Second day of Fall 2010

Short entry...

SOCI 101 at 9 with P Rudy. Was ok. Small class, kinda. Lots of reading and writing, woo. Taking this class with Shiva. So I will have some help :D

PHIL 109 with J Giddings. Had her before. She's awesome. I was almost late to class 'cause Prof Rudy let the class out kinda late. The clock in that classroom is late by almost five minutes -_-

Anyway, went to DMH to see if I could add SOCI 116 with C Cox. Chill prof. Full class. At least twelve people wanting to add. Stayed in class until the end when Prof Cox addressed the adds. I'm last on the list. Probably won't get the class. Should email the prof of the philosophy class I want to add too.

If I don't get either class, I'm not gonna care. I feel overwhelmed right now. I couldn't even focus on much today, nor did I yesterday. I feel like this should be a semester that I take off. I need a break. Feel like too many things happening at once, and my body just wants to slow everything down.

I don't get it. Summer ended pretty well. But starting school just doesn't feel right. I'm bothered. Kinda agitated by things. I feel like school is gonna piss me off very soon. I feel like a lot of things are gonna piss me off in the next few months. I just don't get it.


Brother is going back to Elmwood tomorrow morning (getting out in two months, sometime near his birthday). I don't really wanna go along. But I probably will. I dunno. They have moved some of his stuff back into my room. Great. Do I care? Does my opinion even count in this matter? No. I don't even go in my room all that much anymore. Do I even need my fuckin' room? No. Should just make it into a storage room. Like we used to when we first moved into a house.

Why are there so many fuckin' ants on my desk?

Blah.

I was angry when I went home. I didn't want to talk to Mother or Brother. But I tried. It was difficult. Brother didn't make it any easier 'cause he was getting all pissy at me. For what? I don't even know.

Now, I'm just mellowing out. Still not feeling really good. I'm kinda feeling like I wanna go to sleep and not wake up. But I need to wake up. I have homework and readings to get through. Fun.

What is with me today? Blah.

Fall 2010 started today...

Not much to say about it, except that I wasn't looking forward to it. How unusual. I usually can't wait for school to start again. But this year's different. Probably because of summer session. Just wasn't excited about today. Nervous, yeah. Excited, no.

Ran into Albert, Christine, and Marian N this morning after I got off the light rail to head to campus. Also ran into Stephanie H. She claims to be the matchmaker for Shiva and me >_> hahaha. She also claims she will be a bridesmaid at our wedding o_o I told her there wasn't gonna be a wedding, and she just said, "You never know. Eventually, you'll change your mind and want one; then I'll be your bridesmaid." Then she turned to Albert and claimed that she will be his matchmaker as well haha. Anyway, we parted ways when Albert and I went to DMH.

I have a feeling my Monday and Wednesday classes are gonna test my exhaustion.

PHIL 57 with P Bashaw... He's old but nice. Talks real slow and real low. I couldn't hear him because I had sat in the back. Class was packed. No adds. Gonna have two midterms and a final. One paper, maybe. Weekly homework. Nothing too trying. Just gonna be a slow class, it seems.

Was only in class for half an hour. Then I went to sit in front of Clark Hall for a while. Stephanie came out of the building, and we went to the Student Union to chill with Amy. Talked for a while, and then Shiva came :D

SOCI 100W with D Brook... Shiva sat in on this class 'cause she had it last semester XP Class was ok. Small. Kinda blah. The amount of work seems daunting though >_> Or maybe I'm just too lazy. That's probably it.

Haha I feel like I'm going to be overwhelmed this semester. And extra lazy. But motivated. Oh, how paradoxical. Just weird to think that I'm gonna be in at least three upper division courses this semester (only one lower division). Next semester's gonna be all upper division, and so will the semester after. Crazy. Gonna be so much work >_> Will I survive? Will I stay motivated enough? We'll see.

Anyway, Shiva and I just spent the rest of the day together. Though, she did go to class at one point, while I napped in her bedroom haha.


