Do you feel lonely now?

I'm leaving. She wraps her arms around me. Did she just fall into my arms? It feels nice. I hug her back. Why isn't she letting me go? I ask. She tilts her head against my neck.

She says, "Because you're warm and I like being in your arms." I blush. "Oh, you're so cute when you're embarrassed." >_<

She's still holding me. I say, "I'm not that warm." I try to move away.

"Yes, you are." She clings onto me.

"No, I'm not. You're lying." I let my embrace weaken. She has to be lying. I let my arms drop to my side, but still she holds me. "Why are you hugging me so much?"

Silent. Still standing. Still won't let me go. She hugs me more tightly.

I ask, "Why are you here?" I try to push her away. Why won't she get away from me?

"Because I'm sad and you're lonely. My sadness will negate your loneliness." That doesn't make any sense.

I don't know what to say. Then... "I'm supposed to be alone."

"No, you're not. You can't be lonely around me. I'm supposed to make you happy. Do you feel lonely now?"



Hmm, I didn't know hugs could last through a whole dream. I wonder who the girl was. At the least, I know we were at her place. And chyeah, even in my dreams, I blush and am complimented for it XP And I feel like there was a part in the dream where she asked me why I was trying to run away from her. I'm not sure.

I'm not sure how I feel about this dream. I don't remember ever having a dream in which the conversation seems logical. Nor having a dream in which there's not much movement.


I had to get up early this morning. I've been getting up early this entire weekend, hm. Showered, ate, and thought.

Thinking about daydreams. I daydream a lot. Much more than I want to. Sometimes, my dreams feel like daydreams, and I get confused, trying figure out which they really are.

And my daydreams make me sad. More so than before I start daydreaming. Why? Because, in the end, I have to remember that life doesn't work out how I want it to. Life isn't idealistic. People are. Or I am. I expect to be happy; I end up being sad. I expect to have fun; I end up not enjoying much. Just many expectations that aren't met. In some way, it's my fault -_- Too many expectations, not enough effort. Blah.


Mm, yeah, anyway, tired. Don't know what to do. Hmm.