was rubbing too much against the back of my calf. Sat down and checked it. Rubbed raw T-T but only a small area. Took off one of my arm warmers and cushioned the back of my leg, but it still stung a little ):
During the skating, I talked with everyone a bit. About school, graduation, the shooting in Tucson, etc.
Anyway, we were done skating at 13h30. Decided to go to lunch, but took a while to decide where. Drove to the nearest plaza. Because we weren't making a decision haha, I said, "Ok, someone, take a step in a direction toward food." Christine took a step and led us to Panera Bread XD Yay, sandwiches haha. I got a hot panini (tomato and mozarella on ciabatta bread), an apple, and an iced chai tea latte. Tasty and healthy :D Haha Lisa got extra chicken noodle soup for free. Why does she keep getting free food? >_>
Hm, I wonder if it's always gonna rain every time we go ice skating haha. It rained on the day we went ice skating last year too.
Anyway, I was home by 15h00. Early haha.
Today was fun :)
Lisa picked me up around 11h15. Got to Logitech Ice (Sharks Ice) around 11h35. Albert and Christine were already there. Got caught up with them; it's been quite a while since we actually hung out. Amy wasn't there because she was sick ): Sad.
So the four of us went in and paid $12 to skate and to rent skates. At first, we all got the regular blue skates. They felt weird and made me feel like I was out of balance. Even when I wasn't on the ice. Felt weird that the blades weren't straight on the shoes but slightly diagonal. Most of the weight had to be placed on the outside of my foot. Skated like that for a while. But Albert and I couldn't get it very well haha. So we switched to hockey skates 'cause I'm relatively more comfortable with those.
Got to skate for about two hours. Ankles hurt because of the first pair of skates. Knee hurt a bit because I was straining for balance throughout the session haha. Realized my right hockey skate was rubbing too much against the back of my calf. Sat down and checked it. Rubbed raw T-T but only a small area. Took off one of my arm warmers and cushioned the back of my leg, but it still stung a little ):
During the skating, I talked with everyone a bit. About school, graduation, the shooting in Tucson, etc.
Anyway, we were done skating at 13h30. Decided to go to lunch, but took a while to decide where. Drove to the nearest plaza. Because we weren't making a decision haha, I said, "Ok, someone, take a step in a direction toward food." Christine took a step and led us to Panera Bread XD Yay, sandwiches haha. I got a hot panini (tomato and mozarella on ciabatta bread), an apple, and an iced chai tea latte. Tasty and healthy :D Haha Lisa got extra chicken noodle soup for free. Why does she keep getting free food? >_>
Hm, I wonder if it's always gonna rain every time we go ice skating haha. It rained on the day we went ice skating last year too.
Anyway, I was home by 15h00. Early haha.
Today was fun :)
Monday, January 10, 2011
Yay for Winchesters!
I wish I could come up with creative entry titles all the time haha, but I'm not that creative XP
So, I haven't been doing too much since 2011 started. Didn't hang out with anyone. Skyped with Shiva every day. Did not get up early except for the first day of the year XD Also slowly working on my term paper for SOCI 116, but only because Shiva won't give me kisses if I don't finish by Friday ;-;
Anyway, Shiva came back to SJ yesterday. I asked D to pick her up. He obliged :D
Mother, D, and I drove around SJ for a while. Looked at homes, or rather neighborhoods. Mother wants to move this year, after we get Brother a room and he gets settled in. I'm game for moving, I guess. I mean I want to move out of this house 'cause Mother has problems with the landlady and I'd rather live closer to campus. But the hard part is finding a good place. Mother wants to move to North SJ or Milpitas. I'm cool with that as long as there's a light rail stop nearby. Mother also wants a spacious house, which is difficult to find especially if we're looking at two-bedroom homes. Not very often that you find a two-bedroom house. So we're looking at apartments that are in the so-called style of a townhouse. Fun.
