Question 2

I don't know if it's because people don't think I think about other things or they don't want to ask me other things. But many people have been talking to me about love and relationships. And I only bring up the topic with a few people -shrug- A couple of people trying to give me advice lately too >_> or "encourage" me to do something about my relationship status -_-

Like I need people to remind me that I'm alone, that I want to be with someone -sigh-

Anyway, I'm not sure how I'm gonna answer this question. I thought I already talked about this enough, but I guess not. I'm just gonna type whatever stuff comes to mind. Not gonna be in any coherent order. Is there ever any order? Ok, onward with the flow of consciousness haha...


Q: What is love?


A: Oh baby, don't hurt me. Don't hurt me no more... :P

I'm assuming this question is about romantic love. Well, I'm not sure what love is. An emotion? An attachment to another? An irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired? :P Robert Frost ftw!

I don't think the love I'm looking for can really be described haha. Or I just don't know how to find the words to describe it. But I'm sure love is what most of us are looking for though. I just don't really know what it is. It's too abstract for me to be able to define for myself. But since it is a known concept, I can't help but think about it often.

Since I can't define it quite how I want to, I'm just gonna tell you what I think of it. I'm not sure I know anything of it haha.

To feel wanted would be nice. Not just accepted by friends, but to be really wanted and needed by someone. To want and need someone as well. To be with someone who cares that much about you. To know you're not alone. To not feel lonely.

Love is a give-and-take kinda thing, isn't it? Unless you include one-sided love; then never mind. But yeah, you give a part or all of yourself to someone special, and they do the same for you. You both talk, listen, care, and take the time to make things work. Both must put effort into the relationship. You give what you can, and you take what you need. It's a kinda process of sorts.

Love invites trust. And with that, vulnerability. Reminds me of a quote. If I could only find it... "Love is giving someone the ability to destroy your heart... but trusting them not to." That is a lot of trust. Just saying.

Oh, there's a difference between loving someone and being in love. Remember that. Haha I know there's a difference even if I can't define love in absolute terms. To love someone means you care about them (Does this mean you can love strangers?). To be in love with someone means... what?


I have questions about love for you:
Is love something that you find? Or is it something you build up? I mean, is it just there when you meet someone? Or do you have to know the person and wait for love to find its way in later?
Are there such things as soulmates? What is a soulmate?
Is love predetermined and guaranteed? Or is it something you're supposed to keep working on together?
How do you know it's love?
Is love a decision or something you can't control? Compulsion? Obsession?
If you rush into love, are you likely to rush out of love?
When you're in a relationship, do you think about the long-term or do you only think about what is there at the time of the relationship?
Why does it seem so easy for people to fall out of love?

Oh, I have so many questions haha. I'm curious as to what you have to say.


I've been talking to Robert B on AIM. I asked him what he thought love was. His answer:

"That warm fuzzy feeling inside, just being around someone. Where just thinking about them can make you smile - if you let yourself - and when the thought of them being happy is enough to make you happy"

I wish I could keep my answer as simple as that because I do agree with his answer. But you know me; I gotta think and rethink it.


Whatever love is, I hope I can find/see it, have the courage to pursue it, and believe that I deserve it.

I only know what it is to like someone. A lot. I don't know what it means to be in love with someone. I'm afraid I won't get it right. But eh, I suppose I am willing to take a chance? Maybe? If someone's willing to give me a chance, mm...

I wonder how I will be if and when I decide to take a chance. Should I take a chance? haha...


Ooh, quotes haha. Just a collection of many that resonate with me, I suppose. And I'm sure some would resonate with you too.


Haha well, I don't think I answered that question at all. Instead, I rambled. And I still didn't say much.

And why do I feel like people are going to continue to ask me about love and relationships? Hmmm... I suppose I don't really mind talking about this stuff, but I'm not sure I have a whole reservoir of things to say on this topic. I'm already repeating myself, you know.


Anyway, five days of classes left. Then a week or so of finals. Then SUMMER BREAK. It seems Disneyland might not be happening ): nor is Expo happening 'cause it's just too expensive for me x_x but hey, that just means Mother and Brother are willing to pay for some other trip(s) I might take this summer. I'm still not sure if I want to take summer classes so that I can apply for Justice Studies. I might not declare that. I might change my mind. To what, I do not know yet. Will also try to find a friggin' job.

Yep. Scary fast, this semester. Can't believe it's almost over O: What shall I do during the summer? Not like I can hang out with people every day ): I can't use school as an excuse. Blah. We'll see what happens. Maybe Mother and I will move this summer. Who knows?