Oh, so yesterday, Harrison, Marian N, Marian L, and I went to Shiva's place to eat pasta and watch a movie. Was supposed to be a movie marathon, but Marian N and I had to go home early. Watched "Jurassic Park." Hadn't seen that movie since I was little. Been so long. Ooh, I don't think we paid much attention toward the beginning of the movie though. Kept talking XD well, throughout the movie too, but yeah. Oh, Marian L brought hella Pocky haha. And Harrison and Marian N went to get slurpees from 7-11. Yeah, random, I dunno...

Haha Marian N is learning to drive. So she drove Harrison's SUV. She wasn't bad. I wasn't scared for my life or anything XD I just sat in the back and put my hand out the window. Ahh, cool evening breeze, love it.


Ahhh, it's been so hot lately x_x Torture. Highest was yesterday? 104 degrees D: at almost 4pm! But it's supposed to start getting cooler tomorrow, so that's good. Can't wait for colder weather to come. Means the ants go back outside XD


T-T Painful muscle spasms. Feel like something just bit my arm, and my muscles spasmed. Grr. There's nothing there! Ah, paaaiin.. Now, my arm just hurts every time my heart beats x_x Whaaa?

Desktop Recovery

So my desktop got more malware. Just like last time. Except it wasn't AV Security Suite. It was just Security-something-or-other. I decided to recover the desktop, since I put all my music files on the external hard drive already. The rest of the files on my desktop aren't that important to me.

So I recovered it after over seven years. Crazy. So outdated XD

Been reinstalling programs (Firefox, Trillian, Microsoft Office, Norton, etc) and uninstalling other ones for the past two hours.


Oh, before I even started recovering my computer. I thought there was a Recovery disk. So I spent two hours in the morning searching throughout the house for it. Couldn't find it because it turned out there was no such disk XP

Anyway, the search led me to the garage, where I found a bunch of school supplies (two reams of printer paper, four notebooks, two notepads, index cards, and more) that could have saved me much money throughout high school and college -_- Took all that stuff in. Found Brother's old Dynasty skateboard (thought he gave it to our friend Phong, but I guess not) :D Told Shiva about that; now, she wants to kill teach me. Also found Brother's old Chilly Bean fan XD I used to love that thing. It still works! The tech decks are still in the old desk too. Crazy. I wanna go through all that stuff we used to use a lot. But not much time or space to do it.

When I went back in the house, I checked the drawer underneath the microwave for the disk as well. Ended up reorganizing the drawer XD It was so messy. Now, it's neat. I threw out all the old candy that was left in there >_> Put stuff in ziplocks. So much neater in there now. Wonder how long that will last, especially since Mother likes to just toss things in anyway.


But yeah, anyway, back to the computer. Reinstalling hella things. And ahhhh, my desktop is so much faster now :D Pentium 4, 3.00 GHz :O Yee yee! Pretty damn good for a desktop that we bought so many years ago.

I dunno why, but recovering the desktop made me happy. Not ecstatic. But I dunno, I felt good when I saw how clear and fast my computer was. Refreshing, maybe? The only sad part about it is that I forgot to save my Buddha wallpaper, so that is lost, and I do not remember where I got it from. It's been my wallpaper for at least four years. Sad I didn't think of saving it. Oh well. Time to move onto a new wallpaper, yeah?


Anyway, today will be filled with computer stuff, organizing stuff, and karaoke stuff at night :D Karaoke with Kat, Kat's friend Sherry, Ariane, Kiet, Andrew, and maybe Shiva :) and maybe more. Who knows?


Time to download Limewire (or is there a better program?) onto the desktop. And download iTunes onto my external hard drive. That works, right? Ah, so fun. So awesome that my desktop is just like new ^_^ Out with the old, in with the new. Kinda :P

Four days of Shiva....

:)

So I actually did go stay with Shiva and her family down in So Cal for a couple of days. First time I traveled anywhere alone. Greyhound buses. First time my buses have ever been so far behind schedule. Anyway, in So Cal, lots of stuff happened. I'm probably gonna forget some, and Shiva will probably add to or correct what I mention.

