QTIP's Drag Show 2011

I slept over at Shiva's Wednesday night because we both had two back-to-back midterms the next day. The 104 midterm was difficult -_- I hope we both got good scores.

The drag show was on Thursday. I was late for setup because I had gone home around 3 and tried to get back to campus by 5. But I had to wait for D to stop by, which made me an hour late. Setup started late though and ended quickly.

The show itself was all right. Turnout was not as high as it seemed to be last year. There were fewer performances too, I think. Or maybe just fewer performers; some of them did two or three performances.

I liked a few of the performances. Bonnie's "Love The Way You Lie" was good, especially with the IPV (Intimate Partner Violence) facts. Pandora's Myth's dance routine was pretty awesome; probably my favorite performance of the night. Oh, Bonnie's drag troupe (Gender Queer Society) did the final performance of the night. Performing with a pair of drumsticks and inflatable guitars, the four performers were each dressed as a member of a different band or musician. Kiss, George Michael, Bon Jovi, Flock of Seagulls. That was just a fun performance.

Oh, there was also Tim's Emily Rose/Rebecca Black performance o_O The intro was taken from the movie "The Exorcism of Emily Rose." Turned into the song "Friday." The audience sang along. I still don't even remember the tune, and this was probably the third time I'd heard that song. I think Shiva's ears died and her brain lost some cells.

Parker's group, Pimps and Pros, had a fourteen-minute long performance before intermission. A bunch of hip hop songs, quite a bit of profanity, and too much provocative dancing and grinding. Toward the end of the song, the women of the group came off-stage to give lap dances to members in the audience O_O Next time, I want to sit away from the aisles. Anyway, I don't really remember anything else from this performance other than Danny's top fell down (I don't know if it was planned).

There was also a drag queen performing two Cher songs. She held a microphone and everything. Another performer was a guy singing and dancing to his own written song.

I named the performances out of order, but that's 'cause I can't remember them in order. I'm probably missing a few too -shrug-

Mm, so Shiva made me go in drag with her. Except I wasn't really in drag. All I did was wear my usual clothes, and she drew a mustache on me. And a swirly beard thing. In eyeliner stuff. Shiva had a mustache, beard, and sideburns. I brought my baggy hand-me-down jeans from Brother, so that she could borrow it. But she ended up not using them. Made me carry extra weight -_- But anyway, apparently, we looked like twins, I looked like an Asian gangster, and we were just cute (I mean, we were oh so manly). You'll see pictures on Facebook soon probably.

Harrison came to the show after the intermission. I had contacted him too late to get him to the show on time ): Sad. But he enjoyed what he didn't miss :)

So I slept over at Shiva's again Thursday night. And again Saturday night. Slept over quite a bit this week. Even though we broke up...

This past week has been difficult. Lots of tears have been shed. But smiles are still plenty enough.

I Lied

I lied. From the beginning till now (or rather April 10, this past Sunday). And I fucked up all the good things right from the beginning.

I'm a liar and a hypocrite. I hurt the one person who means the world to me.

I don't deserve her. I never did.

I'm sorry, Shiva.

Taking Down Capitalism!

So today, after our first two classes, Shiva and I were posting up fliers in DMH for QTIP's upcoming drag show (next Thursday). Around noon, we left to the Student Union so that she could take pictures of the Tunnel of Oppression before everything was taken down. I did a bit of running around because Shiva's camera was in her room and I went to finish putting up fliers (Shiva's feet are still wounded).

When I came back to the SU to find Shiva, we ended up staying for a long while to help take things down and clean up a bit. Not many people came to help clean up. Maybe they didn't think they should.

But anyway, we were pulling down plastic tarps, peeling off all kinds of adhesive tape, rolling up the tarps, tossing away trash, salvaging what we wanted to keep, moving tables that were used as walls, and taking apart the poles that were used to hold up the tarps. Shiva and I found our knives to be useful :)

I somehow managed to cut my left index finger on a table though. I thought the knife would be dangerous, but no the table cuts me instead -_- Oh, and when we started taking apart the poles, I got injured.

We had one or two people at each corner of the poles (8 poles put together to make a box shape). Shiva was standing directly underneath the first pole we were taking out. So I held the supporting pole, so that the pole wouldn't fall on her head when we took it out. Somehow, the pole was pulled out without any warning to us, and it fell on my middle finger ;-;

At first, I reacted, jerked my finger away and winced. In my head, I was thinking, "Why am I reacting so much? It doesn't hurt that badly." A few seconds later, the pain became unbearable, and I started crying a little. I kept turning around, putting some pressure on my finger with my lips, and fighting back tears.