Anyway, around 16h00, the three of us went to In N Out to eat a quick meal before driving to the airport. While waiting for the food, I saw Maggie's little brother Tommy haha. I thought, "Why does this lil kid look so familiar? ... Ohh, hey, that's Maggie's brother." Yeaah, anyway, the food was good :P
Around 17h05, Shiva finally called. Such a long delay :O Kept me waiting in anticipation XP Got to the airport and picked Shiva up :) Back to campus. Yay for sleepover!
Shiva gave me a gift :D in a Powerpuff Girls lunchbox haha. When I first opened it, I saw a pair of scissors haha. Yay, because I needed a new pair. Got lost in the tissue paper for a bit. Then got to the gift :) A pair of matching black Winchester folding pocket knives. One for her, one for me :3 Pretty sweet. Even sweeter was that she took time to put our first initials on them with silver Fimo Effect (polymer clay).
Sadly, airport security apparently took out the contents to check them, probably because it looked like a suspicious metal box in the luggage. Haha they probably thought Shiva was a threat since she was carrying two knives and a pair of scissors (and pepper spray) in her luggage XD They f'ed up the zipper on her luggage though ): And they broke off part of the initials on one of the knives >_< How rude. But Shiva said she'd fix it :3
But yeah, such an amazing gift, yeah? :3 Her parents think she's a crazy delinquent for buying knives and scissors for me XD haha. These are thoughtful gifts, in my opinion. I appreciate them wholeheartedly :) Haha sadly, the only gifts I gave her were two pieces of origami art that I did a few days earlier (first time, so they're not very impressive haha), a crane and a you-and-me heart. They weren't even on red paper XP A yellow-orange paper heh ^_^;
Back to last night, Harrison and Michelle W came over. Harrison bought plain yogurt for Shiva, so that she could make rava, which I still can't pronounce >_> A lot of yogurt in that; it was too sour for me until Shiva added sugar, which is not a normal ingredient for rava XP Taste was interesting. Not my preferred taste, but it was ok.
The four of us watched movies because we didn't know what else to do. First, tried to watch Iron Man 2, D's copy, but the audio didn't work -_- Next, "How To Train Your Dragon," D's copy, except it started skipping toward the climax of the movie -_- So Michelle went to her dorm and brought up her copies of HTTYD and "Inception." Toothless is adorable, especially when he tries to smile, even if he's just an animation haha. Watching "Inception" the second time was good. Got the first fifteen or so minutes of the movie. Helped understand a few things a lil better. Haha Harrison fell asleep through most of the middle of the movie; Shiva fell asleep during the last half of the movie XP But that's ok because she was sleeping in my arms :3
Finished around 1 in the morning. Harrison and Michelle left. I washed dishes. Shiva and I eventually went to sleep... I dunno when though.
This morning, woke up kinda early. Got up before noon. Ate breakfast. Watched "Speak." Went to the mail room and then the school bookstore to check if there were any books for our classes. Then I went home ): Sad. Shiva's going to Santa Cruz tomorrow morning for Leadership Today. She'll be back on Friday. In the meantime, I must get my paper done -nods- Then on Friday, hopefully, we'll go eat and karaoke with Kat, Andrew, and other people.
Anyway, yeah, that's all that I can think of right now about what's happened. Tomorrow, I'm going ice skating with Amy, Lisa, Christine, Albert, and maybe a few other people. I don't know for sure. Lisa's giving me a ride. It's been about year since I last went ice skating. With Amy, Lisa, and Christine haha. Sad that Shiva won't be here to join us ): Another time -nods-
I can't believe there's like only two weeks left till I'm back in school -_- Break is going so fast. I'm not sure I feel prepared to go back to school in two weeks. I need more break. Maybe I should stop staying up so late XD
So, I haven't been doing too much since 2011 started. Didn't hang out with anyone. Skyped with Shiva every day. Did not get up early except for the first day of the year XD Also slowly working on my term paper for SOCI 116, but only because Shiva won't give me kisses if I don't finish by Friday ;-;
Anyway, Shiva came back to SJ yesterday. I asked D to pick her up. He obliged :D
Mother, D, and I drove around SJ for a while. Looked at homes, or rather neighborhoods. Mother wants to move this year, after we get Brother a room and he gets settled in. I'm game for moving, I guess. I mean I want to move out of this house 'cause Mother has problems with the landlady and I'd rather live closer to campus. But the hard part is finding a good place. Mother wants to move to North SJ or Milpitas. I'm cool with that as long as there's a light rail stop nearby. Mother also wants a spacious house, which is difficult to find especially if we're looking at two-bedroom homes. Not very often that you find a two-bedroom house. So we're looking at apartments that are in the so-called style of a townhouse. Fun.
