Wow, I've gone through five weeks of school already...

That's crazy. Means there's only eleven weeks left of school.

What's been happening with me? Not too much. Been hanging out with Shiva and sleeping over on weekends. Just lots of chill times.

Heading into midterms. Had my first one for PHIL 57 (Logic & Critical Thinking) on Wednesday. A quick one, yay. I have three more. Haha I have two midterms in each of my 9am classes and no midterms in my 10:30am classes. Next midterm on Tuesday for SOCI 101 (Social Theory). I'm worried about this one. I'm not quite sure my brain has absorbed much information from that class ): After that, I wait about another three weeks until my second PHIL midterm and then SOCI midterm. Then about month later, I have three finals o_o

Lots and lots of papers. Not really. Feels like it though. I have a research outline due next week for SOCI 100W (Writing Workshop). Got a mini paper due for PHIL 109 (Philosophy of Religion) too. Week after, I have a paper due for 100W. And the week after that, I have my first draft for the research paper due for the same class. Two weeks after that, I have a SOCI 101 paper due on my birthday and a PHIL 109 paper due two days later. Second draft due two weeks after that. Final paper for PHIL 109 due a week later. Three weeks later, my research paper (8-12 pages) is due on the last day of class. Might also do a third paper for SOCI 101.

That probably isn't that much work, but I'm lazy and I'm not used to doing that much outside writing in a semester -_- Darn upper divisions XP haha. But I know I can do it. I have an awesome support system :P


Anyway, the past two weeks have gone by fast. I think if I get through the semester (or my life) day by day and week by week, it will fly by real fast. It seems to be doing that right now. It's crazy how I didn't really talk to that many people just a year ago. I joined QTIP and Q&A around this time. I met Harrison a year ago yesterday (we remembered!). And I (probably) met Shiva a year ago next Wednesday.

Haha that reminds me. Shiva and I have been trying to figure out the actual date of when we met. We don't actually remember. Managed to narrow down the possible dates to 9/29 and 10/6. Most likely the latter. Cannot remember anything from the QTIP meeting except that it was our first encounter. Day did not register in my head, and I didn't blog about it ): It's obviously because neither of us thought the other was gonna become an important part of her life x3 Wish I had a better memory or put more details into my blog XP

But yeah, it's interesting how things work out in just a year o_o So crazy, strange, weird, exciting, unexpected, etc etc....

But anyway, back to the last two weeks... I don't really remember too much because I haven't been blogging XP I should try, but eh -shrug-

Slept over at Shiva's the past two weekends. Chillaxing and getting some stuff done.

Two weekends ago... Well, I don't really remember anything other than sleeping over. I remember Shiva was not very productive. Well, nor was I.

Last weekend, I slept over Friday and Saturday. Friday, she, Brian, and I went to the BlueLight Cinema in Cupertino to watch "Scott Pilgrim Vs. the World." It has been such a long time since the three of us have chilled together. It's sad. But Brian is now busy with classes and SAE stuff ): No time for Shiva and me anymore. You don't love us anymore, do you, Brian? Anyway, the movie was good. I give it a 7/10. It was entertaining. Definitely made me laugh. The graphics were awesome and very reminiscent of the video and arcade games I used to play. Lots of weird corny things haha. I give the movie a 7, however, because it felt like something was missing. I dunno. I can't explain it. Maybe I just don't like corny comedies all that much anymore XP

Saturday was the day of the Student Organization Leadership Conference (SOLC). I represented QTIP and Q&A as a group member for both. Sign in with Crystal and Shiva. Intro session was meh, ok. Learned stuff about drinking on campus. Then had a selection of workshops to attend (required to attend one during each of the three sessions). Followed Crystal to all three sessions. Lunch was a sandwich, but I didn't eat. Nor did Shiva ): Anyway, at the end of the conference, turned in paper stuff and got a free T-shirt. I like it :)

That night, Shiva and I attended Matt C's birthday celebration in his and Mackenzie's dorm. Lots of alcohol and juice. And chicken. Most people were there already. Some already got started on drinking. Shiva and I stayed for about an hour and a half. No drinking for us. Needed to go get stuff done and sleep. Played "Ten Fingers." At first, I didn't know what that was about, but then I realized it was "Never Have I Ever." No alcohol involved in this game. And there were negatives (I got -2; Shiva had like -12 or something). Some of the never's were disgusting or just blehh XP Sex in public places, golden showers, rimming, hot plate. Learned way too much about some people. And haha, oh, Billy XD His reaction to stuff was so funny.
Sang the birthday song twice to Matt. Snickerdoodle cake (do not like). Left the party at like 11pm. Sleep sometime after midnight.

