Forget everything that we have done

Erase me
From your memory
Don't call
Don't ask about me until the day hell freezes over

New Found Glory is awesome.


I noticed that I haven't posted anything in about a week. Well, not much has happened. Still feeling the same as usual -__-

But I talked to my Poli Sci prof about the midterm. I'm making it up next Tuesday on campus. No disruptions hopefully. No crappy conditions either. I can't fail.

I have 5 weeks of classes left. And also finals. Three finals and a final paper. Fun stuff. At least I'll be done with school in the middle of May. I can go visit ST after finals. By that time, AP exams should be over, and I won't interfere with their finals.

I hope this summer will be memorable. Last summer was supposed to be memorable, but it wasn't really too interesting. A few fun things, but I didn't go out much. Not surprising. But this year, I want to get out more. Staying home so much makes me feel hella crappy. I'll remember to ride my bike. Or jog. Do something. Outside. I need to get outside.

I hope people invite me to hella stuff too haha. Though, I know some people are coming back to SJ for a little bit and then going back to school for summer session or work :( But the rest of the friends should be around. I want to make new friends to chill with. I haven't really made any new friends. At least not any to hang out with. Only people I really talk to now are a few classmates who went to ST with me: Albert B, Lisa H, Melissa A, Michelle R, and Austin C. But I only talk to them during class and maybe a while after our classes end.

I miss talking to my close friends. We were close in high school. Now, I see them once in a while. Even those that live so close. We're not so close at all. Or so it seems. I don't even know what's going on with people anymore. I'm getting news about people months after stuff happen.

I need to make new friends. ^They have made new, good friends. I should too. I need to get out more.

Words, words, words. I don't do anything. I'm just made of words and thoughts. No action. Mm.. I've been wanting to go to the movies, but no one's been responding. I should just wait for people to invite me to things. That's easier. I'm looking for the easy way. I always wait. So passive, non-assertive. Where's my motivation to step up? I can't even motivate myself -_- So lame.

Yeah, I'm being negative. Losing that resolution. I'm trying not to, but it's really hard when I don't do anything. When I try to do stuff, my mom just yells at me. I don't know why I bother with anything. Just school and home. Should keep it at that. Makes her happy. Less contention. Yeah.

Conflicted.