Sadika (MOSAIC Cross Cultural Center person XD) told me I should stay away from the poles so that I wouldn't injure myself again. But I kept helping out with taking the poles down. I'm injured, but that doesn't mean I'll stop helping if I am still able.

So I didn't really notice anything about my finger other than that it hurt like hell and was sensitive to slight pressure. After a couple of minutes, I noticed that the part of my nail where the pole hit was a bit discolored. Then a dark line started to form around the edge of the injured part. Probably just a bruise. I was afraid my whole nail was gonna turn black. It doesn't look like it will turn black, but who knows? My nail is so sensitive now @_@ When I got home from school, I noticed that my nail was slightly damaged -_-

But it's all good. If my finger hadn't taken the hit, Shiva could have been hit in the head D:

But anyway, afterward, we went to Subway downstairs in the food court. While waiting in line, we kissed each other. And a guy who was sitting in front of Subway complimented us. "If you two are really lesbians, I give you balls for showing your love..." He fumbled a lot over his words. But he was trying to give us props. That hasn't happened to us in a while. And I was kinda surprised that it happened haha XD


Anyway, I did not get any work done today. When we came back to her room, Brian L was with us. We finished watching "Macross" (Was that what it was called?). Strange anime.

Mm, so I'm hoping to get a lot of homework and reading done this weekend. I really wanna keep up or get ahead of my school work, but I don't know how likely that will happen. Lots of reading I want to do tomorrow, since I didn't do any of it today--I really wanted to get all my reading for one class done today -_- Oh well.


Lots of events coming up soon. Been advertising events on Facebook. Would work better if I had more Facebook friends XD Hopefully, the ones I do have will spread the word anyway :)

Zombie Apocalypse at SJSU

Because I am a bit exhausted from the past two days, I'm gonna glaze over what I've been doing.


Yesterday, my 10h30 class was canceled. So Shiva and I spent the rest of the day in the Student Union working on the Tunnel of Oppression. Shiva and her LT friends had a room in the exhibit that was supposed to show the oppression caused by capitalism. A few people didn't seem to help out that much. I think I helped out a bit more with the physical labor than they did, and I'm not even a part of the LT crew <_<

Anyway, today, she, Harrison, and I checked it out. The Tunnel was pretty informative, depressing, and more. Had rooms about capitalism, disability, the War on Drugs, anti-Semitism, bullying, and ageism. I liked the room about capitalism (LT room), bullying, and ageism. In the end, there was the Tunnel (or was it room?) of Hope. Motivational quotes and such placed around mirrors. Positive and/or motivational sayings on the walls. Lists of movies, books, magazines, etc to check out.


So the Apocalypse... I wore dark clothing and had a white bandanna. Stands out real easy. Was nervous going to campus because I expected zombies to be patrolling the entrances to campus. But there were none. I went to class unharmed. Saw no zombies (bandanna on head). Saw no humans either (bandanna on arm). I was a bit worried that no one decided to participate.

Shiva and I were in class till 11h45. My goal was to stay human till noon at least. Did not make it. An Asian guy with a purple bandanna got the both of us in front of Clark Hall thirteen minutes before noon T-T I'm so sad.

As soon as we were tagged, Shiva and I started seeing a lot of bandannas, mostly zombies though ): Walked toward Student Union. I saw a human, pointed, and yelled, "Human!" Shiva and I fumbled a bit trying to run after her (I didn't know what to do with the stuff in my hand). Shiva went after her, and I carried Shiva's stuff. The human screamed quite a bit. Wasn't caught sadly.

We saw another human heading toward the Art Building. Shiva caught him, and he transformed (He put on a "bloody" shirt). I wanted a human. No chances. Saw another human, but he was on a bike.

Later, I caught a human near the Event Center. But I think I only caught her because she was being chased by like ten people, including Evan L and Rahul J. So that was too easy for me >_> The second human I got was a guy sitting down in the hallway of DMH.

Shiva had apparently chased a lot of people while I was in my third class. Sad I didn't get to see. Oh, so in my third class, I was sitting near a classmate who said he wanted to play but didn't have a bandanna. So I let him borrow the extra one that I had originally brought for Amy G--she decided not to play--and told him I would let him live so he could have a chance. When we left class, I met up with Shiva right after she tackled my classmate on his skateboard XD Sadly, Shiva got injured from that ): Had to go to Student Involvement to ask for a first aid kit. She went shoeless the rest of the day.

But Shiva was having a field day with hunting when I wasn't there or wasn't paying attention to humans. She'd just dart off after someone, and I'd just be confused for a moment haha. But yeah, Shiva looked really cool. I swooned every time I learned of how she chased a human, just to impress me XD She got a lot of zombie kisses from me today haha. Her kills made my undead heart flutter :3

While Shiva was in class, I was with Harrison when I caught my third person. We were in the SU food court. He was talking to a friend. I saw a girl running from zombies, so I chased her. Out of the food court and the SU. Got her in front of the Engineering Building. I was so proud of myself. Like, finally a real challenge and stuff. Then she kinda killed my high by letting me know that she had already been tagged; she just didn't want to be a zombie ;-; My fresh kill was not a fresh kill. I felt like I was cheated out of my experience.