Anyway, around 16h00, the three of us went to In N Out to eat a quick meal before driving to the airport. While waiting for the food, I saw Maggie's little brother Tommy haha. I thought, "Why does this lil kid look so familiar? ... Ohh, hey, that's Maggie's brother." Yeaah, anyway, the food was good :P
Around 17h05, Shiva finally called. Such a long delay :O Kept me waiting in anticipation XP Got to the airport and picked Shiva up :) Back to campus. Yay for sleepover!
Shiva gave me a gift :D in a Powerpuff Girls lunchbox haha. When I first opened it, I saw a pair of scissors haha. Yay, because I needed a new pair. Got lost in the tissue paper for a bit. Then got to the gift :) A pair of matching black Winchester folding pocket knives. One for her, one for me :3 Pretty sweet. Even sweeter was that she took time to put our first initials on them with silver Fimo Effect (polymer clay).
Sadly, airport security apparently took out the contents to check them, probably because it looked like a suspicious metal box in the luggage. Haha they probably thought Shiva was a threat since she was carrying two knives and a pair of scissors (and pepper spray) in her luggage XD They f'ed up the zipper on her luggage though ): And they broke off part of the initials on one of the knives >_< How rude. But Shiva said she'd fix it :3
But yeah, such an amazing gift, yeah? :3 Her parents think she's a crazy delinquent for buying knives and scissors for me XD haha. These are thoughtful gifts, in my opinion. I appreciate them wholeheartedly :) Haha sadly, the only gifts I gave her were two pieces of origami art that I did a few days earlier (first time, so they're not very impressive haha), a crane and a you-and-me heart. They weren't even on red paper XP A yellow-orange paper heh ^_^;
Back to last night, Harrison and Michelle W came over. Harrison bought plain yogurt for Shiva, so that she could make rava, which I still can't pronounce >_> A lot of yogurt in that; it was too sour for me until Shiva added sugar, which is not a normal ingredient for rava XP Taste was interesting. Not my preferred taste, but it was ok.
The four of us watched movies because we didn't know what else to do. First, tried to watch Iron Man 2, D's copy, but the audio didn't work -_- Next, "How To Train Your Dragon," D's copy, except it started skipping toward the climax of the movie -_- So Michelle went to her dorm and brought up her copies of HTTYD and "Inception." Toothless is adorable, especially when he tries to smile, even if he's just an animation haha. Watching "Inception" the second time was good. Got the first fifteen or so minutes of the movie. Helped understand a few things a lil better. Haha Harrison fell asleep through most of the middle of the movie; Shiva fell asleep during the last half of the movie XP But that's ok because she was sleeping in my arms :3
Finished around 1 in the morning. Harrison and Michelle left. I washed dishes. Shiva and I eventually went to sleep... I dunno when though.
This morning, woke up kinda early. Got up before noon. Ate breakfast. Watched "Speak." Went to the mail room and then the school bookstore to check if there were any books for our classes. Then I went home ): Sad. Shiva's going to Santa Cruz tomorrow morning for Leadership Today. She'll be back on Friday. In the meantime, I must get my paper done -nods- Then on Friday, hopefully, we'll go eat and karaoke with Kat, Andrew, and other people.
Anyway, yeah, that's all that I can think of right now about what's happened. Tomorrow, I'm going ice skating with Amy, Lisa, Christine, Albert, and maybe a few other people. I don't know for sure. Lisa's giving me a ride. It's been about year since I last went ice skating. With Amy, Lisa, and Christine haha. Sad that Shiva won't be here to join us ): Another time -nods-
I can't believe there's like only two weeks left till I'm back in school -_- Break is going so fast. I'm not sure I feel prepared to go back to school in two weeks. I need more break. Maybe I should stop staying up so late XD
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Happy 2011!
