Empathy is lacking in this world.

Yes, we are people; born onto the same earth with the common goal of survival; made of animal cells arranged according to a highly complex human template; breathing the same, recycled air. Yes, we are special individuals; born into our own bodies made of relatively unique arrangements of DNA; given our own capabilities and fears; experiencing life differently from one another.

Life is difficult. The degree of difficulty varies. Our internal demons and external obstacles vary. Our thresholds for difficulty vary. Our resources and support vary.

I don't care if you think we're the same or different. What is important to me is that we empathize with one another.

I empathize with you, not because of what your struggles are, but because I know you struggle too.

I empathize with you, not because we share similar struggles, but because I know no one can experience your struggles.

Us struggling differently doesn't mean one of us has it easier and doesn't mean we are not worthy of the other's empathy.

Fourth job?

So I've been offered a position on the Google Play team through Vaco. Similar job description. Double the pay. Yay!

Now, I'm just waiting for Google to approve a waiver for me. Then Vaco can give me my start date and send me paperwork. I really hope I start work on the 20th, but it really depends on that waiver approval.

My parents don't know I've been laid off. I'm trying to keep it that way because I don't want them to worry about me. But if I don't start my new job soon, I'm going to be a little worried about my financial situation.

My last day at Randstad was this past Friday. It's been a relaxing last two weeks or so. That last day was the most relaxing. It was also kinda sad. I technically no longer have coworkers. But it's ok. We're Facebook friends now haha. Realistically, I'm probably not going to keep in touch with most of them. But it's nice to see what's going on with folks every once in a while.

I have a whole week of no work. What to do? Hang out with people? I guess. I'm in kind of an off mood. Locked myself all day today. I was supposed to go to the bank and buy dinner. But I can't motivate myself to leave the house. I've barely left my room.

I'm just a bit anxious about the start date for my new job. I'm also feeling guilty because I'm lying to my parents. I just don't want them to worry. But I also don't like that I'm lying to them. Dishonesty comes too easily /:

I have to try to keep my head up until I start my job. I just need to hang on. And probably not lock myself in my room all day. I'm not taking very good care of myself. I should try harder. [sigh]