Left SJ on Monday night, arrived Tuesday morning. One transfer at LA. Both buses were late -_- First bus, I had to sit next to a little boy, whose head fell onto my shoulder a few times during the night. Couldn't get off the bus at the meal stop because the kid was asleep and I didn't want to wake him up -_- Second bus, went ten feet before the driver told us all (in Spanish) that we needed to switch buses. Then ten minutes on the freeway, he pulled over to the shoulder because the bus was getting too hot. He wanted to figure out how to get cool air into the bus, eventually opening the emergency latches on the top of the buses. Then we were on our way.

Tuesday: Shiva picked me up in Santa Ana at 8h30. Shiva and her mom went to their doctor's appointment. I sat in the lobby reading a tech magazine. Then dropped her mom off at Kohl's. Went to meet her friend Allie (sp?), hung out at Target. Allie stole me from Shiva, leading me throughout the store >_> Interesting person, she was. Bubbly and such. I don't think she likes me much if at all -shrug- but she bought me an Almond Joy, which I realize I never ate <_< glory =" Sanrio.">_> Left the house like two hours later for Shiva's friend's house. Met Rochelle (and later Amber). Cool, interesting people. Cheese pizza and root beer (ew, Shiva, ew. Jk). Rochelle and Shiva tried to force me to get a manicure -_- Five-minute-long struggle. Two against one, so not fair D:

Shiva couldn't decide what to wear XP I chose. Why are you making me make decisions? D:

At 9ish, the four of us left in Rochelle's car for Long Beach. Clubbing at the Dollhouse (Hamburger Mary's). 18+. Ladies' Night (Though, there were still guys there). Hmm. The X's are still faintly there on the back of my hands. 18-20 years old, get X's marked on both hands with a permanent marker. 21+ get wrist bands D: Not fair.

Dancing didn't start for a while. Shiva ran into someone she had classes with in high school. Music was all right. Kinda reminded me of high school dances. Recognized most of the songs, but only liked half the songs. Mood of the music kept changing. The dance floor was much smaller than that of Fuz when it was still in Sunnyvale. However, didn't really bump into any of the other people dancing. There were go-go dancers o__o Did not want to look, but couldn't help it. I found it funny to watch the girls watching the go-go dancers XD Their mouths were open. They looked mesmerized haha.

The funniest part was when Rochelle saw a dollar bill on the floor. Seemed to have fallen from one of the dancers. She picked it up and stuffed it into the dancer's boot. Amber freaked out and told her that she wasn't supposed to stuff it in the boot. "YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO STICK IT IN HER PANTIES!" hahahaha XD

The dancing itself in the club was a bit uhh ehhh >_> <_<>_> Obviously, a lot of freaking. Just extreme stuff, wow o_o Now, I remember why I don't like clubbing much <_<>_> Aaand, sadly, I got really sleepy quickly. The music was putting me to sleep -_- Sad. Shiva kept me awake though haha.

After the dancing, we went to Denny's. This is like a trend for every club-goer, isn't it? Picture-taking-ness. More of that in front of Rochelle's house when Shiva and I were about to head home. Amber spun me 'round @_@ Twice! Dizzy, tired. Almost fell.

Friday: Not the best day :/ But I helped Shiva pack some of her books. She's lending me two Dan Brown books (The Da Vinci Code and Digital Fortress) and gave me a Sudoku book and a Charlie Brown Thanksgiving shirt :D Then we went to hang out with her friend Ashley. Nervous peeing dog. I think it peed on my shoes -_- Off to Juice It Up. Hmm, tasty. I still prefer Jamba Juice XP but Juice It Up was good. Then to a bird shop, Omar's. Played with birds :D So nice. And loud. One of them tried to bite my earring XP Hmm, I probably smelled like bird for a bit. Mm, dog pee and bird, what a great combo of fragrance >_> Went to Ralph's. Shiva freaked out because Keebler's finally imitated Girl Scout's Samoas, calling the cookies Coconut Dreams. Of course, Shiva bought it :P

Driving to places... After eating some wraps and me finishing packing, drove Ashley home. Drove to Shiva's relative's place to pick someone up, who apparently didn't need a ride. Rushed to the bus station in Santa Ana. Greyhound window was closed -_- Shiva called the Greyhound customer service for me to ask about baggage check-in. Then a bus came, but it wasn't mine. Another came, and we thought it was mine. So she left.