It's a good start to a new year. Shiva and I have ended 2010 and started 2011 together on Skype haha. Along with her friend Adam. With some small fireworks and the ball drop on TV.
The last two days of 2010 were two of the hardest, but they were days I needed. I'm learning things I need to know.
I'm hoping 2011 will be a good year for my family and friends. I know 2010 wasn't the best for a lot of them, but they've certainly gotten through it all somehow. And I'm glad that we all made it to the new year alive and well, or at least I hope so. The new year means a new start, I guess. I hope we all take the new start to heart :)
Anyway, I'm watching Shiva and Adam light more fireworks (double fountains haha) before they go off to light some of the bigger ones in some parking lot haha. On Skype, because they're outside, I get like freeze frames of the fireworks. Mostly, I either see bright lines dancing in the air or bright rock-like shapes morphing on the ground as they poop out residue (snake and worm fireworks). Or giant sea anemones (rain dance) haha. The Golden Shower >_> looks like a volcano.
Ahh, I wish I could be there with Shiva to welcome the new year with a kiss and a hug. Ah, we will have future new years to come, I hope :)
So anyway, yeah, this is my New Year's. I thought it wasn't gonna be great because I wouldn't be out of the house. My plan had been to go out and call Shiva. But you know what? This is great. I get to see my beautiful girl, "chill" with people, and no have to deal with the apparently horrible smell that goes along with lighting fireworks :P
I don't think I've got more to say other than I'm glad to make a new friend, even though I have met him once during the summer.
So I hope y'all had a great start to the new year. I hope you have a great year with a wonderful beginning, middle, and end :) I hope to spend some of it with all of you. Many of us are turning 21 this year. I know 21 is supposed to be a milestone in people's lives, at least here in the US. So I hope I can celebrate your milestones with you. If not, I'll be there in spirit haha.
Stay safe, keep warm, keep cool, don't drink and drive, plus all those other well-meaning warnings. May you all achieve great fortune and chill memories.
Happy New Year!
Peace, Love, and (not) Cankersores XD
Instead, I say.... Peace, Love, and All That Is Awesome :P
The last two days of 2010 were two of the hardest, but they were days I needed. I'm learning things I need to know.
I'm hoping 2011 will be a good year for my family and friends. I know 2010 wasn't the best for a lot of them, but they've certainly gotten through it all somehow. And I'm glad that we all made it to the new year alive and well, or at least I hope so. The new year means a new start, I guess. I hope we all take the new start to heart :)
Anyway, I'm watching Shiva and Adam light more fireworks (double fountains haha) before they go off to light some of the bigger ones in some parking lot haha. On Skype, because they're outside, I get like freeze frames of the fireworks. Mostly, I either see bright lines dancing in the air or bright rock-like shapes morphing on the ground as they poop out residue (snake and worm fireworks). Or giant sea anemones (rain dance) haha. The Golden Shower >_> looks like a volcano.
Ahh, I wish I could be there with Shiva to welcome the new year with a kiss and a hug. Ah, we will have future new years to come, I hope :)
So anyway, yeah, this is my New Year's. I thought it wasn't gonna be great because I wouldn't be out of the house. My plan had been to go out and call Shiva. But you know what? This is great. I get to see my beautiful girl, "chill" with people, and no have to deal with the apparently horrible smell that goes along with lighting fireworks :P
I don't think I've got more to say other than I'm glad to make a new friend, even though I have met him once during the summer.
So I hope y'all had a great start to the new year. I hope you have a great year with a wonderful beginning, middle, and end :) I hope to spend some of it with all of you. Many of us are turning 21 this year. I know 21 is supposed to be a milestone in people's lives, at least here in the US. So I hope I can celebrate your milestones with you. If not, I'll be there in spirit haha.
Stay safe, keep warm, keep cool, don't drink and drive, plus all those other well-meaning warnings. May you all achieve great fortune and chill memories.
Happy New Year!
Peace, Love, and (not) Cankersores XD
Instead, I say.... Peace, Love, and All That Is Awesome :P
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