Mm, yesterday, I went to a Vietnamese American group discussion thing. My AAS prof was there. So were another professor and four or five other students. One person talked to me about linguistic etiquette because I addressed her as "Co" (how one addresses a female who is several years older, or at least that's how I learned it) instead of "Chi" (how one addresses a female who slightly older, like an older sister). I thought I had said something wrong, but apparently I just made her feel old <_< I didn't know; I personally do not notice age. I address almost all older Vietnamese females as "Co" unless it is apparent what their age is in relation to me.
Anyway, the group talked about how to communicate with Viet parents. It was interesting and informative. I think I actually started the discussion with my question (How do I explain my Sociology major to my mom?). Eventually, we touched on topics such as how to explain education decisions and dating, specifically interracial dating. It seems everyone in that room who was dating or married was in an interracial relationship o: How fascinating. Surprising. Usually, Viet people (at least many of the ones I've known) tend to date other Viets. Also, I've never seen anyone who was half Viet and half Filipino before yesterday XD

Random: I always try to think of the weirdest racial mix (in pairs) that I can. But it gets harder every time I try XP I used to think being half Irish and half Korean would be a weird mix. Or half Indian and half anything else... XD I was a strange person, I know. So racist too. Now, I'm just thinking there's probably all types of racial mixing; I just haven't met many of them yet. But yeah, done with the tangent.

SJSU Job & Internship Fair yesterday. Shiva refrained from hugging or kissing me ): Why? Because I didn't make a resume the night before. She had given me an ultimatum: either I make a resume or she wouldn't touch me for a whole day. I didn't make the resume. So she kept her word T-T Made me sad. But the career fair was interesting. There were A LOT of Indian people there. Some lines were like exclusively Indian haha XD Mostly the Engineering and Business companies and organizations. Shiva and I checked out a few tables. She signed up for the Peace Corps stuff and got a free bag :P Then we checked out the CIA (woo! Free stuff: post-its, mini flashlight, hand sanitizer, and a lanyard), City Year, Seneca Center, Coaching Corps, EPA (neither of us actually qualify for much, and one lady's hair reminded us of 80's hair XD it was pretty awesome), and Burson Marsteller (the rep helped Shiva improve her resume). Lots of mentoring programs. I'm kinda considering them >_> But I gotta wait till I get my degree first. Then I can take time off from schooling and go join a yearlong mentoring/teaching program that pays a living stipend and helps with scholarship money for graduate school.

We also went to the KOHL's table on a whim at the end. Shiva talked to the lady a bit. The lady asked her what her major was. When Shiva told her, the lady's smile stopped and twitched, and then she said something like "That's not even close to retail." I dunno. Shiva and I left, laughing but thinking that lady was just rude.

Ooh, so I was heading home yesterday after the QTIP meeting was over at 7:30pm. Walked with Craig toward the light rail. Passed Harrison and an acquaintance of his. I didn't notice because I was all caught up in the conversation with Craig. Anyway, on the light rail home, when we stopped at the Convention Center, the light rail driver announced over the PA to passengers to get their passes ready to be checked. As soon as the doors opened, Harrison bolted from the light rail across the street. His friend and I didn't know where he was going. Thought he was gonna stop across the street, so we got off the light rail. But he kept running. Some other dude also ran away from the light rail. Security people (12 of them?) had been waiting on the platform. A new ticket-checking method: check point.
Security people tried to chase the other guy, yelling at him to stop running, but he got away.
Friend and I found out Harrison ran all the way to the next stop, Children's Discovery Museum XD So we waited for the next light rail, though we realized we could have walked to the next stop before the light rail ever came. And every time a light rail passed by, the friend would get excited and wait to see if anyone ran. Honestly, I have never seen anyone run from light rail people before (well, except Harrison on the night that we met on the light rail hahaha).
Back on the light rail, there were a couple of people complaining about the tickets 'cause they got tickets and others didn't.


T-T !! Ahhh, I just hit my funny bone really hard T-T It buuuurns!! My forearm and my pinky tingled, I tasted the bitterness of the pain, and then the tingly parts burned T-T aahhh...