I asked the driver if his bus was gonna go to LA. He said the next bus would. The next bus came, I asked, and again the driver said "next one." One more bus, finally, my bus, fifty minutes late. I was starting to think that the other bus drivers had lied to me or misunderstood me and I would be stranded in Santa Ana for the night or at least a few hours. Because the bus was late, I got to the LA station about five minutes before my second bus left (which was twenty minutes late) :O No ID tag for my luggage because the Greyhound window was closed in Santa Ana and I had no time to wait in line at the LA station. Thought the driver wouldn't let me on the bus because of this, but luckily a blank tag was at hand, whew. On the bus, I sat next to a sleeping fellow, who slept with his legs spread -_- Not much space for me. And I think my seat was broken because it did not recline much. So my neck was not happy last night/this morning. But the ride was quick. Got back to SJ at 6h20 (on time).


Excluding bus tickets, I spent less than thirteen dollars in So Cal. In total, I spent about $120 for this whole trip. Why? Because I don't spend money XP haha meals were provided by Shiva's mom. Shiva paid for the smoothie I got from Juice It Up.

Anyway, when I got home from the Greyhound station, I was clearing out my luggage. My hand sanitizer bottle broke D: in the pocket that had my notepad, pencil, and netbook charger. Cleaned that out. Dumped the stuff into a smaller bottle of hand sanitizer after I dumped the stuff from the smaller bottle. The small one was one that Shiva gave me. So fruity. Blueberry blast. So strong @_@ Smells like cough syrup, car freshener, and other weird scents. But now, it's all diluted, yay! Though the cap still holds a lot of that fruity smell @_@


Anyway, going home, I learned that Brother was sentenced to two months in jail. Hmm. It seems he'll be back in jail starting the 27th. 60 days, which is actually 40 days physically in jail. Don't know what we're doing about his residence. Are we paying $1000 for his room, while he doesn't live there? Or are we moving his stuff out and leaving it in our garage again?


Mm, four days until school starts again -_- Summer break was not long enough this time around. In previous years, I would always wish that summer was quicker. But this year, I wish it was longer, slower, more restful.


Mm, so that's all I've got to say, I think.

I have an IOmega external hard drive o_o

The family thought I deserved it >_>

I spent much of yesterday transferring over 1000 songs from my desktop to the drive. Then today, I accidentally clicked the wrong button, and iTunes organized all 1000 songs into files that I did not want x_x I'm going through them and reorganizing them individually. But it's going way too slow.

T-T

My stupidity.. grrr..

I think I will: Delete everything out of iTunes. Continue to transfer music files into the external hard drive. Continue to delete songs as I go. Once the transferring is complete, add all however many files I have left back into iTunes.

That seems like a good plan, yeah? It would be most convenient.

The only sad part about it would be I wouldn't remember when I added these songs. And I would lose the play count ): I finally got to a hundred plays on "I'll Be Waiting" by IBU a couple of a weeks ago. So sad, but I think I will have to go with relative convenience. Besides, I'm deleting hella old songs anyway -_-

It just makes me sad that I have to do this... T-T


In other news, it seems I may be going to So Cal to visit and stay with Shiva for a few days this week :D How interesting. I'm surprised Mother is relatively ok with this idea.

I just gotta talk to Shiva about rides and times and such. Then I buy the Greyhound ticket and pack clothes. Probably would leave tomorrow night or Tuesday morning. So soon.