And like fifteen minutes later, when I was with Harrison and Billy, Billy and I stalked two girls with purple bandannas near the Akbayan table. I went after one girl and she switched directions, so I let Billy get her. So I went for the next girl. She just turned around and said, "What are you doing?! You already got me!" I was kinda pissed because she sounded like she was irritated by me. All I could think was "Then play by the rules or take the fucking bandanna off!" But I just turned and left.

Much more happened today that was good and fun, like watching humans run from zombies or get caught by them. I feel like the individual chases were the best part. The overall atmosphere was exhilarating and united strangers haha. But it was just some people that pissed me off.

I was listening to a few other people's experiences as zombies and humans. Several complaints: some humans were abusing the safe zones by hiding out in the library or in class rooms; some humans took off their bandannas and pretended they weren't a part of the game until the zombies disappeared; some humans didn't die when they were supposed to; some, both humans and zombies, were on bikes, scooters, skateboards, etc; humans had no defense against zombies--totally unrealistic, as compared to what? Fictional movies? >_> The list goes on, but that's all I can think of right now.


Anyway, today was fun, except for the few instances where people just didn't play fair. I don't know why they wouldn't. It's a game. Would it hurt to follow the rules? It doesn't benefit anyone much to lie or cheat. If you're gonna hide out in the library or whatever, you might as well not participate because that's essentially what you're doing--not participating. But whatever. People will do what they do.

Jovany and Guillermo (organizers) want to make the game bigger with improved rules and enforcement for next semester. I'm up for it. I kinda wanna volunteer to be the original zombie though XP Oh well, we'll see what happens.

April Fool's!

So life has been ok lately. Been getting some work done every day this Spring Break. Have not hung out with anyone. But I've been talking to Shiva online and stuff, so that's good. Also been organizing my music stuff. Have less than 300 songs left to go through. Been downloading a lot of songs that I've been wanting to get. Not done with that sadly.


So on Facebook last night, Shiva wanted to do an April Fool's joke. I was a little hesitant at first, but I agreed to join in. Hence, the Facebook breakup and subsequent argument on her relationship status. She broke up with me because I'm clingy and too high maintenance basically, always wanting to talk to her and keep her to myself. Not letting her talk to her friends. I, on the other hand, feel like she's abandoning me and not paying enough attention.

So far, a few of my friends have made small comments on my status, and one friend sent me a message in support. Alex A from high school doesn't believe it XD but that's just 'cause he can't read the 'argument' on Shiva's status. For the most part, I don't think many people responded to mine because it was late, people just didn't notice, or they didn't believe it XD

On Shiva's end, a few of her friends are supporting her, which is good :) I'm happy to know she's got friends to back her up, even if they don't know the whole story and are only assuming things from the one short argument. It's good to have friends to support you :) Though, I am very sad that two people like the breakup ;-; unless they realized it was a joke and liked it for that reason XP

But anyway, just so we're clear here, we have not broken up and are not intending to. The argument is based on a bit of reality, but I won't tell you which part of the argument nor which of reality.

So I'm a bit afraid of saying April Fool's haha <_<; Because quite a few people believe it and might have strong feelings about it. Especially if they recently broke up with someone for similar reasons >_< That kinda makes me feel bad. Last night, as Shiva and I were 'arguing,' our hearts were racing or beating hella hard haha. I cannot be a practical joker of any kind because I feel too guilty XD Cannot lie very well about this kinda stuff.

Btw, I do kinda agree with Rochelle's comment on Shiva's status--I dunno why it made me think of a hotel. Friends and lovers are on a similar level. But it really depends on the person, his/her friends, and the lover(s).
It could be like you have a few rooms on the same floor. A few friends go in one room, a few go in another, and so on. Your love gets his or her own separate room.
Another way of doing it would be like people staying on different floors.
Everyone could be in the same room, and there's no difference between your friends and your lover(s).
There are just many ways you could treat your many relationships in comparison to each other.

But yeah, just wanted to put this down somewhere. Just so whoever reads this knows I am not that clingy and high maintenance. Or at least I hope I'm not >_> And I was hoping people would know Shiva (and maybe me) well enough to know that she wouldn't argue over Facebook for everyone to see -_-

I can understand Shiva's friends having that opinion of me because they don't know me and all.

Overall, it was too easy to convince some people because they don't know us.


Btw, does the Internet make everything believable?