Anyway, blah. My brain, grr... Memory is shot @_@ I feel like I'm remembering fewer and fewer details as the days go by. All I can recall are general feelings that I've had. Details are just sketchy -_-


Hm, Q&A events to look forward to:
10/11 - BBQ
10/-- - Halloween Haunt at Great America
10/-- - Queer Homecoming
11/3 - UCSC Queer Pin@y Conference
11/8 - Thanksgiving Potluck
12/2 - Hot Chocolate & S'mores

Not sure I got the right dates, but yeah.

Other things to look forward to? I don't really know. Can't think of anything at the moment.


How's life been for y'all, eh? Good, I hope. My life has been all right, a bit on the happier side lately. Have had a few sad days, but I've got someone special helping me up :3

But anyway, yeah, life is all right. Still not that fond of the semester, but I won't complain too much. I just need to not put things off so much, but I already have. So sad. I hope next semester won't be this bad.

What else? Hmm, I've been meaning to update the blog, but I just forget and do other stuff. Sad. Blogging is not a big part of my life anymore. I'm actually staying off the computer for most of the day XD Yay!

Uhh, ok, I should get back to work and then go to bed haha. Been staying up too late every day for non-productive reasons. Hmm... Wonder what I'm doing this weekend...


Mm ^^ I ramble too much. In my head. I don't know what to type T-T

September is going by so fast...

and I don't feel like I have anything to say... >_>

Can't believe three and a half weeks of the semester have already passed o_o

School has been annoying me. Don't really know why, but something about school is irksome. I thought maybe after a month of school, I'd get back into the rhythm of things. But I honestly don't feel that way. I'm keeping up with my work stuff, but I feel like I'm falling behind.

I feel like something's up with me. My brain is not retaining information. And I've been rereading things. Not really taking notes in my classes. My mind zones out when I'm taking notes. But if I stop writing, just sit, and listen, I feel like more things come into my head. Though, I'm not sure any of it is staying in there.

My PHIL 57 is a bit too boring. I don't feel like I'm learning anything new, probably because I've learned about arguments and fallacies already o_o I don't pay much attention in this class. Can't hear the professor. And what I do hear, I already know. I think I have a paper to write for this class, but Prof Bashaw hasn't mentioned it yet.

SOCI 100W, boring too. Again, I don't feel like I'm learning anything new. All I'm really thinking about for this class are the research paper, the values socialization paper, the oral presentation, and maybe the final. And I don't think Prof Brook likes my class all that much. Most of the time, none of us talk. Unless he decides to make it clear that participation is a part of our grades. Even then, only three or four people speak up -shrug- I don't feel like there's anything relevant for me to contribute to the discussion, if we can even call it that.

SOCI 101 is all right. Prof Rudy is interesting, and he tries to keep the topic interesting. Reading and learning about Marx, Engels, Durkheim, and now Weber. I also have that class with Shiva :) so she kinda makes me focus. No crossword puzzles T-T Though, she's always poking me or something XP Distracting me. How mean. You can poke me, but you won't let me figure out the crossword. Mm, working on a two-page analysis/reflection paper for this class. At least one more this semester. And some in-class quote recitation thing. First exam in a little over two weeks. Can't wait >_>

PHIL 109 is all right. Still kinda slow-paced. And I don't think I'm gonna write very well for this class (or any class really). The last paper I turned in for the class was just crap -_- I don't contribute to the discussions much, but they are thought-provoking. Keep me awake usually. I have a research paper for this class too. And three more mini-papers and an oral presentation. The readings we're doing on the existence of God are interesting, but I'm getting lost in all the explanations and reasoning.

Anyway, two more weeks and September will be over... So fast. Feels like it only started last week. Twelve weeks left, plus the week of finals... How sad, I'm already checking to see when semester ends... Hmm, I have three finals. One on a Monday, one on a Thursday, and one on a Friday (last day of finals). Supposed to have two on that Friday, but Prof Giddings doesn't give finals. Hmm, oh what fun to be had at the end of semester.

I really wish I only needed to take like two courses a semester. I wouldn't mind staying in school longer if that were the case. I know I'm just lazy, but I don't like how easily stressed I get from school now. Makes me wonder... What am I stressing myself out for really?


So, I've been hanging out with Shiva just about every day, except for maybe one day a week. Would probably explain why I don't update this blog often anymore XD I'm either in class or with Shiva. Why would I waste time on the computer? :P

Feels like a lot has been happening these past two weeks, but really I don't know what's been going on.