For all you people who wanted to catch up with me, I'll be back in SJ by Saturday, yes. School starts next Wednesday. So we'll have like three or so days to chill.


So yeah, that's how things are going today. Interesting, exciting? Maybe.


What else? Not much. I haven't seen a lot of people this summer. But I've been out of the house for almost half of it. So that is quite awesome.


Anyway, back to reorganizing crap!

My forgetfulness made me forget the word "forgetfulness" ... o_o

Sorry, I haven't been updating. These past two or so weeks have been filled with fun and busy stuffs.

I realize I haven't been home much in the past five or so weeks. Been on campus all day every day (yes, including weekends). Been reading, doing homework, and doing other things. I have barely seen Mother. And I definitely haven't seen Brother in five weeks. That's crazy. And kinda sad.


This past Saturday, I went to SF with Shiva, Harrison, Marian (Harrison's friend), and Paul (Shiva's friend from UCB). We went to the Castro for a while. Haha parking was fuuun >_> Felt like Harrison's SUV was gonna tip over 'cause he parked on a steep hill XD We went to a few shops: the HRC shop (I got dog tags for $10, though I really wanted to buy a bracelet. But it was too expensive x.x), Under One Roof, a shop specialized for men and kinky stuff haha.

Then we drove to where the In N Out was haha :P Parked in the parking garage. Got In N Out. Walked around. Checked out some shops (can't really remember which). Took some pictures. The Skeleton! The pirate ship! Not really, but yeah haha (I've been tagged in some of the pictures on Facebook if you wanna see them).

Blah, sorry for the little detail, but my memory is just gone. I can't recall many specific things T-T

Oh, there was a search for the Ghiradelli Square. Oh-em-gee, how can I forget Fisherman's Wharf? Where the pirate ship was haha. Misty and cold. Not really. Pretty though.

Ooh, Ricky Martin with a rainbow flag. Wax Museum. There was also Eminem. And Mariah Carey, though it didn't really look like her from one side. Haha I laugh at the fact that they put Em and MC on the same spinning thingy. How controversial >_>

Just lots of stuff in SF that I can't recall ): Darn memory.


The Saturday before, I slept over at Shiva's. We were trying to finish our Non-Conforming Behavior term papers. Which I did horribly on. Well, 87/100 isn't too bad.

Same weekend, but on Friday, Harrison and I helped Shiva move into her old apartment. Fun stuff. Tiring. Took allll day XP 'cause we took our time. We were also dancing a lot. Shiva kept playing "Cooler Than Me," "Black and Gold," and a few other songs over and over. Songs that I gave her. She's obsessed!

The Thursday before that, there was a Kendo dinner. I didn't realize I was going until I was there. Sweet Tomatoes. In that plaza where my brother took me once for Jamba Juice. Oh, memories... Anyway, dinner was good. I apparently didn't eat enough. The Naginata sensei gave Shiva and Veronica each a bouquet for their birthdays. Really big bouquets. After dinner, we (Shiva, Veronica, Jay, and I) were taking pictures with the flowers in front of Sweet Tomatoes. Shiva and I were crushed... by flowers. There's evidence... on Facebook. Oh, and yeah, she kissed my cheek >_> right as the picture was taken.


Can anyone tell she's dictating what I say? :P Ok, not dictating, just reminding me of stuffs that happened haha.


Shiva says that I have the mind of an old geezer. She's not kidding. She's so mean T-T such a bully...


Anyway, yeah, that's the past two weeks. Kinda. I can't really be sure @_@

Hmph, Shiva's being mean to me right now T-T She won't tell me what I forgot about SF -sniff- I feel hurt, sad. She's taking pleasure in my sadness, my forgetfulness. Ahh, my forgetfulness saddens me. Seriously, it does.


Ok, anyway, I should get started on my term paper for Social Problems XD or else Shiva's gonna bust my ass o__o I'm sleeping over again. To study for stuff. She helps me. Crazy, isn't it? I'm studying for exams.



Btw, I guess I should say... Shiva is my girlfriend, just so you know... :P