There was Gamba Karaoke with QTIP and Q&A on the Saturday of Labor Day Weekend. I went with Shiva, Billy, Alisa, Matt, Nichols, and Justin. Only seven of us, not a bad turnout. Lasted about two hours. Went back to campus with Shiva; Billy gave us a ride. Stayed over at Shiva's for the weekend :) Fun times. Had a movie night with Harrison. Watched "The Losers" and "Fight Club." Mm.

Slept over at Shiva's again this past weekend. Unexpected. Was eating out at a restaurant with Mother and D. Mother asked if I wanted to go to campus and then asked if I was going to sleep over o_o I'm surprised she let me. Mm, I think we hung out with Harrison again. And Marian. But I don't remember >_> I don't really remember anything from last weekend other than sleeping over at Shiva's.

Then this weekend, Mother again asked me if I was going to sleep over. I said no. But who knows? Plans can pop up.

Also, this weekend, swimming tomorrow, maybe. Dance in Transit tomorrow and Sunday. 11AM to 5PM both days. Performers performing along light rail route in downtown. Would be interesting to see.

Next Saturday, I'm probably attending SJSU's Student Organization Leadership Conference. Member reppin' Q&A :P It's gonna take up my whole day practically. So I hope I get most of my work done before then. Also, Saturday will be Matt's birthday celebration. I guess I'll attend that too, if I'm already gonna be on campus :)


Anyway, that's all I can really think of right now. Probably a lot more stuff to do, but I'm just not thinking that much. Should probably get to work on my reflection that's due on Tuesday. Must get head start on a few things. No procrastinating, but I probably will XD but I guess my procrastination isn't too bad yet.

But meh, I still can't shake this burnt-out feeling I have.

And my mind/brain is pissing me off. Things I used to remember, I cannot recall anymore. I don't remember much of what I do anymore either. Like what I did last weekend... Or even what I did yesterday other than going to classes, chilling with Shiva, and attending Q&A. I'm probably just not getting enough sleep. That could explain it. I have been taking naps though, but I don't know how much those help.

Blah, ok. Work. Or maybe ice cream, hmm...

5 months...

So Brother changed his jail sentence from two months inside and eight months outside in a program (40 hrs/wk) to five months inside and no program. So he's getting out January 23.

So he's gonna be locked up for his birthday, my birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's. He's basically gone for a whole school semester for me.

I don't know how I feel about this.

But anyway, this means Brother's stuff must be moved back into our garage -_- again. Probably will do so in two or three weekends. Mother is gonna hire Mexicans who stand in front of Home Depot to help move the bed frame and mattress, heavy stuff o_o I offered to ask my friends to help, but she refused. She doesn't want my friends to know about Brother's situation.

I tried to reason with her: I don't have to tell my friends anything about Brother. All I have to say is we need help moving things. Getting help from my friends would be a bit cheaper, I think. My friends are bit more trustworthy than strangers are.

Anyway, I'll try to ask friends anyway. Know any guys who could carry bed frame parts and a mattress down a set of stairs?


Blah, this week has been tiring... Make me want to keep sleeping every morning. Which I could do on Mondays and Wednesdays, I guess. But I won't.

First QTIP meeting of Fall '10 today. Small turnout for a first meeting. But it's understandable, what with the day and time changes. And the student organization fair was today as well.

Wasn't able to check out any of it though ): Mother wanted me to come home early so that I could stay home while she went to buy groceries at the Viet market. But turns out she decided to go out and buy stuff while I was at school. So I got home for no existing reason. I was peeved at first, but then I didn't care. Ate lunch and stuff. Went back to campus. Hung out with Shiva, of course. We went to the Sociology orientation thing. Kinda informative, but I didn't really learn anything I didn't already figure out for myself before >_>

Back to the meeting. Five or six new faces. Woo! Announcements, planned stuff...

BB Open House tomorrow. Dunno if I'm going to that. Maybe. Maybe not. Probably not. I kinda wanna go home after Q&A. I might do that if I'm really tired then.

Bowling tomorrow night. I would like to go, but I can't 'cause it's late. Mother would kill me 'cause it's so early in the semester to be doing stuff on a weeknight. Besides, Shiva won't be there XP

Karaoke this Saturday. I wish to go. I hope I can go.

Movie/cinema the following Thursday. I wish to go to that as well.

Btw, KAT! We never went to karaoke T-T OR LUNCH!


Yeah, nothing too exciting happening lately. Just trying to keep my head up. But it's hard. My head just keeps rolling over, and my brain shuts off. So sad -_- You don't know how many times I've dozed off in class and at home this week so far haha.

OK, that's all. Time for sleeeep.